Falling towards the planet, I feel the coldness of space finally get to me. And even though my life ebbs away like a dying ember and I am too weak to even open my eyes to gaze upon the planet as I free fall through its' atmosphere ,so close to death that I could almost physically grasp it…I feel an emotion I have not felt in so long; a feeling of peace. A feeling that, even if I was not going to wake up and see another sunrise or gaze at the beauty of Planet Earth itself for one last time, I would hardly care.
…This is what you wanted right? You wanted me to save the people of Earth. You wanted me to give those we hardly knew a chance that maybe they don't deserve but still should be allowed to keep. This is my promise I made to you…the promise I made when you saved me. When you stood your ground against enemies you were terrified of and risked your life to save mine… even with your dying breath…
And for the longest time, I felt so alone…
It is strange how in death, one doesn't feel so alone. Is this something you also felt? When you sent me in the escape pod, rocketing to Earth….were you alone? Or were you like how I am now: calm and peaceful in the final hour.
I thought after that day that I lost you forever. Yet your memories haunted me: the melody that was your voice, your face; everything about you made me die inside…
Being alone made me cry…I cried for you and our life together. I cried for what may have been and what has come to pass. I cried for the injustice and unfairness of what happened to you. You wanted to see a world you could only dream of, a world where you knew so much yet also so little about…A world I almost destroyed in your name because when I last saw you, you looked at me and said goodbye…and I was never able to see you again.
When I'm gone and pass on, will you be there waiting for me on the other side? Will your smile be what I first see? Will your embrace welcome me?
We met, it seems, such a short time ago. You looked at me, needing me so…Yet from our sadness, our happiness grew and I learned that I needed you too. I remember how we used to play; I recall those lonely days…the fires glow that kept us warm…
Good-bye may seem forever, farewell like the end. But in my heart is a memory, and there you will always be…
Sayonara and hello again Maria...