Hello everyone! :-)

This is my first Twilight fanfic and I hope you'll like it.

First of all, I want to apologise for any grammar mistakes. English is not my first language.

Second, I love the Emily, but if she'll appear in the story, she will not be Sam's imprintee.

Let me know what you think, since I'm very insicure.

Bella will be different than the one in the books or movies, but I hope you'll like her anyway.

This story is rated M for future mature content. The Twilight characters and world are the intellectual and creative property of Stephenie Meyer, I'm just playing with them.

CHAPTER 1

The drive towards La Push had never felt longer. Bella passed the trees she had memorized in her mind during the past months, letting them guide her towards her destination. The only thing in her mind was Jake.

Jake. Her best friend. The only person that could make her smile after Edward had left her, breaking her heart in the process.

However, lately Jake had been ignoring her texts, her calls. Billy had told her that he was sick, but two weeks had passed and Bella needed to know why her closest friend was ignoring her. Had she done something wrong? Did he get tired of her?

She rehearsed the words that she had prepared to tell him for when she would have seen him. Because she had no intention to leave that place until she would have seen him. Would he have pushed her away? Or finally would have explained to her why he had been so distant towards her?

She felt anger build in her body when she realized one thing. Jake wouldn't have told her anything. He was part of that gang now. Anger grow at the thought of those arrogant, giant men.

However, once the red house appeared before her eyes, her anger dissipated into sadness.

She switched off her pickup, without caring about where she was parking, and quickly reached the front door.

The rain was pounding, but she did not care. She only had one thought in her mind.

She knocked on the door few times, before Billy finally opened.

"Bella" he exclaimed surprised, after all, he had been the one to tell her to stay away from Jake.

"I need to see him."

"He's not here." Billy tried to explain to her, but from the way he glanced at the direction of Jake's room, she knew he was lying.

"Billy, I love you like a second father, so I hope you will forgive me for this."

Bella pushed Billy away and stormed into Jake's room, ignoring Billy's shouts from behind her.

She opened the door, but stopped at the sight in front of her. Jake was sleeping with face on the pillow on a bed too small for his size. His now short hair were messy and he had his mouth opened. If she had not been angry, his snoring would have made her found him adorable.

However, those thoughts dissolved in a flash when she saw from the window over the bed four men approach the house. She immediately realized who they were. Their lack of shirt had given them away rather quickly. Before she could think about it, she was already walking out the house, ready to exchange few words with them.

"You" she called out at the man in the centre, moving to stand right in front of him. He looked shocked for a second, before he composed himself into his usual stoic face.

"Bella" he replied, "What are you doing here? I thought Jacob had told you not to come here."

Bella fumed at his words. "First of all, despite what you all believe, this is still state propriety. I don't need anyone permission if I want to come here. Second, he only said that because you made him."

"And why would we made him?" Sam asked, slightly amused at the feisty woman in front of him.

"I don't know. Why don't you tell me, since he won't talk to me?"

"Maybe he just doesn't want to be your friend anymore." The boy at Sam's right replied smugly.

"Was I talking to you? Back off." Bella yelled at him and the boy that she recognised as Embry chuckled.

However, the Quileute boy glared at her, taking few steps towards her.

"What did you just said, Leech lover?" the boy snarled. His body close to hers so she was facing his naked chest. In another circumstance, she would have blushed, but in that moment she didn't care about his state of half nudity. His words had took her by surprise. Why had he called her that way?

"Paul," Sam said warningly. "I can handle this by myself. Do not make things worse."

"No, she needs to understand that she is not wanted here." Paul stepped forwards and Bella raised her head to glare at him, but she still could not see his face properly due to the high difference.

Bella, however, did not let that stop her. Her anger was stronger than her judgment, so she slapped him right across his arrogant face.

She obviously didn't hurt him, however she had caught him by surprise and he did not like that at all.

"I don't care who you think you are, but don't ever talk to me that way again. I'm here to talk to Jake. I don't give a crap about your opinion. So, like I've said, back off."

Bella took few step back to glare at him right into his eyes, but when she looked up, his eyes were closed and he was shaking terribly. Was he having a leisure?

The other boys surrounded him with worried face.

"Paul, calm down. Bella, walk away." Sam ordered without even glancing at her way. His focus was on the shaking boy in front of her.

Before she could told him to not tell her what to do, Paul exploded and at his place stood a silver wolf.

"Bella, run!"

She did not need to be told twice and she turned her back, running towards the red house.

However, in that moment Jake appeared and started running towards her. Worried for her friend's safety, she yelled at him to walk back into the house, but as soon as those words left her mouth, Jacob had jumped and turned into a brown wolf in mid-air.

