Bloodstream: Alliance

A Vampire Diaries and Teen Wolf Crossover (A Rowena Mikaela Devereaux story)

CH.1. You're The Reason Why I'm Closed (Possibility-Lykke Li)

A Month Ago:

Dear Diary,

7 months, that's how long it's been. Another small town, with more friggin' supernatural crap in Beacon Hills, friggin' California yeah I know crap like this in California? It's been a long time since I faced my past and the feelings because I bury deep in my mind. But you can't run away from your memories forever can you? The start of my miserable life, the day it all started, February 8th. Four years ago I met him, Damon Salvatore. The way I met him, well, that's a story for another day. Now not many can say this, but he was my best friend, no matter what he did I was always there for him. We were best friends for almost four years that is until an Elena Gilbert decided to take my place. Have you ever heard of a story where there are two people and they've been best friends for years then it all goes to hell? That's what happened to Damon and me. The rule I always placed I broke, I fell in love with Damon, and I didn't even know it. I made that discovery when Elena and I were kidnapped by Trevor and Rose, where they planned to hand us over to Elijah, an original vampire. When he and Stefan showed up to save the day and the first thing I saw was his face I couldn't think of anywhere else I wanted to be and I wouldn't ever replace him with anyone because I cared about him exactly the way he was…no I loved him the way he was. That day was too good to be true, because I also realized that Damon didn't love me, not the way he loved…her. Now, I realized all the bitterness, dislike, and tension I felt towards Elena was me trying to compete for Damon's heart, all of it was for Damon. I fought for Damon, for his love even if I didn't come right out and say it, I did all I could to save whatever it was we had, alive. After I learned that he loved Elena I became involved and swore to keep her alive again for Damon. We later learned that I wasn't needed for the sacrifice, but Klaus wanted me for no specific reasons. When the curse on Klaus was broken Tyler bit Damon. Damon was dying but not once did he ask for me, no he asked for Elena who only used and wanted him when she needed him. I made a deal with Klaus, both Stefan and me.

I brought Damon the antidote (Klaus' blood) and saw Elena and him kiss. It was too much and at that moment I knew it… I lost. I would never be more than Damon's best friend. I fed him the blood as he passed out I placed the vervain locket he gave me in his hand as I kissed his forehead and whispered "goodbye, Damon." I brushed past Elena who kept questioning me. I headed back to the apartment and told Klaus "it's done." Stefan sighed in relief, as Klaus turned to me "Rowena, come" I obeyed. He tilted my head and I looked straight into his eyes. I ask "Klaus?" he mms me. I ask "what is it you want from me?" He sighs as he looks into my eyes "answer me honestly, Rowena. What is the one thing you want in your life? More than anything?" He compels me, I answer "to leave?" Klaus frowns "from me?" I answer "no…not you, Mystic Falls."

And so he compelled me to leave, and I did. He took Stefan, but he let me go because of the danger that came with making hybrids. He filled my bank account and I left to my only family. My aunt Melissa McCall and my little cousin Scott were all I had left. So, no matter what anyone says I respect him, he gave the one thing I needed, what no one else ever did for me. Klaus offered me a choice, a reason, and I'll always owe him. I'm 22 today. It's my birthday, and other people celebrate but not me, not so soon-

"Mika!" I turn and stuff my diary in my pillowcase and lay back as I shout "you can come in!" Stiles runs in and leaps into my bed, lying down beside me grinning as I chuckle, and Scott rolls his eyes and sits beside me. I ask "so what's up?" Scott sighs and says "Derek's looking for an Omega." I silently nod as Stiles places his head in my lap and I gently comb my fingers through his hair, and I say "well, no offense but all he's got is you two, Lydia, Jackson, and for all intent and purposes Allison. That's not a very strong pack," Stiles interjects "yeah, but I'm part of a pack that I didn't want to be a part of." Scott ignores him as he tells me "yeah, maybe you're right but it's more than that. It's like it's a part of him, like…instinct." After a while I say "I think that came in the package when he decided to be an Alpha."

Stiles asks "so….to why we're here really, what's with you and Derek?" I ask "what do you mean?" Scott scoffs and says "since when do you two get along?" Wow, they've been holding that for two months. What they mean by that is that since Derek, and I met he seemed to hate my very presence even more so than Stiles. Although he never slammed me into walls, but about two months ago when I went to see Dr. Deaton and made Derek give me a ride since my car still wasn't fixed from the Alpha attack. Once there Derek followed me because he said he didn't want Scott to be bitchy with him if I died, yeah I know I felt so loved.

I respond to them "well, I went to Dr. Deaton and dragged Derek since my baby was totaled, and he came with me to talk to your boss. I just told him that I had headaches, blackouts, nausea, and dizziness ever since I got here. Then basically he told me it was nothing too serious and basically told me to leave and talked to Derek. On the drive home Derek asked if we could call a truce and we did." Stiles asks "so, what? Your best friends?" I sigh and say "well, we are friends, at least I think so. Speaking of Derek, where is he?" Scott says "I don't know you're his…friend why don't you tell me? You're with him 24/7" Stiles laugh as I slap Scott upside his head. Derek and I had been hanging out more often, more like we saw each other at least once a day, which is totally fine by me. Stiles says "maybe we got lucky and some hunters found him." I roll my eyes as I slap him on his head. I may not have liked him at first, but he now was my friend like they were. Scott says "if I remember correctly about 7 months ago your exact words were 'he's such an asshole.'"

