1-Day One-
Ben entered my room slowly,
looking around, as if just waiting for something to jump him. I
thought my room looked friendly enough. The nice clean blue walls,
the new red fabric rug, my newly polished brown desk, and the nice
white sitting couch for the patient. Although it may have been me who
looked scary, not the room. I never took a very good look in the
mirror. Who knows?
Ben took a few short steps, looking frantically
over his shoulder, every time he breathed heavily. Considering the
weather, you would think little white puffs of smoke would come from
within the warm mouth he had. However, the heating in this room
particularly was quite nice. It almost seemed like summer.
"Please,"
I said calmly. "Please, sit down. Your Ben right? Ben
Broulteski?"
Ben nodded gently and quickly took a seat on the
white couch. The fabric pushed down as he sat. Ben, about 18 I
thought, was about 210 lbs. His rough beard was only just beginning…
more of a 5 o'clock shadow. He wore tethered jeans… not like a
marine, I thought to myself, and a black t-shirt with nothing on it.
He wore a baseball cap too… a blue one. His shoes were a bright
blue, kind of one of those "Look at my shoes, aint they great?"
types.
"Now…" I said calmly again, remembering my training.
"Do you know why you're here?"
Ben looked at me with
bloodshot eyes. His white skin wrinkled around his forehead, and he
nodded, ever so gently.
"Well, do tell." I said. This Ben
character looked very feverish, as if he had just seen his entire
family ripped to shreds by some mass murderer… then again, for all
I knew he did… But that wouldn't be why he was here.
"Er…"
He slumped his head down on his shoulders and began to stare at the
red fabric rug.
"Well?"
"Er… well… I uh…" This
was obviously going nowhere.
"You are here because you could not
handle what you saw out there." I said without taking a breath.
"You could not handle the Zerglings, the Hydralisks, the marines
being ripped to shreds. You, my friend, could not take this. You
could not handle the merciless actions of the Zerg. You are here,
because you need to talk to someone. And that's where I come in.
I'm the Psychiatrist. You talk to me. You let it all out here."
Ben
looked at his shoes, dismayed. I took a deep breath, and stood
up.
"Now," I began, walking toward him, slowly, as not to
upset him. "I'm here to help you. Everything you do and say
inside here is confidential. You're not in any trouble. Now please,
tell me what happened. Tell me what you saw, that made it so you
could no longer handle it."
Ben sighed deeply and stared into my
eyes, pleading. I could tell he wanted out, and he wanted it
now.
"I'm sorry," I said, walking back to my desk. "But
you have to tell me. If you don't, and stay as crazy as you are
now, General Mengsk's orders are to have anyone in your situation
killed. Now…" I laughed. "I know that didn't sound too
friendly, but I had to put it blunt. You either tell me the story, or
you die. It's as simple as that. You can choose which ever you
want."
Ben once again stared. His eyes, blue eyes, were pleading
again. I could see tears swelling up in those big blue eyes. His face
was dirty, and he looked sheepish.
"Please," I said. "I
don't want you to die either. I'm the good guy."
He wept. He
put his dirty hands to his eyes, and bawled it out. The tears rolled
out of his eyes like a waterfall, as if to never stop. But they
did.
"No…" He cried, his first real word in my room, "I
can't… I don't want too…"
"You must." I calmly told
him. I felt bad for this poor man. Either he went through a lot more
than the others did, or he was just really emotional. Either way, I
felt a sort of pity rise in my heart."Well… I…I… I don't
know where to start…" He said, wiping a few tears from his eyes,
with those dirty hands.
"Start at the beginning." I laughed.
He made a sort of pathetic giggle, and stopped crying. Once the tears
stopped rolling, the mood in the room got a lot better. It seemed
brighter, and more efficient.
"Okay…" He mumbled to me,
softly. "I'll tell you my story."
"Good. Thank you." I
said to him, smiling, trying to comfort this pitiful man.
"It
began about… uh, what day is it?"
"Tuesday."
"Oh,
thanks. It began about two months ago, around Monday I believe. The
Sergeant had set the Alpha squad, my squad, to go see what was
happening to Delta. We had lost contact with them two days
earlier.
"Anyway, when we began our search, we almost
immediately knew something bad was going to happen. The radio tower
shut down five minutes into the search. The fifteen members of our
squad, including me wanted to go back. But, as we all knew, if we
did, our asses would be going straight into that there jail
cell.
"So, we went on. I marched next to a buddy of mine, maybe
you've seen him? Ray McVries? He's dead now, but still…"
"No,"
I said to Ben, "I don't' believe I've ever had him in this
room."
"Yeah," Ben smiled. "He was probably the most sane
guy in Alpha. Anyway, he said to me 'You know what I think happened
to Delta?' I says no, and he replied 'I betcha that it wan'
even the Zerg. I bet you that damn Confederacy found'em and ripped
um up.'"
"Heh," I laughed. "You either have a good
memory or you're a good improv artist."
"Good memory," Ben
said, knocking his head gently with a bawled up dirty fist. "Anyhoo,
we kept on walking. We searched for about three days… three days of
the hot, hot sun. The radio towers wasn't up yet, and still no
contact with the Sergeant or anyone for that matter. But we kept on
walking.
"It was… say, two weeks, before we got to the last
known location of Team Delta. When we got there, we did see some
footprints that went on foreword. So we followed um. 'You know,'
says Ray 'I bet you THEY had a vulture with them, and didn't all
walk on foot like us suckers. See? There's a vulture track.' And
sure enough, there was one.
"We kept on walking. We walked
another week before we found anything remotely interesting. The
vulture cycle tracks lead off in a different direction than the
footsteps did.
"Now, that was a predicament. Not only did we not
have radio contact with H.Q. yet, but also OUR radios weren't
working either. We couldn't separate and keep in contact."
"Wow,"
I said, "That is a predicament. What did you guys do?"
