Prologue
I sat there in silence, looking up at the crescent moon that hung over my head. I sat there, in the cold night as water cascaded down my body. I wore no color, only black, my clothing matching both my hair and my eyes. I continued to look up at the moon, wondering where I had gone wrong in my life.
I was usually alone, or with my five closest friends that I held dear to me. I would easily give up my life of pain, loneliness, and suffering to save one of my friends. We had grown up together since grade one or grade two; always close, always there for one another.
As I sat there, remembering old times the warmth of a blanket encased my body, a warm embrace from behind. I turned my head to see who it was when I was greeted with the gentle smile of my mother. A slow smile slowly crawled onto my face as I turned to face her, cuddling into my mother as the silent tears turned into cries which turned into sobs that echoed in the quietness of the midnight.
The seconds turned into minutes and the minutes turned to hours. Hours we sat there as I let all my pain and sorrow out in each weep, each sob that escaped my lips seemed to pierce at my heart and yet at the same time the pain seemed to soothe me, for that is all I've ever known.