MsRawr: Hey there! YO! I'm back! Yes, yes, my Pen name was ONCE MsRawr but I had forgotten my password for the account and to that specific email so yeah. Anyway, I hope you enjoy this story. I wanted to try something different so I'm hoping you like it. Thanks!

Disclaimer: I do not own Shugo Chara

I'm trying to move on

It was a new year. New start.

Amu watched herself in the mirror carefully. Her hand rose up slowly to touch her new hair and new face. She was different now. Taller, prettier and cuter. All the emotional breakdowns she's had.. For her dream guy. She knew he had a girlfriend. She knew he was a player- popular to all girls of every type. She knew he would never like her. She was aware of it all.

It was time to step out of her shell now; show him what she is and even.. Even forget about him.

Was she ready?

'Who knows?' She mumbled

Amu stepped forward to let soon-to-be train passengers stand in the cramped area beside her. She fought back any stray tears that were soon to come.

'Amu?' Ikuto said softly, his hand resting on hers.

'Mm?' She murmured- not wanting anything to ruin the moment.

'Your short.'

'YOU RETARD!#$%^%^#'

She closed her eyes, remembering any insult or flaw of hers that he had pointed out casually- noting how it had seemed as though he hadn't really cared about how she had felt.

'WOAHH! You have a moustache that is even more noticeable than mine!' He laughed, examining it carefully- although it was much to her embarassment.

'Shut-UP!' She half mumbled- her face now brighter than ever.

'Aww, it's okay little sister' He had said, before getting off the train and turning around to wave to her like a lunatic.

But she had smiled. No matter what insults he had thrown at her, she had smiled her way through it, hoping he was only joking.

'Amu, you'll always be my little sister yeah?'

'THIS TRAIN WILL STOP AT..'

Amu snapped out of her trance.

Her eyes scanned the platform outside the train doors that were soon to open. A crowd of people had already started to form at the door. No sign of him.

Amu sighed. Maybe he wasn't coming? It was a good thing right? After all, it's much easier getting over someone if you don't see them.

Amu looked down at her phone, trying to occupy herself and hide any disappointment. Oh yes, it was going to be one long train ride.

As the doors opened slowly, people rushed in- before moving off to either the top or bottom of the carriage to sit down. She couldn't help but steal a peek.

She watched a group of boys walking in last- all talking to each other about something of a humorous manner. They were all wearing the same uniform. His uniform.

To some extent, she was relieved that at least some other school students were there. Although they had happened to be his friends, she ignored it.

'YO.'

That voice.

That all-too familiar voice. Amu cringed slightly- reluctantly looking up.

Yeah, it was him alright. The guy who had teased her countless times. The guy who would pick her up after her tutoring classes. The player. The popular one. The 'brother' she had fallen in love with.

Tsukyomi Ikuto.

Amu nodded slightly as if to return his greeting. She hadn't cared what he thought of her at that exact moment. Or so she told herself that.

Yes, she was nervous. Hell nervous. She had practically spent her whole morning trying to look her best for him- hoping that he'll fall for her new look and practically fall in love with her.

But we all know that it's never going to happen.

She knew it so well.

'Woah! My lil' sis has grown up!' She heard her crush say.

The words; 'Little sister'

It stung. It pierced. It stabbed.

It hurt whatever she had left of a heart.

He would only ever treat her as a little sister- being sweet to her, being over protective of her, being a big brother to her.

It wasn't fair.

In sad love stories, there would always be two best friends who can't seem to confess to each other in

Fear that the 'friendship' would be ruined.

What about her?

Bestfriend can turn into girlfriend.

But sister? That's considered 'incest'

Now, you may argue that it doesn't matter because they aren't even real blood-related siblings but Amu was aware that Ikuto could never love her- and maybe, calling her his 'sister' was the easiest way of rejecting her.

"Hey, hey!" that same voice continued, interrupting her train of thought.

She looked up and nodded again, a tiny blush creeping onto her face as she looked into his eyes.

"You feeling okay? You seem to be daydreaming more than usual. What, tired from being on Facebook all night?" he said, smirking, "when will you ever get real friends huh?"

She groaned, her eyes slowly resizing into slits- sending 30 seconds worth of intense hate rays.

"Whoa, whoa relax there!" he chuckled, raising his arms up to his face to defend himself, "you know I'm only joking! I'm a nice person, I wouldn't be that mean!"

"Oh ha-ha! And what, pigs can fly? You have a life? Yeah? I can think of heaps more bull-shit than you can," she retorted immediately, rolling her eyes as she did.

She then waited. With her quick, smart comments, he would always look at her with a fake glare- before 'punishing' her with slaps, pats, fatal hugs or even trying to force her to give him a piggy back. As her hazel eyes had searched his mesmerizing, blue ones, her breath hitched. A blush quickly crept onto her cheeks- sending her head to the side to save embarrassment.

"I wouldn't be that mean to my little sister.. I really care about you!" he said softly- and for once, a sincere smile adorned his face.

And although the words had kept on stabbing, it didn't matter to her right at that moment. I mean, you can't stab a pool of water. Or at least in Amu's case, it was whatever she had left of a heart, melted into the small, warm puddle of 'luuuurrvee'.

Should she be thankful that this method had saved her humiliation? Could she be satisfied with just this?

Amu couldn't answer any of the questions that surged into her mind that night. After restlessly tossing and turning, she finally came to a conclusion.

No matter what the outcomes are, the journey is going to hurt her a lot.

Unless she can get out of it.

MsRawr: Yaaay! It's finished! Hmm, I'm not really sure where I can go with this. But I'm willing to experiment. Thanks for reading and I hope you liked it! You are MORE than welcome to leave a review. Be it for support or as constructive criticism.

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