"I
was getting there," He said to me, "So hold on. Anyway, we
decided to vote on it. 15 was an odd, number, so we could do it. We
voted on whether to follow the footsteps or the vulture track-"
"Why
didn't you separate?" I asked.
"Why?" He said, staring at
me. "I already told you why. We had no radio contact, so we
couldn't keep in touch. We had all agreed that we weren't going
to separate. This was no horror movie, we weren't idiots, we were
gonna stick together, buddy. So, Anyhoo, after voting like grade
school children with the raising of hands, we decided to follow the
footsteps. I had voted on the Vulture tracks, because I wanted to
know what it was even doing there, all alone. But, we went after the
footsteps. Ray had said to 'We should follow the footsteps Ben, so
if by some miracle they're still alive we can save more people.'
After I thought that over, I had agreed with him.
"However, the
four hours we spent debating this topic was a waste, because the
vulture had went off to scout on the side or something because when
we went on, we saw that about one mile ahead, it met up with the
footsteps again. 'Huh,' Ray laughed to me 'that was one fuck of
a waste of time.' I agreed with him. Everyone did. He made it quite
blunt, did he not?"
"Yes, he did." I said to him. This story
was semi- interesting, compared to the others I had heard. He was
probably just over emotional. Oh well, nothing new and exciting
here.
"Of course things didn't stay so cheerful and
action-less." Ben said, making a sad pitiful smile. I could see
that soon enough, he was going to break down again. Something bad was
going to happen soon in this story… I could sense it. Death. Death
was coming soon.
"Anyway…" Ben said, regaining his
composure. He clonked his head, trying to jolt the memories back.
Apparently it worked because two seconds later he went on, in his
slightly raspy voice. "We followed for another day or two, I can't
quite remember. That's when the footprints just
stopped."
"Stopped?" I asked, dumbfounded. "What do you
mean they just, stopped?"
"What ah mean," Ben said to me,
"Is that they just stopped. As if they had evaporated. As if
suddenly the marines had just… disappeared. The Vulture however,
stayed there. Nice and put. There it was, a parked vulture just
sitting right where the footprints stopped.
"It didn't make
much sense to any of us… 'How could they have just stopped?'
says Ray to me. 'I-onno…' I had responded. The entire Alpha
team was dumbfounded. That is, until some guy named JJ or something
with a 'J' walked over to the last footstep. He just sank into
the sand. And he was gone.
"'My god!' yelled some guy to my
left… I think his name was Johanson-something or other. The leader
of our squad, lance corporal Nick Raynor, no relation to commander
Jim, ran over to the hole and yelled to JJ-something. A voice came
back.
"'Help' it screamed to us. 'I think this is a Lurker
hole!' And thus, it was."
"A lurker hole?" I asked. "A
LURKER HOLE? That's amazing. I've never heard of anyone falling
into one of those… Aren't the holes visible?"
"No," Ben
said to me, "They're a lot like them spiders… I uh, don't
know what they called but they're under ground and you can't see
them. You get close enough they jump. That's kinda what a Lurker
does, sept it shoots spikes at you."
"Wow…" Now THIS was
interesting. "Go on."
"Well I would," Ben said agitatedly.
"If you'd stop interrupting me."
"Sorry-"
"Ya!"
Ben said, with a mean tone. "You better be sorry you stupid fuc-
uh… I'm sorry, that was uncalled for. I'm just…"
"It's
okay." I said to him, in a fatherly tone. "It's okay."
"I
think we're out of time." He said, pointing behind me to the
large white clock on the blue painted wall.
"Yeah…" I
mumbled. "I guess we are. Next week. I wanna here more of this
story."
"Okay." He said, getting up from his seat, and
smiling open mouthed. "It was really good to get this shit off my
chest."
-Day Two-
Where was he? Ben was two minutes
late for today's meeting. Did he back out? Was he afraid to return?
And even if he did come, would he have another breakdown? Would he
just simply not talk? Who knew? Was he even going to come?
He
did.
When he entered the room, he was a good solid ten minutes
late. Ben opened the white door with its little fogged up window on
the top. He opened it, peaked his head through, and then walked in…
not like last time however. He seemed more confident this time. That
was good. That meant this was going somewhere.
"Hi." He said
to me. Ben smiled, and walked over to his patient couch. He looked
different today… He had obviously taken a shower, and washed his
cloths. He looked a lot cleaner. He wore no hat today; just his short
brown crew cut sticking out, and instead of pants, he wore overalls.
Under the tops of the overalls was a blank white t-shirt. He wore
just plain brown boots today, no longer those "Look at my shoes,
aint they great?" kinds. He looked more… well… I wasn't sure.
He just looked more something… Friendly maybe?
Sitting down on
his white couch, he smiled to me again. Open mouthed. His yellow
tinted teeth didn't exactly shine… but like I said before there
was more of a friendly tint to this smile. It wasn't the pathetic
one he had shown yesterday.
"Well you seem better today." I
said to him. He looked at me, and said: "Why yes, yes I do."
"Why
do you feel better?"
"Because my story gets interesting soon…
I did some great stuff back there."
"Well if you did some
great stuff why were you so hesitant to tell me the story."
"You'll
know why… later… For now, Let me just tell you the good parts,
and hopefully we'll run out of time for my sake by then, and I can
tell you the… horrible things, tomorrow."
"Okay." I said
to him. Ben lay back on his couch comfortably. The couch seemed to
adjust itself for his comfort, as his weight shifted the fabric from
side to side, every time he moved.
"Alright… should I begin?"
He asked. I nodded, and he continued. "Alright… I was at the
Lurker hole right?" I nodded again. "Alright, so like I said,
after Nick called for J-suttin, he responded and told us that it was
a Lurker hole. And after a minute of investigation we found out that
it WAS in fact a Lurker hole. Now here was where the question lay.
Did the lurker hit them? Or is this hole old, and they sank in like
poor old J-something. I'll just call him JJ. And the last question
was why the vulture had parked.
