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~ Remember Her ~
Sillygirl.
The voice is screaming in her head,
and she bites down on her lip,
wishing the whole thing would just... go away.
FATFATFAT
She stands in front of the mirror,
her body shaking,
tears falling,
her heart thumping
Can you hear it?
Why can't you just LOVE her?
… The mirror.. it lies.
But she'll never know,
shhhhhhh...
it's a secret
She can't know,
DON'T tell her..
don't tell her she's beautiful,
she might believe you.
(willyourememberherwhenshe'sgone?)
she'll always remember you.
Ugly. Stupid. Fat. Worthless.
You PATHETIC little girl,
heavy tears HIT the floor,
and heartbroken sobs can be heard.
She takes the knife in her hands,
closing her eyes,
blood drips,
falling down to the ground,
mixing with her warm tears.
She loves you,
can't you love her too?
She lifts up her top,
places her hands on her stomach,
Hipbone check
Ribs check
Collarbone check.
Do you love her N O W?
She slides her hands to her chest,
checking that her heart is still beating,
a nod of the head,
some more tears fall
yes, yes it is.
Onetwothreefourfive
take a deep breath,
sixseveneightnineten
Pretend that you enjoy being alive,
for just a second,
P R E T E N D that not every single day is..
nothing more than a fight,
and she knows..
she knows it's only going to get;
harderandharderandharder
WhenWillItEnd?
Will she ever be okay?
DO IT ALLISON!
DO IT NOW!
She nods,
listening to the voice,
never being able to grasp the fact that,
it's in her head
GO!JUSTGO!
And she nods; like she always does.
And she wipes away the tears,
looking down at the porcelain bowl,
dropping on her knees,
shamefully dropping her head,
JUST DO IT! DO IT NOW!
She slowly lifts her hands to her mouth,
and.. the tears stop falling,
and the vicous cycle continues,
ONCETWICETHREEtimesMORE
the voice is S C R E A M I N G at her,
and she knows that she can do better,
She finally stumbles up,
catching her reflection in the mirror,
she doesn't really know who she is anymore,
nobody does.
Sonny? Sonny who?!
It's Allison now.
FRIENDS? What are THEY?
She tries to convince herself that she doesn't need anyone,
she doesn't want anyone.
Don't worry about her,
it's nothing to worry about,
this is just what Hollywood does,
to some people.
Blood. Tears. Vomit.
Don't look at her!!
Ignore her; it's what she wants.
Forget about the girl she USED to be,
you can't love her now,
forget about it Chad Dylan Cooper.
Just.. pretend that she is fine,
Carry on like it's normal, Chad.
Don't you see those shaking hands?
Yeah? Ignore them.
The vomit in her hair?
NO. She doesn't want you to know.
What about.. the blood on her sleeves?
NO! she lives in a make believe world where she is invisible.
(playalong)
BONES! Skin and bones.
No Chad!
She just wanted you to love her.
But it's too late now.
She's fading,
falling.
GONE.
(ILOVEYOU)
It's too late now.
(I'VE ALWAYS LOVED YOU)
You should have told her sooner,
because now..
she's gone.
And she's never coming back
Maybe you could have saved her,
maybe if you had screamed it out to her,
maybe, if she just knew...
then maybe..
just maybe,
she would still be here.