The Sith Mind
These are the dark thoughts of Darth Vader in a pre episode IV – post episode III world. Its kind of based on the thoughts of what made him into a Sith Lord.
I was betrayed by the Jedi. Obi Wan was jealous of my powers, this never would have happened had Qui Gon still been alive. Qui Gon always believed in me and knew what I could become, Obi Wan never believed in me. I think Obi Wan only trained me after Qui Gon's death so that he could pay respects to his deceased master and because it was the will of the Jedi council. Even the Jedi council didn't believe in me either, I think they also only let me join the Jedi order out of respect for Qui Gon's wishes and belief in me. After Qui Gon died the only ones who believed in me was Amidala and Chancellor Palpatine. Its funny that the only support I could get was from two politicians. The Jedi ddint even like me spending time with either one of them, the Jedi never had my best interests in mind. They were always worried about protecting the integrity of their order and never about the personal welfare of the Jedis in the order. Chancellor Palpatine turned out to be Darth Sidious, the very dark lord of the Sith. Yet Chancellor Palpatine was the only one who always believed in me, knew my true potential, and understood me with my best interests in mind. I know that he is a Sith and that he is supposed to be the most evil being in the universe but I believe now that I only thought that because it was what the Jedi's teachings wanted me to think. Chancellor Palpating was always there for me when I needed him and he always gave me the answers that helped me resolve any situation. He was like a father to me in the ways that Qui Gon could have been and the ways Obi Wan could never live up to. Obi Wan never could give me the fatherly role model relationship that I needed, he was my master and that was the extent of our relationship most of the time. He was a fine role model and a fine teacher but what I needed was a father type figure to guide me in my life and he couldn't provide that because I think he thought I was more of a danger than the one who was supposed to bring balance to the force like Qui Gon thought. No matter what Obi Wan had to put the Jedi order first and couldn't break the smallest rule. Its probably all his fault that I am a dark lord of the Sith now. The Sith aren't what the Jedi make them out to be anyways, the Jedi are more like what they say the Sith are with all their political intrigue and just a bunch of stuff that doesn't even matter in the end. Everything the Jedi say about the Sith is all propaganda so that the young apprentices would grow up thinking the Sith is wrong when the Sith could actually show them the path that they should be following.
I felt like I was more than ready to take on Obi Wan in battle but he proved me wrong. He used his trickery and lies to win that battle in the lava pits. If we would have faced on even ground without all of the distractions I am sure the dark side would have prevailed over his old Jedi ways, what's done is done though. Now I am more machine than man and I will curse Obi Wans name until the day I can finally strike him down with my lightsaber, he will forever regret not finishing me off that day. I would not have let him live, if it were me standing over his limp body that day he would have never breathed air again. Darth Vader does not show mercy. It is of no consequence though because I vow to take his life when we meet again, and this time he will face a much more powerful Sith lord that he has ever faced before.
I proved the Jedi wrong. I always knew that I would become the most powerful Jedi of them all. Qui Gon told me of my potential and it was obvious to me at a early stage in my Jedi training that my power seemed to be limitless. Even though I began training very late compared to a lot of the other apprentices, I was quickly ahead of them in training. I took to the training very easily, it was like second nature to me. Everything about the Jedi order was very easy for me to pick up and I really enjoyed the training and all the aspects of becoming a Jedi. If they weren't so strict and suspicious of my abilities I would be on the council now and the Jedi would more than likely be the most powerful force in the whole of the universe. Everything would probably be good between us if they would have let be a true member of the Jedi council when Chancellor Palpatine wanted me to be instead of still treating me like an apprentice. At that point in time I was more powerful that a lot of the Jedi Masters on the council and they knew it, but once again they were scared because they thought that I was too powerful and that I wasn't going about using my abilities in the right way. They were just jealous, I did with my powers what I wanted to because they are my powers and I should be able to decide what I do with them. It's none of the Jedi's concern what I do with my powers. That's why I killed so many of them, there was no changing the Jedi's minds from their old ways and teachings. They were trying to put that crap on me but luckily Lord Sidious was there to guide me past all of their lies and down the true path of the dark side. I will never trust a Jedi again; they are all deceitful in their ways.
When I was having nightmares of Amidala's death the Jedi were of no help to me, it was clear to me that I had to be the most powerful Jedi in the universe in order to protect Amidala and Chancellor Palpatine confirmed those thoughts for me when he told me how I could possibly restore a lost life using the powers that the Sith can give you. It seemed as if the Jedi were going to turn all of the republic against Chancellor Palpatine and I thought that was wrong because I felt that he was the only one that had the republic's best interests at heart. There were too many politicians in Coruscant and they got in each other's way too often. This is unacceptable, when you are running a government so vast and powerful , appropriate actions need to be taken immediately in a lot of different situations. For those reasons Chancellor Palpatine is now an emperor and the republic is now the empire. Everything will run smoother now that the Sith have take control of the universe. There will be no more Jedi trying to stick there nose in places that they don't belong and trying to solve problems with their old way and traditions. If a situation arises, the empire will strike it down swiftly and if any Jedi pop up from their hiding places and try to get involved I will handle it personally.
The Jedi took my wife from me with their trickery and foolishness and by doing so took my capabilities of keeping her safe away from me. I always loved Amidala and she was always there to support me, especially when the Jedi couldn't. She truly cared about me and how I felt, and that was something I felt like I never received from anyone in the Jedi order, except for Qui Gon. They made it so she didn't believe in me anymore. I hate them for that and for when they couldn't let me get my mother and bring her to Coruscant so she could be safe. I enjoyed killing all those tusken raiders after they had killed my mother. I took no mercy with their pitiful lives, quick and precise I killed every last one of them without remorse, I hate them. Obi Wan was my master and he turned against me, striking me down with his lightsaber in battle, I hate him. The Jedi council would not except me because I was too young and too brash, but when I joined the apprenticeship program they said I was too old, I hate them. I hate
all that oppose the Sith, they do not understand the true power of the dark side, they are weak, they are worthless, and they all deserve to die.