"Oh no. she's not responding. . . .what are we going to do? Doctor, you have to save her. Now. . . Please, don't let my baby die. . . Please. . ." and that was all Ginny could hear before she passed through an unmerciful sleep.
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Ginny could hear little voices through the darkness. . .
"She seems to be responding better then we thought. She is now just becoming conscious. Please, give her a minute."
Ginny could hear rustling of feet, and soon heard voices standing over her. She dared to open her eyes, but she already knew what was to come. . .
Ginny flickered her eyes open, and saw 9 figures standing over her. She already knew who they were. . . But she didn't expect Harry to be. . . After what had happened.
"Ginny dear, are you awake? Can you hear me hunny?" she heard her mother ask her. Ginny just nodded her head, she didn't think she could find her voice. "Ohh! My baby is ok. She's gonna live!" Mrs. Weasley embraced Ginny in a big hug, and soon let go. "Mum. . . I am ok. . . Really. . ." Ginny let her eyes wander around her bed. She saw George and Fred sitting in a chair looking quite shaken up. Charlie and Bill were standing next to Harry, Ron, and Hermione. Her father was now talking to the doctor.
"Mrs. Weasley, do you think I could have a word with Ginny for a quick second?" Harry asked. The look on his face was none to be questioned. Everyone nodded, and soon left. Ginny wished her plan had worked, because if it had, she wouldn't be here, shouldn't even be alive.
Once everyone was out, Harry stepped up to Ginny's bed, and wrapped his cold hands around hers, where he could feel the cuts on her wrists.
"Ginny. . . Why?" was all he could say. *why the hell do you think, Mr. Harry Potter. . . Hmm, lets think. . *
"I dunno. . ." Ginny replied quite forlornly. He just looked up at her, tears on the brim of his already swollen eyes. "Gin. . . You know you could have died. . . You're lucky I caught you before you could finish yourself off. . ." Harry looked away. Ginny couldn't help herself from blurting out what she said next. "MAYBE I WANTED TO FINISH MYSELF OFF! DID YOU EVER THINK ABOUT THAT HARRY? HUH? OH NO! YOU WOULDN'T HAVE NOW WOULD YOU?!?! YOU WOULD BE TO BUSY SHAGGING MY BEST FRIEND!" Ginny had no idea what had come over her. She just lost it there.
"Ginny, you know that that wasn't supposed to happen like that. . . She seduced me! You know she's more than half Veela. . ." Harry didn't really feel like arguing, he felt like holding Ginny in his arms, his Ginny. To tell her he loved her, that he didn't mean to hurt her like this. He would have never known she'd go and try to kill herself.
"Ginny, I am sorry. You know I'd never go and do that when I am . . ."
"When you are what Harry? NOT DRUNK?!?! THEN MAYBE YOU SHOULDN'T DRINK?! EVER THOUGHT OF THAT?!" Ginny was utterly disgusted with herself, and him. She just wanted to die. She already tried that. It didn't work, a new plan was already evolving in her head.
Harry noticed her sudden change of direction. She's now staring off into space. . . Which only meant one thing. . . "Ginny! . . . . VIRGINIA WEASLEY!" Harry yelled. Harry snapped her out of her reverie. She looked up at him with a glare in her eyes. She was practically shooting daggers.
"Ginny we need to talk. Now, not later, but now." Harry said, taking her in her eye contact.
Ginny just stared blankly at him. What would he say. . . Hopefully he wouldn't bring *her* up. That would push Ginny over the edge once more.
"Ginny, I want to start off by saying I love you, and nothing will change that. And I am sorry. You know you are the only one for me. She didn't mean anything! I swear!" Harry looked deep into her chocolate brown eyes. Ginny only glared back.
"Tell me one thing Harry . . . Just one thing. . ."
Harry awaited her question with anticipation. "Anything."
"Why'd you stop me? You knew I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I ever lived through it. And honestly I have no idea how long I was just sitting there, looking at the blade slide across my wrists. I could feel it pierce my skin. It felt bad, but good in some way. It filled an empty spot, Harry. An empty spot you made possible."
Ginny just looked at Harry. She could just see the hurt in his eyes. And she knew he could see the hurt, pain, and sadness in hers.
They just stared at each other for a minute, until there was a knock on the door.
"WHAT?!" Ginny had yelled.
A nervous looking George came in, followed suite by Fred. They walked silently over to Ginny, and picked up her wrists. They looked closely at the very deep cuts that were made there to fill an emptiness.
"Why Gin? Why?" Fred had suddenly asked.
"Because. . . Because. . . " Ginny just stared off into an endless road of sadness she could see in all three men's eyes.
"Ginny. . . You're too young to be doing stuff like this. . . What, you're only. . . 23 years old?" George had said quietly.
"You wouldn't understand. . ." She said, then looked away. The three just stared at her. Then Harry spoke up. "Try me."
"Ok. . . Mr. I am the boy who lived, and I can take anything . . . Even if it is up the ASS!" Ginny had lost her temper again, but refrained from saying anything else that didn't need to be shared. . . She went on. . .
"I did it because I was and still am of being forgotten, and chosen last, and not being taken care of the way I need to be. I am ALWAYS left behind. You never paid attention to me while we were at school. And my EX-FIANCE decided to go and get drunk the night of our wedding and have sex with my best friend, AND maid of honor!" Ginny said, rather more forcefully then she might have meant to.
The three just stared at her oblivious. "See, I knew you wouldn't have understood. Now leave me be. I will be home in a couple of days . . . If they don't send me to W.R." (A.N: "W.R=Wizards Rehabilitation.".)
"They wont send you to rehab sweetie. They will send you were you need to be right now, and that is in the loving arms of Harry and your family." Fred said.
"No. . .I'll tell you where I need to be. . .you were right about being in my OWN FAMILIES arms and loving care. . . But MY FAMILY sure doesn't count Harry in it. I could tell you who should be in Harry's arms though. . . How about my maid of honor? . . .eh Harry. You agree?" Ginny asked.
Harry just stared at her, a blank expression on his face. George leaned into Harry, and whispered "Don't worry mate, she'll be over that once she gets back on her feet." Harry smiled, acknowledging Georges statement, and walked out of the room, though Ginny could have sworn she heard him crying.
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Okay. Here it is! My first chapter. I kind of have an idea of where this is going, but I might need a beta reader. So if anyone wants to volunteer for that, please, send me your e-mail address and tell me. That would be much appreciated! I hope to write more soon. . . . Oh, and this chapter is dedicated to System Of A Down. . . There song, "ATWA". . . . I love S.O.A.D. I hope to get a lot of reviews! LOL. So I hope you review and tell me what you think.
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