I got the deadliest catch box set for my birthday so I've literally been watching it for the past two weeks and doing nothing hahah, such a geek I know but oh well. This story is about Jake Anderson, hopefully you will like it! Review please! I do not own anything from deadliest catch or the people, just my own characters.

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This was not the first time I had watched him sleep, it wasn't the first time I had thought about taking him back or just leaving all together. It wasn't the first time I had felt like this at all, I had felt like this every night since that day it all crumbled in to tiny little pieces. The day he cheated on me. I was confused, heart broken and scared all at the same time. The love we shared I didn't even know was possible, the love of that in fairy tales, the love of the kind that your parents tell you about when you're upset over a past boyfriend when you were younger.

I watched as his chest rose and then fell back down again. The goose bumps all over the top half of his body evident as the duvet was not covering him properly. His hair was a mess as usual and his nails were dirty, but he was beautiful. Beautiful in the way that my heart raced when I saw him, but I wish it didn't. I wish I could just turn back time and not have fallen in love with him, but I can't do that. I have to stay in this exact moment, with him and our two children, Lucian and Stacey. Our twin sons, nearing the age of 1, nearing the age of knowing that their parents aren't together. I looked down at my lap and sighed, tugging at my hoodie sleeve just as I was about to get up.

"You wanna get in?" Jake asked, his voice course. I looked over at him, his eyes barely open as he held up the duvet, ushering me to get in next to him.

"Nah, just gonna sleep in the other room." I said quietly as I stood up.

I heard him sigh as I left the room, quietly tip toeing down the large, carpeted hallway I popped my head around Stacey and Lucian's bedroom door, seeing them sleeping putting a small smile on my face. I made my way in to the third bedroom, the room I've been sleeping in since they were born and collapsed on the large double bed, I climbed under the covers before letting my head hit the white pillow. I heard the door creak open slightly and a soft sigh, I peaked out from under the covers, seeing Jake standing there leaning against the doorway in his joggers.

"Can I sleep in here?" He asked softly. I closed my eyes tight, trying not to cry as I pulled the covers back over my head.

"Ok." I said quietly.

He climbed in next to me, wrapping his arms around my small body, pulling me closer to him. He rested his face in my long, jet black hair and raised his hand to rest on my cheek as he caressed it slowly. I closed my eyes tighter as I tear escaped my eye, Jake's hand wiping it away as he continued to caress my cheek.

"Don't cry." He whispered.

"I don't know what else to do." I sniffled.

"I'm sorry." He whispered, placing soft kisses in my hair. I breathed in deeply, trying to control my tears, not wanting to cry in front of Jake. I lay there silent, I didn't know what to say, I didn't forgive him and even if I did I would never be able to forget what he did.

"Please say something." He said softly. I sniffled quietly, tears escaping my eyes faster than before.

"I need time Jake." I said.

"I'll wait for you." He whispered, nestling his head in my hair, his grip around my waist tightening.

This is a story about love, heartbreak and everything in between.