Bella stopped in her track and watched what used to be her friend attack the silver wolf. The two started fighting and biting each other. Bella was too lost watching the scene to notice Embry and another boy grab her arm and lead her into Jake's house.

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"Wait, we have to stop them." She managed to say once she saw the door open and Billy with a sad smile beside it.

"Relax, Bella." Embry tried to assure her. "Sam will stop them if things get too out of control."

"But they could get hurt." She whispered and the boys laughed.

"Don't worry about that, Bella. We heal fast" the other boy explained before offering his hand. "I'm Jared, by the way."

Bella shake it weakly.

"We?" she asked when her brain started functioning again.

"Us shapeshifter." Embry explained, taking a sit at the table, where Billy had put some food, probably some left over.

"You all can turn into a wolf?" Bella asked. The boys simply nodded since their mouth was full of food.

"And you heal faster?" she asked again, earning another nod.

"But.. how?"

Noticing her confusion and shock, Embry intervened in her help. "We phase into giant wolf to kill vampire. It's our life purpose."

"You know about vampires?"

At her question, the boys and Billy laughed aloud.

"Yes, Bella, we know all about them." Billy told her, offering her a seat. She took it, afraid that her legs would have fallen out at any moment.

Few minutes later, the door opened and Sam walked in following by two laughing Jacob and Paul.

Bella had her eyes firm on her friend. It looked like he did not have a scratch so she breathed in relief. When the boy noticed her, he smiled softly at her.

"Want to go for a walk?" he asked and she simply stood up and followed him.

The two talked for a while. Jacob told her everything. From the day he had first phase, to when Sam had ordered him to stay away from her for her safety. At first Bella had been angry, but when he explained to her that newly wolves were famous for losing control quickly, she had relaxed. He was back now and that was all that mattered to her.

Jacob had also told her that they had been the ones to kill Lauren, the vampire that had tried to kill her the other day.

"So you were those wolves?" she asked and he smiled in reply. "Thank you, for saving my life."

Jacob just shrugged, but she could see that his eyes were full of pride.

"It's what we do. We kill vampires." At his confession, her mind flashed briefly to the Cullen's, one in particular.

Jacob must have realized where her thoughts had gone, because he stopped walking.

"You don't have to worry about them. We have a treaty with them. As long as they don't cross our land or don't kill anyone, they can live here."

Bella nodded and sat on one of the rocks that where at the beach.

"Earlier, you said that you have been having problem with a vampire, how is that?" she asked curiously, reminding that he had previously talk of a vampire that had escaped them few times.

"Yes, there is this vampire chick. She keeps coming here, as if there is something that she wants. We have cornered her few times, but every time we are sure that we have her, she manages to run away from us. It's frustrating."

Something in his statement caught her attention and made her shiver.

"How is she like?" she whispered, hoping that her thoughts were wrong and she was only being paranoid.

"She has red hair."

"Victoria" she said in a voice so low that even Jacob had trouble to catch the name, but he did.

"Of course you know her." He stated bitterly.

Bella stood up and started looking everywhere but him. "No, no. This is not happening." She started rambling and Jacob quickly put his arms around her thin frame to make her look at him.

"Bella, what's wrong? Do you know her?"

"I know what she wants." When she finally raised her head, he saw tears coming down her face. "She wants me. Edward killed her mate and now she wants to make things even by killing me, since she thinks I'm his mate."

She quickly explained and Jacob had to call all of his self-control to not phase. That thing wanted to kill his Bella, the girl that he had loved for his entire life, and he was not going to let that happen.

"We need to tell the others about this." Bella nodded absently and he took her hand, guiding her towards his house.

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Everyone was still there, while all the food had been devoured. When Bella and Jacob walked in, everyone stopped what they were doing to stare at them.

For half an hour, Bella explained to them who was Victoria and the story behind the reason she wanted to kill her. Billy, Sam and the boys listened carefully with the exception of Paul, who ignored her, intervening only to make some comments that would have pissed her off if she hadn't been so scared.

Once she was done, Sam and Billy started talking about needing to call a meeting with the elders to inform them of the new developing, while Jacob was hugging a very scared Bella.

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After few minutes, Bella told Jacob that she had to use the bathroom and he released her from his tight hug.

"So? What is the plan?" Jacob asked his alpha once he heard the bathroom's door being locked.

"We need to talk to the elders before we can make a plan. This situation complicates everything." Sam explained.

"What are you talking about? This makes everything easier. If the red hair wants the girl, let's use her as a bait to lurk her out." Paul stated and Sam had to put an arm on Jacob's shoulder to stop him from attacking the boy.

