Disclaimer: I do not own Edward (unfortunately), Bella, or any of the other characters. This story is titled after the song 'Out Of My League' by Stephen Speaks. I do not own the song, or the band. :)
This is my first fan fiction for Twilight so comments would be appreciated. Thanks for reading!
Edward:
I watched her from the corner of my eye as I drove. I couldn't quite put my finger on it but there was something bothering her."Bella?" I asked quietly as I turned completely to her.
Bella turned to me and forced a smile. "Yes?"
"What's wrong, love?" I asked softly. She shook her head and looked away but I could see the tears in her eyes. I pulled over and took hold of both of her hands. "What is it, Bella?" I whispered.
Bella looked up at me sadly. "I'm sorry…it's just that…I don't know if I can do this, Edward," she said quietly as she gestured to the open road before us. I knew exactly what she meant. We were on our way to Las Vegas to elope which meant that my family would fake our deaths in a few days and I would change Bella. It broke my heart to see her so upset.
"Bella, you don't have to do anything," I whispered as I took her in my arms. I could feel her shuttering against me as she tried to control her shaking sobs.
"No…I know, Edward," Bella whispered. "I do want to…but Charlie…and Renée…" she whispered shakily.
"Ok, I'm taking you home," I said as I put her back in her seat and turned the car around. I could feel her watching me but I didn't turn to her. I didn't want her to know how much I hated this.
When we stopped in front of her house (moments later, thanks to my driving), Bella looked up at me as I turned to her. "I'm so sorry, Edward…soon," Bella whispered. I smiled at her and nodded. I knew that she wanted this. She told me she wanted to be with me, to be like me. The only way I would allow that was if we were married. Part of me was glad that she had decided to wait. I wanted to keep from changing her as long as I could. I wanted to save her…I wanted her to be mine…I wanted to protect her…but I was selfish.
"Bella," I managed to say. "I understand." I said simply. And I did. It was then that I knew exactly what I would have to do. I knew it would hurt her and I knew that it would be just as painful for me but it had to be done--because I loved her more than anything. "I love you," I whispered as I leaned over to kiss her cheek. "Goodnight, Bella." I whispered.
"Aren't you coming?" Bella asked me.
"Later." I replied nonchalantly. As I watched her get out of the car with a slight nod, I began to feel the familiar ripping of my heart, the ache deep inside that reminded me that I was human once. It told me that I am capable of human emotions after all. I watched Bella walk inside as I slowly backed out of the driveway. As I drove, I called Carlisle to tell him my plan but there was no need. Alice had already filled him in on it.
"Son, are you sure this is the right thing?" Carlisle asked me. Whenever he called me son, it made me sad in a way. I knew that I would never be half the man Carlisle was and for him to consider me his son was an honor in many ways.
"I'm sure, Carlisle," I said quietly. "But…please don't…"
"I won't, Edward," Carlisle said. Sometimes I wondered if he could read my mind as well as I could read his. Of course he knew that I wouldn't want Bella to know the truth.
"Thanks, Carlisle," I said quietly. "Maybe things will change but…right now this is what is best,"
I heard Carlisle sigh deeply. "Best for whom, Edward?" he asked. I thought of that for a moment. It wasn't best for me, by any means.
"For Bella, of course," I replied confidently.
Bella:
I knew that what I had decided had bothered Edward but I hadn't meant for him to turn around, although I was glad that he understood. I just needed more time to cope, to think it through, and more time to say goodbye to Charlie and Renée.
I went to sleep that night after tossing and turning for almost two hours. It was a strange feeling without Edward by my side. I wondered when he would come. He had said 'later' which could mean almost anything with him.
That night I dreamed a normal dream, by normal standards anyway. Everything was as it usually was except for one thing. Edward wasn't there. I went about my daily life as I always did. I went to work, ran errands and such but a part of me knew that something was missing but for some reason, I didn't seem to have a clue what it was.
I woke up with a jolt, gasping and looking around for Edward. He would tell me that everything was fine and that I was being ridiculous.
But Edward wasn't there…
I got up and ran to my window to look out but he wasn't outside, either. "Edward?" I asked quietly, knowing he would hear if he were anywhere near my house. I waited as patiently as I could for a few moments.
The silence was deafening.
Edward never came. "Edward!?" I screamed. Luckily Charlie was fishing.
My heart sank as I began to realize what was going on. Frantically I started to search for everything that would remind me of Edward. The pictures were all there…the cd of my lullaby he had given me was still where I had left it. I put it in my cd player and lay on my bed with my face buried in the pillows. As the music filled my room, I began to sob.