"Now, none of us up here could
answer those questions. We were quite sure the marines didn't get
hit up here, because if they did, there would be guts all over the
place. So Nick called down to JJ 'Are there footsteps down there?'
And sure enough, JJ replied 'Yeah! Just like up there! I didn't
even see them till you asked me! Whoa! This hole is bigger than your
momma Nick!' This slightly sarcastic remark helped us out. We knew
that this didn't kill him. And that's why the Vulture stopped. It
stopped to see what the fuck had just happened, and sure enough he
fell right in to. At least, that was our educated guess. And by darn
if you can find a better one, I'll dance like a monkey on your
desk.
"Anyhoo, we decided that what ever happened down in that
hole, should stay in that hole. We weren't going down there. We
would find a way to get JJ out, and then busta-move, if you know what
I mean."
"Good plan," I said. "But how could you get him
out?"
"Well," He began again. "We didn't have any rope.
So, as frantically lost and running out of water as we were, we were
stupid enough to make one of them human chains. You know, where we
all hold hands and get lowered down. He grabs the first guys hand and
we pull him up?"
"Yeah, I know what you're talking
about."
"Well, hahaha, It worked like shit. The guy at the end
had too much weight on him, and he lost us. We all slipped foreword,
and now we lost another four guys. Ten up here, five down there. What
a predicament. Nick and Ray were down there, along with three other
guys. Well we were out of ideas. Like I said, we were all very
thirsty. We were slowly losing our minds. We ran out of food that
day, so we were hungry too. Plus, the radio towers STILL weren't
up. I mean what the hell. Either that, or something was screwing up
our location.
"So then this guy yells from down there, it
sounded like Nick, and he says: 'Guys! Come down here! There's
water! WATER!' And we're just crazy enough to believe him. All
ten of us. All freakin ten of us! We just fuckin dive-bombed into the
sand, and we sank right in. Although we didn't have to be crazy to
believe him… He wasn't lying! Sure enough there was like a
fucking pond down there! It was great! We stayed down there the whole
night… You'd be surprised how light it is, with all of us marines
flashing our head and shoulder flashlights all over the place.
"The
next day, we decided to pack up some of this beautiful water, and
then follow these damned footprints again. We did so. The footprints
lead us to this big huge tunnel that seemed to go on forever. We all
sighed at that, I'll tell you what. But we went on. And on. And on.
And on… Just never stopping. There was no light at the end of this
tunnel, because it seemed like there wasn't even an end. 'God
damn, Ben, you think this things ever gonna end?' Ray asked me. I
laughed at him and said 'No.' Hahaha, but it did, you know. About
after seven hours of straightforward walking, the tunnel ended. It
ended and it took a fucking load of us. We rested. The tunnel had led
us to this giant like 1-mile wide 1-mile long room. It was just an
undercover cave or something. The footprints told us that they had
rested here too. It was amazing that after all this time the
footprints hadn't died away. They were faded, they had always been
faded, but they were nice and clear, you know? Like a gift from the
Lord. Do you believe in Him, uh-what is your name?"
"Hahaha,"
I laughed, then replied: "Not many people know my name. And your
one of those not many people. I like to keep my last name
confidential. My first name is David though. And yes, I do believe in
God. I'm Jewish. Are you Christian?"
"Yes."
"Thought
so. Go on."
"Alright… now after we had rested for an hour,
we went on. Following those goddamn footprints. They had to lead us
somewhere, right? Well they did. Straight into Hell itself. But
that's for another day. Now I gotta tell you the adventures in this
1-mile room.
"Once we were half way through, someone decided to
visit us. Guess who."
"Zerglings?"
"Bingo. Those little
shitters jumped up from the tunnel ahead of us, and ran straight for
us, screaming their fucking little heads off. The fifteen of us
grabbed our Gauss rifles and pumped some lead into them. There were
about seven Zerglings, so they were outnumbered, plus, a lot stupider
than us. We owned them. They didn't even get close to us. However,
we didn't hear the ones to our left until just then. They were
about… say, four feet away. We shot frantically and ran to the
right. A Zergling swung for one guy's leg, but missed, and it
tripped itself. Flinging over backwards, it ram shackled the rest of
them bastards. They all fell over. They tried gettin back up but we
doused them with slugs. They didn't even have a chance that time.
They all exploded in that red goopy slop, that's like blood mixed
with corn syrup.
"So, now we knew that we weren't alone down
here. And we were also quite sure Delta was dead, because those
bastards almost got us, and where they were they didn't have a 50
foot warning that the first bunch was after them. They were in that
there tunnel up ahead. Most likely dead.
"So, we kept on going.
Following those footsteps like a dog on some biscuits scent.
Following, following, following. That's all we freakin did. It
seemed like it never stopped. Follow this, and follow that. But we
followed.
"About one-two days later in that tunnel we found some
Zergling carcasses. They were dead, obviously. They just were sitting
there, with bullet marks on the walls to our left and right. Oh, by
the way, I don't know if I mentioned this or not, but the tunnels
were usually about twenty-seven feet wide. It was good sized.
"A
bit farther down we saw a single dead hydralisk… and to our horror
a dead man."
"A what?" I asked, a bit shocked. "You mean
they just left him there?"
"Yeah," Ben said, looking down at
the fabric red rug. "What else would they do? When we found that
body all fifteen of us made a vow that if someone would die, there
would be no burial. No salute. We would leave them, like they did. We
would do what was necessary.
"And that vow was put to use about
four minutes later when another pack of Zerglings ran at us from
ahead. We gathered around, and pumped some slugs into the shitters.
One exploded, splashing the walls with its corn syrup-like blood.
Another exploded, goring up the area. A third one and a forth one at
the same time, like in unison, corrupted in gore and splattered the
walls. A fifth one painted the ceiling. But there were three more.