"Who's an asshole?" I whipped around to see Derek leaning against my window. Stiles opens his mouth about to speak but I cover it and say "my math teacher, Mr. Henry. He's such a douchebag, right Scott?" He mms me, and asks "better question yet do you make a habit of coming in through my cousin's window?" I turn to Derek who sneers at Scott and my cheeks flood with blood at the possibility, as I hiss "Scott!" I then proceed to push him as Stiles laughs at me so I say "just get out!" I shove both Stiles and Scott out. I could feel my face not as hot as before. I turn to Derek as I motion for him to sit. He sits at my headboard and I sit in my spinning chair as I ask "you came to talk about Scott?" He rolls his eyes and says "I came to see how you've been doing; you don't look like you slept." I nod and say "rough night." He waits for an explanation, but I don't say anything and spin around. He says "well, that's helpful." I stop spinning as I chuckle and his lips turn up at the side. I say "so…what've you been up to?" Derek takes a breath, grabs a pencil off my nightstand and twirls it mindlessly and says "I was thinking of making the pack bigger," I nod and say "Scott mentioned it." He says "I thought Stiles would've blurted it out first." I snicker as I spin, and I say "Stiles isn't too bad. I mean if you see past the semi annoying quirks he's pretty cute."

Crack! I turn to Derek and see him holding my pencil in two. He looks at me and I see his hand slightly shaking as he puts my broken pencil on my nightstand. He mutters "sorry. I just got distracted. These new Alpha…urges." I nod and ask "are you okay?" He breathes in deeply and says "yeah, so Stiles is cute?" I laugh and say "I was kidding! He's like the little brother I never had." Derek says "I guess." I ask "your never gonna tell me what Dr. Deaton said are you?" His easy going attitude tenses as he says "I told you not to worry. I can handle it, and everything's fine." I nod silently giving up for now. Derek asks "You working tomorrow?" I say "yeah, from 1 to 7PM." I got a job at this bar; it's where high school and college students go to it's just outside of town. I'm the bartender there and now since Derek and I are friends he usually goes there and keeps me company.

I sit on the bed and lay down beside him as I ask "is it just me or has the past 3 months seem to be calm, like too calm?" I turn to face him and find that he's already facing me. "Why do you say that?" Derek asks me. I answer "because in my life things are hectic. I don't get breaks; I'm usually stuck in crap and dig my way out only to find more problems." A dark black curl falls into my eyes and he gently puts it behind my ear and says "you know we won't let anything happen to you right? Even Jackson would." I look up at him. The Derek Hale was telling me he was willing to protect me. I felt my heart pound as the color rose to my cheeks and I knew that with his enhanced hearing could hear it accelerate.

The guy who I at one point hated, was telling me he and my friends would protect me, but my best friend-no I won't think about him. I nod and look away. He lifts my chin up and says "Mikaela, nothing will happen to you. You don't believe me?" I look at him and say "it's not me I'm worried about. Let's not push Jackson to the limit, besides we shouldn't jump to conclusions or we'll just jinx ourselves." Everything involving Derek Hale had taken a turn I never would've thought. For these lone moments with him I felt okay, the constant pain that lingered in my soul and mind was extinguished. Even when we were at each other's throat the pain was dulled. At first I thought it was because fighting with him consumed me and now I know that wasn't true it wasn't the anger, or his friendship it simply was Derek. I pull away from him. Derek had changed some, well at least with me, he was still badass except he didn't threaten me anymore and he tried to be a good friend and so far he was doing a good job. Derek sighed and I got up and walked to my window as Derek followed me.

I turn around to face him and he looks me in the eye "so…who was he?" I sharply look at him. He says "you've had that look since you arrived. I know that look, it's a brokenhearted one." I say "I-I… don't want to talk about it." No one knew why I came or left only aunt Lissa, Scott, and Stiles they only knew a part of the truth. It hurt too much to think or even say it out loud that's why I write in my diary.

Today was one of the few days I thought and remembered him. Talking about him made me feel the loss, the emptiness he left when I decided to leave it felt likea hole was punched through my heart.

"So tell me when you hear my hear stop

You're the only one that knows"

Like I can't breathe, I know how it sounds and how long it's been. Whenever I thought of him, I felt myself crumble to pieces.

"By blood and by me, You walk like a thief

By blood and by me, I Follow your lead"

I thought of how we used to be first. Then that cold reality hits me full force and I crossed my arms in front of me so I could feel like there was something blocking the conversation about…him and me, so I could pull myself together. I looked up at Derek and I knew he wanted to continue but he didn't something in my eyes must've made him stop. He looked at me and stepped forward and he did the very last thing I expected, he unwrapped my arms from around me and I widened my eyes as I tried to pull them back because they were the only that kept me from breaking. Derek didn't let me go and instead wrapped my arms around him. He pressed himself into me and I let myself be held, until I slowly wrapped my arms around him. And I swore that in that moment it felt like maybe everything would turn out okay and that…maybe in the end I could learn to be okay too.

