Chapter 1

Eric stared longingly at Horatio and Tim who were wrapped up in a warm embrace in the doorway to H's office. Shift had just ended and the two men were seeking comfort in each other after the little girl they'd been searching for had been found dead on the side of the highway with her murderer hovering over the girls naked body clearly having just had sex with the little girl. The awfulness of the case had stuck with him as well. Who could ever hurt a child especially in such a brutal way? He could feel the familiar tug in his heart when he saw Speed place a tender kiss on the corner of the redhead's mouth. He wanted to be a part of that. He wanted to be loved completely and totally by the two men standing in the office at the top of the stairs he was standing in front of. What he'd had drilled into his head for as long as he could remember about loving another man being wrong was playing havoc with his heart which said go for it. In his head he could hear his mother quoting scriptures about how loving a man was wrong but he'd decided long ago that not everything he'd learned from his parents was always the be all end all they implied it to be.

"When are you going to stop staring at them and tell them you want to be in a relationship with them?" Calleigh questioned coming up next to him.

"Jeez! Make some noise next time, will ya, Cal?" he cried clapping his hand to his rapidly racing heart.

"Sorry, but you never answered my question," she added.

"What makes you think they want to be in a relationship with me in the first place? They look pretty happy on their own," Eric commented.

"Well for one thing the looks they give you when you're not looking."

"What kind of looks do you mean?" Eric wondered.

"The kind that say they want you in their bed naked and screaming out their names as they have their wicked way with you," she explained. Eric stared at Calleigh wide-eyed.

"Cal?" he gulped his mouth suddenly going dry. He could feel heat flooding his face and another part of his body was becoming hard at the thoughts his friend had just put in his mind. A cross between a moan and a whimper escaped Eric's lips before he could stop it. Calleigh smirked at the look on her friends face and the desire she could see smoldering in his eyes.

"What?" she asked impishly.

"Where do you come up with these things?"

"I have a vivid imagination and I read erotic stories, but that's beside the point. They want you, not only do I know because of the looks they give you, but also because I heard them talking about it the other day. They want to have a relationship with you but they don't know how to approach you. They're afraid you'd reject them," she told him.

"I do want to be in a relationship with H and Speed, but everything I was taught as a kid tells me it's wrong," Eric explained.

"Do you feel it's wrong in your heart?" Calleigh asked.

"No, I don't," Eric admitted. "I love them," Eric said softly. His eyes dropped and he intently studied his shoes. Reaching out a hand Calleigh tilted his chin so he was looking into her eyes.

"What's wrong Eric?" she asked softly.

"I've known I've loved them and wanted to be in a relationship with them for a long time but today is the first time I've actually said I love them out loud. I don't know what to do," Eric said desperately. Calleigh could see the conflict in her friend's eyes and she wanted desperately to help him. All she ever wanted was to see her friends happy.

"Then take the next step," she said confidently.

"What would that be?" he asked clearly confused and conflicted. Calleigh was about to respond when she caught sight of Horatio and Speed descending the stairs and moving towards them.

"You come home with us and we talk about this," Horatio answered softly as he placed an arm around Eric's shoulders. Eric who was still unsure turned doubt filled eyes to the two men.

"But why do you want me? I don't understand what's so good about me?" he asked doubtfully. Recognizing that this was a moment for just the three men Calleigh quietly made her exit after giving them a small wave. Moving so he was facing the Cuban-Russian CSI, Tim gently took Eric's face in his hands.

"We want you, make no mistake about it," he said softly.

"The balls in your court. We'll go home and talk this all out and whatever you want to do we'll accept," Horatio reassured him.

"If you want a relationship with us we'll accept that, but if you just want to remain friends we'll accept that to, no hard feelings," Speed assured him.

"Okay," Eric agreed as he turned and followed the other two men out of CSI.

"See you at the house," Speed said pulling Eric in for a kiss which Eric hesitantly but eagerly returned.

"MMM, you sure know how to kiss," Speed said with a satisfied smirk on his face as they pulled apart.

"I'll have to find out for myself in a little while," Horatio whispered in Eric's ear as he gently nipped the lobe. Eric whimpered at the contact and couldn't stop the happy sigh from escaping his lips. The other two men smiled at each other as they headed for Horatio's hummer. Just before Horatio pulled away he pulled Speed in for a kiss that left him reeling. Eric groaned from his spot next to his car. Here goes nothing, Eric thought as he climbed into his car and headed for Horatio and Speed's house. I just hope I don't fuck this up, Eric thought. This was something he wanted heart, body, and soul and he didn't want to do anything to screw up his chances.

"We may get what we've been wanting after all," Horatio commented as they made their way to their house.

"Yeah assuming Eric doesn't run," Speed added worriedly.

"I'm sure he's scared and probably conflicted but the looks he's been giving us say he wants us and he wants us bad," Horatio argued back.

"Your right, but I hope he realizes that even though we want him more than anything else in this world that we'll accept it if he just wants to be friends," Speed said.

"I think he does and if he doesn't we'll make sure he knows that," Horatio assured his lover just as they pulled up to the house. They smiled as they saw Eric sitting in his car his hands gripping the wheel and taking deep breaths.

"Looks like we're not the only nervous ones," Speed commented.

"It does, doesn't it," Horatio agreed as he stepped out of the hummer and made his way gracefully to the front door of the house Tim, he, and hopefully soon Eric shared.