One more we managed to get. It painted us. The other two raised their
razor sharp claws and gouged them inside of the Johanson-something or
other guy. He screamed, and he soon, was dead. We made one more
Zergling paint the wall, before somebody else got hit. Lance-corporal
Nick Raynor Got a claw into his shoulder. As soon as the Zergling
struck, I shot its fucking head off. It exploded, and I ran over to
Nick. Removing the claw, he looked at me, thanked me, and then fell,
not dead, but unconscious."
"Wow…" I mumbled to myself.
"This is getting good. Go on."
"Good?" Ben asked me,
staring, bloodshot again. "Good? How would you like it if I walked
over to your Mother and shot her freaking head off. Would that be
good?"
"No-"
"Well than Johanson dying aint good
either, now is it? That was somebody's son. That may have been
someone's husband or brother. Death isn't good, David. It's
Hell. Pure Hell."
I let this sink in. I mean, I knew what he
meant, and I was sorry for saying such a heartless thing, but I made
him think he put an impact on me. He did, sort of. I straightened my
tie, as the awkward silence continued. Finally, it ended and Ben
spoke.
"I'm sorry… It's just that after all this; death
has made a huge mark on me. It's like I've been branded… know
what I mean?"
I did.
"It's time again… Time up…"
Ben said to me, pointing once again to the huge clock behind me. I
nodded in agreement, and he got up from his seat. He walked over to
me, and shook my hand. "You have no idea… uh-… David, how good
it is to get all this off my chest. Sorry I was late, today, I
promise to be early tomorrow!" He smiled, walked to the door,
opened it, and left.
-Day Three-
"Hello, and welcome
back!" I smiled to Ben. He had come early, just as he'd promised.
Five minutes early to be exact. He didn't look like the day before.
He didn't look friendly at all. He wasn't dirty today… it was
just that when he entered my room, the room seemed to get… sad.
Sheer terror, more like it. His eyes were bulging and red, bloodshot.
He looked pale around his face. Today he wore the tattered jeans
again. The same brown boots from yesterday, and this time he wore a
sort of leathery jacket. It was black with brown edges. He also wore
gloves today. Black, cut at the finger gloves. He wore a hat, but not
the same one from two days ago, one with yellow, black, and red on
it, the colors of the Sons of Korhal.
"Ben, are you alright?"
I asked him. When I asked this he looked at me cautiously and sat on
the patient couch, uncomfortably. He stared at me, his blue eyes
seeming to swell with tears.
"It's not very happy past this
point… It gets… Horrible…" Ben said to me. His eyes, burning
blue eyes, flamed with terror. Something bad had happened to him,
something worse than I have ever seen before, or heard of
before.
"Well…" I began, picking my words carefully. "In
order for…you to get over your… current situation…" Slowly,
making sure I use my words correctly, I went on. "You must first,
talk about it. Others must know, or hear, of what you've went
through… It helps to let it out… When you keep it inside, it sort
of… well… eats you up inside. Do you know what I mean,
Ben?""Yes…" He mumbled to me.
"Then please," I said,
"Please, let it out. Let me help you in the only way I can. Let it
out on me. Talk to me."
"Okay…" Said Ben. "Hold on…
where did I leave off last time?"
"Um… I think it was when
Mr. Johanson was killed, and then Nick passed out."
"Oh,
right," Ben nodded, in thought, re-catching his place. "Alright.
So now Nick was out cold, Johanson-something or other was dead, and
we didn't have a squad leader anymore. So, disgruntled, the group
decided to appoint someone to be the current leader. We did a quick
grade school children vote, with hands up-style. Ray McVries, my ol'
buddy was put in to take Nick's place. 'Oh aint this great…'
Ray says to me. 'Now I get to choose how we're slaughtered.'
And he was probably right.
"I didn't get much time to think
about it though, because yet again, a group of Zerglings screamed at
us, and ran to us. Only four this time. We blasted through them
fuckas like an elephant smashing some paper. The poor little bastards
didn't even have a chance. It was when the Hydralisk came that we
were worried. Just out of nowhere from our right side, came this huge
Hydralisk. You shoulda seen this fucker! This baby was at least seven
feet tall, had scythes that looked like they could rip you to shreds
with one swing, and a very venomous looking mouth. I could see the
spikes dwelling within it, preparing to shoot out and slaughter
us.
"'Douse it!' came Ray's voice. And so we did. It
raised its scythe in the air, and swatted at the JJ-guy. It missed
him, and then decided to shoot a spike forward. It flung past my
head, and ruptured the skull of some poor fucker behind me-"
"Heyy
Ben," I said interrupting him. "Please, hold down on the language
a bit. Swears have always made me nervous… Some drunk that swore
all the time killed my dad when I was only 10."
"Oh," Said
Ben. "Sorry 'bout that… Anyway, after it ruptured that poor
bastards skull, the creature shot another spike. It missed everyone.
It hit a rock behind us, and the rock fell. It covered up the exit of
our tunnel. We were stuck in this little tunnel with a Hydralisk. A
dead Hydralisk that is, because we shot its freaking head off a few
moments later.
"'So what now?' asked that JJ-guy. Ray was
thinking hard. He was thinking so goddamn hard I'm surprised a
blood vessel didn't pop in his head. I could see him tuning us al
lout, thinking. He didn't need to though. We were all dead as shits
anyway because once again some little shitters attacked from behind,
about twelve little fuc-uh-Zerglings.
"Blasting through six of
them was easy enough. We shot their heads and legs and other body
parts all over the walls. The stupid little things just kept coming.
So now we had another six to go. Blasting off another two of them,
into the wall, we began running back. The Zerglings came full pace
toward us. Screaming… Screaming like they were walking on fire. I
blasted one last ones head off when-"
He stopped. His eyes
seemed to jump from his head, and the tears rolled down again. He
bawled, loud, and queasy. I stared, reluctantly. What was this? What
was so bad that he couldn't stop?
"When… when…" Ben was
stuttering now. He stared at the clock behind me… still ten minutes
to go, I thought, looking at my wristwatch. "When… please." He
looked at me pleading. "PLEASE, don't make me say it! I can't…
All I can say is everything got black… Real black… Please, I
can't do it! I can't bear with it… not now… not today…"
"You
have to." I said to him, looking at my watch. Nine minutes now. He
had nine minutes to go.