I don't remember how long Derek and I stood there just hugging, but soon enough I broke away. Derek let me go slowly and said "you're not alone. Anytime you need someone…call me. I mean it Mikaela." I nodded slowly and he said "I better get going. It's getting late and I rather avoid the Argents. Goodnight." I replied "see you tomorrow Derek." He lingered for a second and ran two fingers down my jawbone, he said "I meant what I said, Mika." I nodded and with that he took off. Derek only called me Mika when he was trying to prove a point. Then there was that pet name of his, he used to say it with malice, now he says it when he's feeling affectionate.

Ever since him I told myself not to feel anything for anyone, and I wanted to keep it that way. I didn't want to get hurt, but I couldn't get either Derek or him out of my head. They were alike and so different, but I couldn't do that because no matter what I feel for Derek I have to fight it .And he, well, he was in my past and that's where he'll stay.

3rd POV

"Hey, where are you?" Damon asks.

"Matt's taking me home." Elena says.

"To Stefan?" Damon asks

"…not just Stefan, Damon too, Tyler too, Caroline" Elena responds.

"No, no I get it. So… since I'm possibly a dead man…can I ask you a question?" Damon asks.

"Yeah of course," Elena answers.

"If it was just down to him and me…..and you had to make a choice…who got the goodbye…who would it be?" Damon questions.

"….i love him Damon. He came into my life when I needed someone and I fell for him instantly and no matter what I feel for you… I never unfelt for him." Elena confesses.

"Yeah, yeah I get it Stefan. It's always gonna be….Stefan," Damon whispers painfully.

"I can't think about always all I can think about is right now….and I care about you Damon….which is why I have to let u go…I mean maybe if you and I had met first," Elena sobs.

"Yeah, maybe" Damon whispers he looks up to see Alaric, and in his heart he couldn't care less if he died at this point.

"You're gonna be fine…you hear me….you're gonna be fine and I'm gonna see you soon."

"Real soon, goodbye Elena."

The scene replays in his mind of a week ago. Elena had made her choice, and she chose the younger Salvatore. As promised Damon was leaving town, he was just getting everything in order starting with looking for the one girl in his mind since he came back from his fatal werewolf bite, 7 months ago. Jeremy Gilbert, one of the few who more than anyone else knew of her location. Damon wandered into the grill heading for the brunette boy, "baby Gilbert," he called out to him and received a look of annoyance.

As the boy came over he ordered bourbon. "What do you want Damon?" Damon looked at him and said "I want to know where Rowena is." A guarded look suddenly comes on to Jeremy's face as he says "I don't know." A look of annoyance and impatience crosses Damon's face and he responds "I don't have time to play games, Gilbert. You either tell me where she is or I kill you. Now. Where. Is. She?" Damon sets his glass down staring at Jeremy. Anyone on the receiving end of it was intimidated, Jeremy included but he wasn't about to break his friend's promise. Jeremy says "you know what? Screw you."

Jeremy stalks out of the grill and headed around a corner when he bumps into Damon and he's dragged into an alley. Jeremy is pinned to the wall by his neck as Damon's faced is morphed into a vampire as he looks at Jeremy "let's try this one more time. Where is she?" Jeremy says "you don't scare me. Elena would"- Damon slams him into the wall and says "I actually could care less at the moment." Jeremy looked at Damon and realized he wasn't just trying to scare him, he was being honest. Damon wanted to find Rowena so bad; he was willing to kill the brother of the girl he was supposedly in love with. Jeremy asks "why now? Why'd you wait so long?" Damon glares as he says "what are"- Jeremy interrupts, "it's your fault." Damon confusedly asks "what?" Jeremy says "she left because of you." Damon is shocked at this as Jeremy continues "all she ever did was because of you. All she ever did was try to keep you alive and happy. Who do you think made a deal with Klaus? Who fed you the antidote? The one person you claim to care about has been gone for 7 months and you never asked about her, never tried to find her and on your deathbed she wasn't the person you asked to see. So what right do you have, huh, Damon?"

At this point Damon let Jeremy go and he just sat there thinking of her. In his mind Damon played out memory by memory, and compared her to Elena. Who was there when he needed to open the tomb? Rowena. Who was there to help find Emily's necklace? Rowena. When he finally opened the tomb and Katherine wasn't there, who comforted him? Rowena. Who was there when he was shot by Sheriff Forbes? Rowena. Who stood by him always? Rowena. Who cared about him genuinely and took him the way he was? Rowena. Rowena was gone now, without her who was Damon Salvatore?

AN: {Disclaimer: I own nothing from The Vampire Diaries or Teen Wolf, except for my OC and any other OC's I might create. Oh, and Mikaela and Rowena are the same person Mikaela is her middle name.}