I Miss You So Much

I do not own the song (see title) sung by TLC. And I don't own SM.

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My Dearest One,

How are you? I'm doing alright myself. I'm married, but you knew that. I heard you yourself got married recently. I am sorry I was unable to attend. It pained me to know I would be unable to be there for you on your special day.

Its been many, many years since I saw you last, my dearest angel. But I never forgot about you. How could I? You have a light to you that makes you take up all the space in a room. It would only figure that you took up all the space in my heart.

Perhaps I shouldn't tell you that. We're both married and it would only cause problems. But I can't not tell you. You've haunted my mind since the day I saw you last.

All these years, I've wondered what it would be like had I told you how I felt instead of keeping it in. I'm sure you knew, though. All the times we fought... Just a way to mask how I truely felt. I may seem bold, but I'm a very shy little girl in reality.

I must confess, though, I never asked for this feeling. It kills me to know you were the one thing I could never have. And in the end, I hated myself for putting you through such grief.

Although we fought together, you, me and the senshi, you were the one I trusted most to back me in a fight. The one I knew who would never let me down. And you never did. You picked me up when I needed it, and opened my eyes to love.

That's not to say I'm not happy being married to who I am. No, I am happy. Just...not whole. I always needed you to make me complete. I wonder how I got by without you. Once I had you, I never wanted to let you go. But after hundreds of years, we drifted apart. We needed our own space, I supposse.

I am sorry for bringing up the past. I just needed to let my emotions out. You know me wll enough to know that I cannot keep things bottled up inside.

I miss you so much, Rei.

Love Eternally,

~*~Usagi~*~

~I never asked for this feeling

I never thought I would fall

I never knew how I felt

Till the day you were gone

I was lost

I never asked for red roses

I wasn't looking for love

Somehow I let my emotions take hold

And guess what all at once

I'm in love

Oh I miss you so much

I long for your love

It's scares me

Cuz my heart gets so weak

That I can't even breathe

How can you take things so easily

Baby why aren't you missing me?

Why did I act like you mattered

It was silly of me to believe

That if I just opened my heart

Things would come naturally

Jokes on me (yeah)

I did not ask for love letters

So why did you give them to me

How could I let your intentions

Get hold over me

So in love

So naive (oh baby)

Oh I miss you so much

I long for your love

It's scares me

Cuz my heart gets so weak

That I can't even breathe

How can you take things so easily

Baby why aren't you missing me?

And oh how I hate what you have done

Made me fall so deep in love

Got no cure

You're the only one I want

That I love oh baby

Oh I miss you so much

I long for your love

It's scares me

Cuz my heart gets so weak

That I can't even breathe

How can you take things so easily

Baby why aren't you missing me?

Baby why aren't you missing me?

Baby why aren't you missing me?~