"NO!" Ben screamed. He jumped up from
his seat knocking over a vase that stood next to the chair on a
wooden table. "NO! I-I-I have to go now! I'll talk tomorrow! I
HAVE TO GO!" I jumped up and tried to stop him, but he ran to the
door, ripped it open and ran through the hallway. I had to get him. I
had to stop him.
"Stop that man!" I screamed, jumping through
my doorway, to the guards. The guards, big rough, and in their battle
armor, plucked their arms foreword and grabbed Ben by the shirt.
Struggling, Ben ripped the shirt in half, and jumped out the door.
The two guards stared at me for further instruction. "It's okay…"
I said to them. "He'll be back tomorrow. He better,
anyway."
Days 4-6 Later…
-Day 4-
I sipped at
my tea, staring at the door. My white door, just sitting there so
innocently. I could have killed that door. "Open damn you! Open!"
I thought-screamed to it. Yet to no avail. Maybe he wouldn't show.
Maybe Ben would chicken out… But I had thought this before, and
sure enough he had shown. I must show confidence in my
patients.
About 20 minutes late, sure enough, there he was. The
bloodshot, scared-to-death Ben. Not the friendly Ben I had seen two
days ago, the scared Ben. The Ben that made the room seem to sag
down, and all happiness seem to quietly leave the room, ashamed to
have ever existed.
"H-Hi…" Ben said to me, doing his
sad-walk toward the patient couch. I stared at him, for the millionth
time trying to figure out what this man had seen. What he had been
through to do this to him. It had to be horrible.
"Hello Ben.
Nice to see you today. I wasn't sure you were coming."
"Yeah…
I-uh- well… I was a bit hesitant to come. After yesterday… you
know… I thought you might be a little mad…"
"No." I
said, smiling at him. "Not at all. After all, that's what you're
here for right? Okay. Now, lets hear your story."
"Where d-did
I leave off?" He asked, sitting down on the couch. Today he wore
his overalls again. His "look at my shoes aint they great" shoes
were on again. He had a black hat on backwards, and his brown hair
was slipping out of the front. He was also wearing a white t-shirt
with a brown stain on it. Looked like a coffee stain.
"I believe
you left off at…" I paused momentarily, trying to remember. "You
left off, when you blasted one of their heads off… I believe
they're were 12 of them, 6 were gone, and then you blasted 2 more…
Um… Let me think… And then you began running back-"
"Oh,
yes, right." Ben said quickly. "Okay. We started running back, I
shot ones head off, like I had said, when suddenly I had realized
something. Something horrible. Nick, still out cold, was lying five
feet in front of me. The Zerglings were about seven or so feet in
front. There was no time to save him. They were gonna rip him into
little itty-bitty bite size pieces.
"I kept on running back,
tears rolling down my eyes like they did the first day I came here…
I closed my eyes and kept on dousing my ammo into the little
shitters. I heard one more explode before I opened my eyes. Nick was
up, and shooting angrily. Apparently he had woken up within the last
few seconds and had quickly gained his mind into what he should do…
but to no avail. One of the Zerglings quickly shred him up, his body
parts flying across the tunnel. His leg damn near hit me! HIS LEG,
David, HIS LEG. You ever had a leg of a friend tossed at you? Didn't
think so. I don't know how we all managed to go on after that. It
didn't take long to finish off the last two Zerglings, and there we
were, alone again. I can't remember… I think we had lost
Johanson, Nick, umm… Some other guy… And I believe that was it.
We had lost three men in total so far.
"Now, Ray McVries was the
leader of our little squad. For good, this time. Nick was dead, and
it was up to him."
"One second…" I said interrupting Ben,
"I'm just trying to figure this out… Yesterday, that breakdown…
was all about Nick?""Oh no…" Ben said, staring at me colder
than a snowman. "Not at all… you haven't even begun to hear my
horrors, David."
I looked at him cautiously. He looked
dangerous. He looked scary. He looked like he was about to rip out a
knife and end it for me, right here and now. I waited for him to
strike. But of course, he didn't. He went on.
"Now the 12 of
us were devastated. We were blocked off from the footsteps. We
couldn't follow them anymore. Instead here we were stuck, at least
two days into the tunnel, and even if we could go back, we'd just
be stuck in that damn Lurker hole again.
"Ray, being the smart
guy he is, began to conduct a plan. I can't exactly remember it…
sorry; my memory is pretty good at some points, and aint to bright in
others… but anyway, we never got to use his plan. Because the worst
possible creature you could imagine jumped into the room at that
point.
"No, it was no Zergling. It wasn't a Hydralisk it
wasn't even an Ultralisk! For gods sake it was a…a…"
He
stopped. Ben looked at me, sadly. He sighed deeply, a sigh that
seemed to blow out all his fear. This sigh gave him the strength to
continue the sentence. "It was an infested terran."
"WHAT?"
I screamed, shocked. "Excuse me? I don't think I heard you
correctly."
"An infested terran…" Ben sighed again. I
looked at him, questioningly. He went on.
"It was a guy from
Delta. That cleared up a few questions. I recognized him. His name
was Mark Hopkinson. He was an old friend of mine from high school, I
think. His face was still the man I once knew. He was staring at me,
his eyes filled with tears. However, the rest of him was fully Zerg.
There was nothing else human about him except his eyes. I knew that
when they changed you from human to Zerg… they keep your mind.
"It
ran towards us, but no one fired a single shot. All 12 of us were
completely dumbfounded. I mean, when I TOLD you what it was you were
shocked. Can you imagine being one of us? Staring at it… just,
staring."
Ben stopped there, and looked at me, with his
bloodshot, eyes. He was still looking evil. His face was a sad
pathetic look, but he just looked… mad. Scary. Like he could just
kill all of us on this planet right now, without a second thought.