"We're not using Bella as a bait." Sam said slowly, his tone ended the discussion.

"Why not? The leech lover could be useful for once, since she is the one who started this mess in first place."

Jacob growled minacious at Paul.

"This is not her fault."

Paul simply raised an eyebrow at him, clearly daring him to repeat it again if he actually believed it. Jacob was going to apply, when Bella walked back into the room.

Jacob noticed that she looked slightly better and when she smiled weakly at him, he felt his heart melt.

"I have to go now. Charlie is probably wondering where I am." She explained and Jacob took few steps toward her, offering her to walk her to her car. She said goodbye to everyone and the others said it back, except Sam who was texting someone and Paul who simply ignored her.

"Will you come back tomorrow?" Jake asked hopefully.

Bella smiled brightly at him and hugged him tightly. "I would love to." She replied into his ear.

Reluctantly Jacob released her and opened the door of her pick up to help her get in.

"See you tomorrow." They both said at the same time, before laughing.

Saying goodbye once more, Bella took off and started driving towards her house. This time, she enjoyed the ride and even turned on the radio to listen to some music. Despite the news about Victoria, she felt happy. She finally had her friend back and nothing would have ruined their friendship again.

Bella's happiness didn't last long.

Few days later Quill had joined the pack and everyone had been happy about it, especially Jake and Embry, since they had their friend back. When she wasn't at school or at work, she was with them and she was feeling better than she had felt in months. During that period, she rarely thought about Edward and when she did, it was not in a positive way. She had realized how stupid she had been to fall in love with a vampire in first place.

Things started getting worse, when Harry Clearwater died and Seth and, surprisingly, Leah phased for the first time, joining the pack. Harry's death had made their hatred towards Victoria grew and so did their efforts to destroy her. Unfortunately, despite the growing in number, she still managed to escape them each time.

Bella was starting to get more worried each passing day. She constantly had the feeling of being watched and that caused her nightmares to come back in full force. This time, however, they were about a red haired vampire, that sometimes would have killed her and other times would have killed her dad or Jake. Those were the worst nights. Knowing that she could partially be responsible for the death of the people that she cared about was making her drool in guilt.

But that wasn't the worst. In the last few weeks, the pack behaviour towards her had started to change. Since Victoria wasn't there they had focus their frustration on her. If at first they defended her against Paul's insults, with time they stopped defending her, only to join recently Paul's "let's make the leech lover's life a hell" club. When it was just him, she could easily ignore his degrading comments, but now with everyone on his side, even if they weren't as directed as he was, she couldn't ignore any longer the glares sent in her way after a failing hunt, or the snide comments said when Jacob was distracted.

Bella was at her limit, between Victoria and the pack's cruelty she was slowly falling into depression again, but she had to pretend that everything was fine because she didn't want to worry her dad or Jake. It was for her best friend that she sucked it up and pretended that their words were not touching her. They were Jake's family and deep down she knew that he would have sided with them and she would have been left alone.

However, one day, after another one of Paul's insults she couldn't take it anymore and stormed out of Jake's house.

She could hear them laugh from inside the house, probably making fun of her. She recognised Paul, Leah and Jared's voice. They were the worst between all of them.

In that moment, while trying to fight back the tears, Bella decided that she was done. She was done with them and she was done with being the weak, pathetic girl everyone thought she was.

It was time for a change. It was time for her to change.

"Bella, wait." Jacob run after her, reaching her quickly thanks to his long legs.

"Paul didn't mean that."

Bella laughed at that, but Jacob could see that there was a lot of pain behind that laugh.

"Yes, he did. But don't worry Jacob. I'm not angry. Paul has been mean to me from before I even knew his name. I'm used to it, now."

"Then what is the problem? Why are you leaving?" He got closer to her and she was glad that it was raining so he couldn't see her tears.

"The problem is that I'm tired, Jake."

"Tired of what? Of them? I could make them stop." Jake replied and Bella cracked a smile at his protectiveness.

"It's not about them." She simply stated.

"Then what is this all about?" Jake asked. He needed to know what was making his best friend cry, because he could see the tears on her chin even despite the rain.

"I'm tired of constantly being scared!" she yelled, not caring about the supernatural people in the house that could hear everything. Jake's eyes widened at her outburst.

"I'm scared when I open my eyes in the morning and I'm scared when I close them before going to sleep. The rare time I actually sleep, since I don't even remember the last time I've slept without having a nightmare.

I know you don't like me, I'm the leech lover after all, but I was 17 when I met Edward and he had been the first guy to ever show me interest. And he was beautiful. I know it was stupid to fell for him knowing what he was, but I did. I fell in love with him. It took me months to realize finally how stupid I have been to fall in love with a vampire, how pathetic I've been and still am.

