Motherhood

Disclaimer- I don't own any of the characters except the ones I made up.

Authors Note-There is a lot of talking in the story. So don't get mad by all the 'dialogue'.

Prologue- Olivia was raped 5 years ago. She got pregnant and had a little girl. Olivia is struggling just like her mother. She is now becoming her. Her daughters name is Andrea.

Chapter 1-This Morning

Olivia woke up tired on the couch. She was drunk last night so she must have passed out. She woke up remembering her daughter had school. It was 7:49.Her daughter was going to be late for school. Most of all she was going to be late for work.

"Mommy I'm going to be late for school. What's for breakfast?" she said hoping she wasn't going to be hit. She didn't get an answer.

Olivia got up and used the bathroom. While she was brushing her teeth she told Andrea to put on her clothes, socks and shoes. Olivia took a shower trying to remember what happened last night. She got out five minutes later and picked out her clothes. She chose a white tank top under a baby blue shirt with some black pants. When she left her room she saw Andrea eating some cereal.

"Andrea what happened last night?" Olivia said as she grabbed some special K. Andrea started crying. Olivia didn't know why her baby girl was crying.

"Drea why are you cying, answer me now," She said furious.

"Last night you were drinking that stuff in a bottle and when I asked you why you were drinking you got mad. You went in the kitchen hit that bottle on the sink. You hit me with it," she replied crying. Olivia didn't know why she would ever hurt her child. She hugged her daughter. They put on their coats and locked the door. Olivia drove her daughter to school in twenty minutes. She opened the door and let her daughter out.

"Andrea, I am going to pick up from school. Tomorrow I got the day off so we can do whatever you want to do, ok." She said knowing she was late.

"Okay, Mommy can we talk when you home from work."

"Alright, Drea act good okay. Love you."

Olivia got in the car as she saw her daughter go to class with one of her classmates. Olivia was glad she had someone to care about. She turned the radio to any station. She heard a song that got her attention.

We've been to strong for to long. (And I can't be without you baby)

And I'll be waiting up until you get home. (Cuz I sleep with out you baby)

Anybody's who's ever loved ya know just what I fell to hard to fake it nothing can replace it

Call the radio if you just can't be without your baby

Olivia listened for the name of the song. The song was over by the time she got to the precinct. She looked at the picture of her and Andrea and thought about all the things they went through. Olivia went into the precinct. She noticed she saw a familiar face.

"Hey partner!" Elliot exclaimed as Olivia entered the precinct. She wondered why he was so happy.

"Hey, I woke up late again. Do you want to guess who turned of my alarm, took a short nap and told me it was time to get up?" she said as she poured John's cold bitter coffee sipping some of it.

"Drea did all of that," he said surprised a little five year old girl did all of that. Elliot and Olivia sat down and got started on some paper work. As they finished 5 cases, Cragen had called his best detectives into his office.

"We got a case. A little girl 6 years old was molested by her uncle, shes at Saint Margaret's.

January 27

9:45 a.m

Saint Margaret's Hospital

Room 312

Olivia and Elliot walked in the hospital.

"Hi, Im detective Benson, this is my partner detective Stabler were looking for Anna Davis," she said looking in her notepad.

"Oh she's in room 312."

They went to the elevator and Clicked on the third floor. Olivia was trying to think really hard about what happened last night. She didn't even remember if Andrea had homework or not. All she knew is she was drunk last night, and it felt good. Olivia wanted that hear that song again so she could by the c.d for it.

"What did you last night?" Elliot asked Olivia pacing back and fourth on the elevator.

"Well last night we did homework, ate and watched a movie and went to sleep in my room." She said knowing she was lying. They got off the elevator and went to Anna's room. When they got in the room they saw a small blonde little girl. She was playing with her teddy bear and watching television. Olivia and Elliot entered the room.

"Hi I'm Olivia and this is my partner Elliot. Whats your name." They both knew her name. They wanted to see if she would talk to him and open up to them.

"My name's Anna," she said in the same sweet voice Andrea says when she wants the newest doll on the market. After awhile they talked to her. One of her personal interests was coloring. She had said what happened between her uncle and her. They left the hospital.

January 27

1:30 p.m

1-6 Precincts

Olivia and Elliot were at their desks. She looked over the clock and saw that she had 40 minutes to get her daughter. During that time period Munch and Fin went to get Anna's Uncle. She finished filing all the last cases that occurred over the last month. She got so involved in her work she last track of the time.

"Olivia, it time for you to get Andrea," Elliot said to her hoping she was paying attention to him.

"It is time to go get her from school," she said looking down at her watch. "I'll see you later," That was the last thing she said to him. She went inside Captains office and said she had to go and get her. He let her go. Olivia was at the school in 20 minutes. Andrea walked over by the car.

"Mommy you're late," she said clutching her hand on her hips.

"Sorry, I got so caught up in my work. Do you want to go and get something to eat?" she said opening the car door for her daughter.

"Okay but I want McDonalds," she said buckling up her seat belt. They drove to McDonald's and went through the drive way.

"Welcome to McDonalds, can I take you order?"

"Yeah, I like a cheeseburger happy meal, 2 Mcflurries, a chicken salad with ranch dressing and a large sprite," Olivia said looking at Drea and pulled out a twenty dollar bill.

"11.14, Pull up to the window." Olivia pulled up and handed the lady the money and got 8.86 as her change. She drove up to the other window and got her food. She handed it to Andrea to hold. As she pulled off she checked the food, she saw they had the order right so she pulled off. They were at the apartment in 40 minutes. They got out the car. Andrea grabbed her backpack and her mother's paperwork. Olivia grabbed the food and locked the car door. She caught up with her daughter and opened the door to the apartment building. While she locked it back up Andrea ran up the stairs. She heard Andrea out of breath and told her not to run up the stairs again.

Olivia and Andrea ate their food. While Olivia loaded up the dishwasher Andrea put up their shoes. After that they did homework and paperwork. They watched a movie and fell asleep on the couch.

A/N: The song in the story was Be Without You by Mary J.Blige. The album is The breakthrough in case you want to hear it or download the song. This is the first chapter. Feedback is welcome.