Like he would slash my throat, not thinking twice.
"It ran at
us," Ben continued. "It kept on runnin. It kept getting closer
and closer. Not once did we shoot at it. We just couldn't
comprehend what was in front of us. Who could? We had been prepared
for a Zergling, a Hydralisk, an Ultralisk, but for God's sake, not
an Infested Terran…"
"You guys didn't shoot, all this
time?" I asked him.
"No," He said, tilting his head to the
left, and scratching his nose. "No, we didn't."
Something
loud banged outside. And then a flash of light hit the room, a yellow
light.
"What was that?" I asked him.
"Thunder…" He
said, looking at me coldly. "Didn't you know there was a storm
outside?"
"No. I'm not aloud out of these building, Mengsk's
orders. Well if it's raining why aren't you wet?"
"I had a
raincoat on." Ben laughed, shrilly. The lights flickered above our
heads, and then they went back to normal. When the lights had
flickered I noticed something.
"Ben, do you have any…medical
problems?"
"I might." He said, staring… There was
something about that stare.
The lights flickered again. When they
did, Ben's eyes did not dilate. "Ben," I said, looking at him,
pondering. "You're blind, aren't you?"
Ben tilted his head
downwards creating a sort of shadow over his face. The lights
flickered once more, and then went out, for good.
"I haven't
gotten to that part yet." Ben sneered, smirking. His face seemed
almost pure evil. He definitely did not look right. Something was
wrong."What do you mean, you haven't gotten to that part yet?"
I asked, getting up from my seat for a flashlight.
"What I
mean," He snickered. "Is that I have not reached that point in my
story yet."
I looked at him questioningly. He pointed to the
clock behind me. "Times up."
Ben sat up. I clicked the
flashlight on, and watched him leave the room. I sat down on my black
padded chair. If he was blind, how did he know the time?
-Day 5-
Something went wrong. Mengsk had proclaimed him cured. He
was not cured. I knew he wasn't. Something was wrong. Mengsk's
orders were for me to not leave the building. Ha, like I was going to
listen tot hat giant piece of cow dung.
Leaving my room for the
first time in two weeks, I entered the hall. The guards looked at me
cautiously.
"Sir, what is it you want?" One big armor buffed
guard asked me. The room, in which I stood now, was bright red. The
walls, the seats, even the rug, all red. The guards, both of their
faces invisible behind the body armor, stood in place.
"What I
want is for you two, to get out of my way." I said, walking towards
the door.
A guard plucked his hand forward and stopped me from
moving on, by pushing his cold, metal hand upon my chest.
"I'm
sorry sir, but by the laws sent to us by the Emperor himself is that
you cannot exit the building at any point in time. Besides, you have
a new patient today sir." The guard who was pushing me aside,
said.
"No." I said clearly. "I'm leaving this building.
Something is wrong!"
The guard kept on pushing me. I had to hear
the story! I had to know what was going on! I… I had… NO! I HAD
TO KNOW!
"LET ME THE FUCK OUT!" I screamed. Both guards jumped
in surprise of my scream, and I took advantage of the situation.
While they were both still shocked, I opened the door quickly, and
scrambled out. The guards, baffled, took a few seconds to realize
what just happened, and also, scrambled out the door to chase
me.
"NO!" I yelled back to them. "I have to know!"
One
guard, the one who had been pushing me aside, caught up with me. He
used his left arm to quickly push me. With the strength brought up
from a battle suit, I went flying to the left. I hit the desert
ground with a bang. My body seemed to lose all control of my left
arm.
I lay there, broken arm and all, screaming. "NO! I HAVE TO
KNOW!"
And then common sense hit me. What the hell was I doing?
It was just one man, and his one story.
I woke up. I
looked around me, a bit scared that I might see Mengsk himself ready
to slit my throat. But it was just I. I was lying on my desk. I
quickly tried to move my left arm. It functioned fine.
Just a
dream.
Was there a message in this dream? Was there some sort of
reality in my dream? Mengsk did not cure him; I did not jump out
wanting to hear the story. That did not happen at all.
I looked at
my wristwatch. 12:30, still a half hour till Ben showed up to keep on
telling me his story. He had left 10 minutes early yesterday. Not
only was he 20 minutes late, but also left 10 minutes early.
The
door to my room opened, ever so slightly, and I saw a familiar face
staring back at me. I jumped, and fell off my desk. Crashing against
the fabric rug, I grabbed my glasses on the table to my left. Getting
on my knees, I sat up, and got back into my chair.
"Sorry…"
Said Ben, and walked into the room. His pants were new ones… the
tag still on them. They were black jeans. He had a belt around them,
and it was sagging. He had a white t-shirt tucked into it. It had a
sort of sweaty look to it. Ben also wore the black hat he had worn
once before. He wore it frontward this time, and there were words on
it. 'No Pain, No Gain' it said.
"No problem. It's nice
your early. Making up for the lost time yesterday?"
"No."
"Well,"
I began. "Why are you here so early?"
Ben looked at me and
laughed. Today was not a friendly day like on Day 2. This was once
again, an evil day, like yesterday. A scary day. "You think I have
anywhere else to go in the afternoon? I'm a blind crazy guy. No one
likes me. All I've got is you, and I scare the buh-jeezes outta
youse. Not much for me, eh? All I got is mah radio."
"I
guess…" I mumbled. Ben laughed shrilly again, and sat on the
patient couch. He took off his shoes, and lay down on it
today.
"Well, should I keep goin'?" He asked me. I nodded,
and he continued from yesterday. "Well lets see… the infested
terran… oh, right. So anyways, it was running at us. The familiar
face of my old friend Mark lay on top of the Zerg body, all the time,
the eyes staring at me. Finally I had a bit of sense in my body, and
lifted my gun. I shot at those eyes first. I don't know why. The
eyes seemed to beckon to me. They pleaded to not kill it. I did.