I know you all blame me for what is happening, hell, even I had blamed myself for a long time, but now I have had enough.

I did not chose to be bitten and tortured by a vampire only to have his mate making her immortal life goal to kill me, since she thinks it would be the best way to make it even with my vampire ex-boyfriend. The same vampire who put me in danger in first place and then left me in the woods the day after my birthday.

I never choose any of this and I know that you, Sam, and the others didn't choose either to turn into wolves, but you have strength, fast healing and other amazing stuff. Most of all you have each other. What have I? I'm alone and defenceless against monsters who thinks my blood is the best dessert that they could ever have.

So no, Jacob. I'm not angry, I'm tired and scared and I don't need you all to constantly remind me of the mistake I've made while I was seventeen."

"Bella." Jacob whispered, walking closer to hug her. He didn't know what to say. He had no idea that she felt that way, she always had looked normal around him. Had he really been that blind not to notice what was happing to his best friend?

Jacobs's heart broke when Bella took few steps back to avoid his hug. She had never refused a hug before.

"No, Jacob. You said it yourselves that killing vampire is your life purpose so you're not doing this for me. Paul was right, I don't belong here. I'm an outsider, and I think I always will be." Bella smiled in defeat at the boy in front of her who looked almost as broken as she was after her confession.

"Let me know if you kill Victoria, but in the meantime I'll do everyone's a favour and stay away, like you had asked me to do some time ago."

"Bella, you know I never wanted you to stay away. I was just trying to protect you."

"I've heard those words before." Bella said with a dark chuckle and Jacob paralyzed, knowing whom she was referring to.

"Be careful out there." Bella whispered.

Giving him one last sad smile, she turned around and walked to her pick up. Jacob couldn't do anything but watch her leave in her truck while the rain pounded away the tears on his own face.

"Jake."

Quil tried to call for his attention for the hundredth time since he had come back into the house. He had been sitting on the couch without saying a word, staring absently in front of him for more than twenty minutes and they were starting to get worried.

Bella's words were plaguing his mind. Not even during her period of depression she had looked so lost, so broken and he was one of the reason behind it. He had let his friends hurt her and couldn't even blame them, because he should have noticed it.

Damn, they all shared their mind while they were in wolf form, how could he have not seen the way they felt about her?

"Jacob." Embry joined Quil in their attempt to shake him away from his thoughts.

Surprisingly, Paul hadn't said anything about what they had heard Bella say out there. Thinking of Paul, Jacob started getting angry.

"Get out." He whispered, knowing that they could perfectly hear him.

"Jake."

"Get out!" Jacob shouted, standing up and glaring at every single one of them.

In that moment, Sam and Seth opened the door. They had just finished their shift and had no idea of what had happened.

Seeing Jacob shaking, Sam immediately intervened.

"Jacob calm down." He ordered, using his alpha voice.

"Make them leave." Jacob managed to say in his attempt to control his anger.

Sam quickly ordered everyone out and made them phase so he could know what was going on. It was not every day that Jacob loses control. Something must have happened and Sam was sure that the pale girl was in the middle of it, since he could smell her scent, but could not see her.

Entering their minds, he saw Paul taunting Bella making her run away. Then he heard everything that she had said and for some weird reason, he felt his heart ache, hearing the girl's pain.

"I'm very disappointed in you." Sam told them. He could see that they were feeling guilty about the way they had acted, even Paul, but he was truly disappointed at them.

"You have acted no better than those things we hunt."

Knowing than that statement would have made them think about their actions for a while, he phased back. Surprisingly, the first to leave the scene had been Paul. The boy was feeling like a shit and Sam thought that he deserved feeling that way. Since he had phased he had acted as if he could do anything he wanted and that was wrong. Maybe now Paul and the others could understand that they were not superior than anyone else.

Bella had just given them a humility lesson. He felt sorry for the girl, he too had never given a second thought about how difficult that situation must be for her.

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"Jacob."

His beta was sitting on the couch, with his head in his hands. Sam put a hand on his shoulder to comfort him.

"Give her few days, she'll be back." He tried to reassure him.

"No, I don't think she will." Jake replied before standing up and walking away.

He had barely walked out the door when Sam saw him phase into his wolf and running away.

Sighing, Sam sat at the edge of the couch. Bella's words rang into his head. Sam knew that Jacob was right. Bella wouldn't have come back after the way they had treated her and for the second time that day, his chest ached.

In the exact same moment Sam had put a hand on his heart, from afar, a wolf howled in pain.

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