I loved you
Even though you were a monster.
I was able to see past all that
Into the heart of a wolf,
The man inside.
I never thought any one
Could want or love me
The way you did.
Every time you held me
I felt wanted, loved, cherished.
All the things I had ever wanted.
No one saw me,
I was the quiet girl people walked
By, not noticing if I was there or not.
I had friends who made me
Special, who loved me.
But you, you loved me in a
Different way, a way I needed.
I thought you were it, the one
I surrendered everything to you
My hopes, dreams and innocence
But you blew it in my face,
The day you saw her.
She attracted the wolf inside,
For the first time it had a chance
To lead, to be in a pack, to have it's
Wildness echoed in another's call.
You didn't have that with me.
She let the wolf control her
Whereas you had controlled it,
She called to you like a siren and you
Sailed to her as sailors have done.
Don't think you can have us both though
I tried to rid us of her,
She tried to kill me.
You killed her but you left
You left me,
In pain, heartache so bad I can't describe.
I never thought I'd get over you but I did
Slowly, I never will fully.
Everything was getting better for me
I was almost ready to give my
Heart away again, but you came
Back
A ghost from the past
Haunting my happiness,
You nearly did it, got me back
But when I looked into the crystal
Blue eyes and ran my fingers through
Her cornfield hair,
I knew it was her.
You left again,
I shouldn't have been surprised.
It didn't hurt as much this time,
Not like last.
That's cause of her.
She made my life wonderful again.
Nothing could touch me
She had hold of me
Wouldn't leave me.
I went to hell again,
When she left me,
Forced away by a god.
She was still there physically
But the essence was gone
She wasn't complete,
I loved her though and cared for her
When she needed me.
I got her back, rescued her from her
Hell as she had done me.
When Buffy died I thought I
Wasn't gonna make it but she helped
Me through it.
Helped me learn to care for Dawn.
When I brought Buffy back it was like
A high, I couldn't get enough of it.
It flowed through me, making everything
Special again, I could do anything!
It was too much though,
Too much for her, knowing I would
Go to far.
She left and I was alone again.
I cried my heart out sevenfold
Preying the pain would go away
It was worse then with you
At least with you, I knew it wasn't
Me.
I got worse the magic drove me
I turned darker and darker, into
A world opaque with evil.
Lost in the darkness.
I came back though
And she loved me again
It was the happiest moment
Of my life when she said can't
I just be in your arms
Can't you just be kissing me now?
But she was taken from me
Why does everyone leave me?
The darkness took over,
I couldn't stop it,
Forced away into a corner of my
Soul as I looked out into a
World of pain
I didn't see how I could go on
Without her.
Didn't see why I should have to.
I opened myself up to the pain
Of the world.
Millions of voices screaming out
In pain at me.
Telling me their anguish.
I had to do it for them,
For me
For her.
I didn't think I could ever love again
Love conquers all though.
All it took was someone to show love
And that the world could be good
To stop me.
I still miss her
My body shakes with heartache
And my soul weeps
I close my eyes and she's there
Smiling and giggling
Beckoning to me
One day I'll go to her
I know and we'll be together.
But til then all I have it my
Memories of when we were
Together.
I still think of you though
And wanted to thank you
If you had never loved me
I would never have found her.
And I know my life would
Never be complete without her,
She's not gone, she lives in me.
Even though you were a monster.
I was able to see past all that
Into the heart of a wolf,
The man inside.
I never thought any one
Could want or love me
The way you did.
Every time you held me
I felt wanted, loved, cherished.
All the things I had ever wanted.
No one saw me,
I was the quiet girl people walked
By, not noticing if I was there or not.
I had friends who made me
Special, who loved me.
But you, you loved me in a
Different way, a way I needed.
I thought you were it, the one
I surrendered everything to you
My hopes, dreams and innocence
But you blew it in my face,
The day you saw her.
She attracted the wolf inside,
For the first time it had a chance
To lead, to be in a pack, to have it's
Wildness echoed in another's call.
You didn't have that with me.
She let the wolf control her
Whereas you had controlled it,
She called to you like a siren and you
Sailed to her as sailors have done.
Don't think you can have us both though
I tried to rid us of her,
She tried to kill me.
You killed her but you left
You left me,
In pain, heartache so bad I can't describe.
I never thought I'd get over you but I did
Slowly, I never will fully.
Everything was getting better for me
I was almost ready to give my
Heart away again, but you came
Back
A ghost from the past
Haunting my happiness,
You nearly did it, got me back
But when I looked into the crystal
Blue eyes and ran my fingers through
Her cornfield hair,
I knew it was her.
You left again,
I shouldn't have been surprised.
It didn't hurt as much this time,
Not like last.
That's cause of her.
She made my life wonderful again.
Nothing could touch me
She had hold of me
Wouldn't leave me.
I went to hell again,
When she left me,
Forced away by a god.
She was still there physically
But the essence was gone
She wasn't complete,
I loved her though and cared for her
When she needed me.
I got her back, rescued her from her
Hell as she had done me.
When Buffy died I thought I
Wasn't gonna make it but she helped
Me through it.
Helped me learn to care for Dawn.
When I brought Buffy back it was like
A high, I couldn't get enough of it.
It flowed through me, making everything
Special again, I could do anything!
It was too much though,
Too much for her, knowing I would
Go to far.
She left and I was alone again.
I cried my heart out sevenfold
Preying the pain would go away
It was worse then with you
At least with you, I knew it wasn't
Me.
I got worse the magic drove me
I turned darker and darker, into
A world opaque with evil.
Lost in the darkness.
I came back though
And she loved me again
It was the happiest moment
Of my life when she said can't
I just be in your arms
Can't you just be kissing me now?
But she was taken from me
Why does everyone leave me?
The darkness took over,
I couldn't stop it,
Forced away into a corner of my
Soul as I looked out into a
World of pain
I didn't see how I could go on
Without her.
Didn't see why I should have to.
I opened myself up to the pain
Of the world.
Millions of voices screaming out
In pain at me.
Telling me their anguish.
I had to do it for them,
For me
For her.
I didn't think I could ever love again
Love conquers all though.
All it took was someone to show love
And that the world could be good
To stop me.
I still miss her
My body shakes with heartache
And my soul weeps
I close my eyes and she's there
Smiling and giggling
Beckoning to me
One day I'll go to her
I know and we'll be together.
But til then all I have it my
Memories of when we were
Together.
I still think of you though
And wanted to thank you
If you had never loved me
I would never have found her.
And I know my life would
Never be complete without her,
She's not gone, she lives in me.