"My
blaring guns seemed to knock some sense into my other squad members,
and they joined in rather quickly. All 12 of us, pumping lead into
that thing. Without its eyes it was no longer human at all. It was
okay to blast its fucking head off. No more eyes, equals, no more
human. The thing flipped around in its infested battle armor, and
soon enough it exploded with half human-half corn syrup-like blood.
When it exploded it was about four feet away from us. We killed it
though. It didn't explode because it got too close. Although I
don't even know if that's how they really attack… It's just
rumor.
"Anyhoo, we finished that sucka off, but none of us had
anything left in us. We were too flabbergasted at what had just been
in front of us. Wouldn't you?"
Ben stopped and stared at me.
Those eyes… Those eyes scared me. They used to make me pity him.
This wasn't pity anymore. This was fear.
"Well?" He asked me
again. "Wouldn't you?"
"Yes…"
"Okay then." Ben
cleared his throat, and went on. "What ever Ray's plan was, he
had lost it. We had forgotten everything we had seen before that
moment… except for me. I got this super memory over here. Alright,
so anyway we were stuck. We decide to make our way back to that giant
1-mile long 1-mile wide room. That was the best place for us.
"We
went on walking down that tunnel forever it seemed. I don't know
how long. But we got there. The room seemed like heaven to us at that
moment. Why? Because we now had little places to rest. Seriously, it
wasn't all that uncomfortable. There were these little ditches in
the rocks, where we could just lay down, and enjoy the
night.
"Anyhoo, we rested there for two days, and then we
decided to send 2 guys down to get some water. We were running low.
JJ and some guy, I believe his name was Kris, offered to go down.
"It
was a good days walk to and fro, so we gave them a day… Then two.
Then three. None of us wanted to believe they were dead. We wouldn't
believe it. Not until we got proof. So, after an hour or two of
debating it, we all decided to jump on down, and go to the ol'
Lurker hole, and see where they were.
"We went down, a days walk
down there, including that tunnel that was really small… you know
that never ending one from before? The seven hour one? It felt like
hell to go through it again… not that we had to go through the
whole thing before we found JJ and Kris. They were both dead, laying
face down on the sharp rocks. Wasn't even a Zerg, just an accident.
One of them must've tripped, and knocked the other one down. They
fell on the sharp rocks, and it ripped open JJ's skull. Kris was
still alive, with only a chest wound, but he was dead about four
minutes up the tunnel. He had tried.
"This had showed us that
even little things could end it all. We had to be careful around or
not around the Zerg. Even the rock could kill us. It just was another
thing to remind us how fragile life was.
"Not that we needed
that reminder, considering all the death around us. So here we were,
ten guys. We were all screwed. No chance in hell to live this fucker
out."
"That's a predicament." I commented. Ben stared at
me, without blinking.
"Shut the fuck up David." He said. He
gave me a look so horrid, I had to look away. The shadows from my
desk glinted around on the wall. What time was it? 1:27pm. Only three
more minutes? No way! I had to hear more.
"Sorry…" I
mumbled. "Go on."
"No."
"What?" I asked, baffled.
"What do you mean; No?"
"Just what I fucking said." Ben
almost screamed to me.
"Ben? Remember what I said about the
swears? It bothers me and-"
"OH IM SORRY!" Ben screamed. "DO
FUCKING SWEARS FUCKING BOTHER YOU? WELL GET THE FUCK OVER IT YOU
LITTLE SHITFACE DUNG ASS MOTHER FUCKER!"
I clasped my hands over
my ears… I began not listening. No…
"FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! YOU
GONNA CRY?"
No…no… Dad…
"FUCK, FUCK, FUCK!"
Dad…
no…
"FUCK SHIT BITCH!"
Nooooo! Dad… No!
"FU-"
That
was it.
I jumped up from my chair and thrashed myself over the
desk. I clasped my hands around Ben's neck. Ben, completely caught
off guard, made a screeching noise. I squeezed harder. He yelped. I
used all my strength to strangle him.
"That All You Got!" Ben
screamed between breaths. He reached his hands over to my lamp,
picked it up, and bashed it over my head. A spurt of blood squirted
from my forehead and hit the wall. At the sight of my own blood
dripping down my wall, everything got black.
I woke up,
about an hour later, still on the couch. I sat there, looking towards
my desk. The blood was gone. My head hurt like hell. Ben sat on the
chair at my desk.
"Now tell me, Mr. David, what exactly is your
last name?"
"F-Frazier…" I stuttered. What was
happening?
"Good… Now what happened to you as a child?" Ben
almost laughed out. He stare at me, laying on the couch. I was only
semi-conscious.
"My… my Daddy…" I cried.
"What
happened to your dad?" He asked me, as if he were the
Psychiatrist.
"Dad…" I rubbed my eyes, and breathed heavily…
At the moment I had no idea where I was. "Daddy… The guy… He
said 'Fuck you Stan! Fuck you! You little fucker! I'm gonna fuck
you up good.' What does fuck mean?"
Ben looked at me as if I
had three heads… my voice had died down to a sort of child's
voice. "Keep going, David."
"And then the guy he wanted my
Daddy to give him money… lots of money, like a billion bajillion
dollars. My Daddy said he didn't have dat much money…"
"Keep
going."
"And…and then the guy grabbed me and pushed me
inside a closet all the while screaming 'Your Daddy's goin to
hell yah little fucker! Learn from your Daddy's mistake, and don't
be a shit head, will yah? Hahaha…' And then he shut the
closet…"
I paused. What was I doing? Common sense hit me like
a sack of potatoes and I jumped up.
"What do you think you're
doing?" I screamed to Ben. Ben just sat there as if he owned the
place.
"What do I think I'm doing? HA! I think I'm getting
some answers David ol' boy. Hahaha!" Ben stared at me, with his
bloodshot eyes. The veins on his forehead bulged foreword and seemed
to be screaming at me, angrily. "David, my stories up. The question
now, is what do you have to say!"
I looked around frantically.
What was I supposed to do? What was going on?
"Guards!" I
screamed. "Guards! I need you! Help!" No help came.
"What do
you think I did while you were out?" Ben said, sneering at me. He
opened a drawer in my desk, and pulled out a small but lethal
handgun.
"No!" I yelled. I looked toward the door, and ran to
it. I grabbed the smooth metal handle, and yanked it open. I jumped
outside the room and looked outside. There they were. My two faithful
guards. Dead. There was a bullet hole in one's head, going straight
through the glass part. The second one had two bullet holes in him.
One around his cheek, the other dead center in his forehead. I
re-entered the room slowly.
"Hahaha," Ben laughed. "You're
smarter than I thought. I had thought you were going to run. I woulda
shot you." Ben smiled, open mouthed. Not a happy smile, a deadly
smile. I wouldn't have been surprised to see blood dripping down
his front teeth.
"How'd you get that g-gun…?" I queried.
Ben looked at me, sneering. His nose was bleeding. This time when he
smiled open mouthed, blood DID drip down his teeth.
"That's
not the question, David. The question is, what happened next in your
little story?"
I looked at him, breathing heavy. My heart was
beating like a drum in my ears, and I could barely hear anything
else. Ben was still smiling, eyebrows down, evilly.
"What
happened next… was… he… He pulled out a knife and slit my
Daddy's throat…" I cried. Ben walked over to me, from the
chair, and sat down on his knees next to me. He was smiling, blood on
his mouth.
"Cry little boy. And then burn in Hell."
I
looked up, and Ben smacked the handle of the gun on the back of my
head. I felt the bump, and everything got black again.
-Day 6-
Opening my eyes, I found myself on the floor of my room.
Ben was gone. There was a piece of paper on my desk, taped. I felt
the bump on the back of my head. It was huge. The bump on my forehead
was no better.
I jumped up, and ran toward the door to my left. I
ripped it open, and looked out, down the hall. The guards were gone.
I looked straight in front of me, too the closet. I could sense the
bodies of those two men, laying in there.
The door opened, and to
my surprise, no one entered. It blew open, and hit the wall next to
it with a sort of light 'clank'.
Slowly, I approached the
door… almost tip toeing. Last night had scared me half to death.
Ben was a crazy guy. Someone not even I could help. I reached the
door. The blue metallic, was soft and cold on my skin, as I touched
it. I looked outside to the desert area. Three Barracks's were
training marines and firebats and ghosts. One command center with
holding the Emperor himself, lay off to the east a bit, just out of
view. About two dozen supply depot's encircled the Barracks's.
I
sighed. I had to tell Mengsk what had happened. My first foot
outside. A single stream of sweat went down my cheek, as I stepped
outside, onto the wooden stairs. The stairs were only three steps.
One step. Two step. Three…
"Enjoying your visit outside
cry-baby?" Came the voice of Ben from my left.
I almost
screamed, but held it back. I tilted my head left, and sure enough,
there sat Ben. Same clothes as yesterday. He was looking at me,
carefully. "Now, little boy, you weren't planning on telling
little ol' Mengsk were you? Now, I can't allow that. Oh no."
Ben
laughed. The laugh made me shiver, and I almost ran, full pace, back
inside. I grabbed the metallic handle, and slammed the door
shut.
BOOM!
Something blew the door handle into pieces. It
almost exploded, and it flew half way across the waiting lobby. It
slammed into the back, wall. I fell back, leaning on the wall behind
me. The door slowly opened, with out even needing a push. Ben
entered, looking around the room, smiling. That evil smile. Although,
he wasn't really looking… He was blind.
"Bad, Bad boy,
David." Ben laughed again. "Now. Get up, and let me finish MY
story. I heard yours. Now you hear mine."
"O-Okay…" I
said. Not just because it was he, who was in control. But, because I
really, truly wanted to know the story of Ben. The amazing journey of
the amazing Ben. The inevitable force of the amazing Ben. The shrill
horror, …of the amazing Ben.
"Then lets go into your infamous
room, shall we?" Ben asked, a shadow corrupting the bottom half of
his face. Ben, lowered his hand, for me to take. Slowly, and
carefully, I grabbed his hand. He lifted me up by my arm, and almost
dragged me into my little room.
"Get the fuck in your chair."
Ben told me. I did as he said, and he put the gun away in his pocket.
The blood was still on his face, dried now. He had never wiped it
off.
"Now," Ben said, smiling that horrible smile. "Where
did I leave off?"
"I don't… know…" I whispered. The
air in the room seemed to be filled with corruption. Gunshots were
blasting off in the distance.
"What was that?" I asked,
looking at the dried blood on Ben's face.
"That," Ben
sneered. "Were gun shots. I betcha they're here for me." Ben
laughed.
The white wooden door to my room, suddenly was jerked
open and two marines, fully armored and holding Gauss rifles jumped
into the room.
"Freeze!" One yelled, holding the rifle at eyes
length towards Ben's sick and demented head.
"Ah, well didn't
I see this coming, David? Think about that. I sensed them coming.
Think about that David."
The two marines ran to Ben sharply and
grabbed him under the arms. One marine pulled out his hand gun from
his pocket. The marine slipped the gun into his own pocket and began
dragging the amazing Ben. The other marine stayed and looked at
me.
"It's okay. We saw him outside with a gun last night. We
saw him dispose of the guards bodies. We came in today after
preparations." The marine told me. "Mengsk will be sending you a
new patient tomorrow."
No, I thought, This can't be. I didn't
want to hear someone else's story. I wanted to here the amazing
tale, of the amazing Ben.
Days 7-9 later…
-Day 7-
"He
WHAT?" I exclaimed through the small black portable phone. The
phone was slightly old, a 2 year old model but it worked just fine.
It barely ever rang, but yet today it sat there up on the shelf and
decided to ring and light up its little red light bulb. When I had
answered it a voice all-too-familiar had appeared.
"He WHAT?"
I repeated a bit shocked. It was Ben on the other line. He sounded as
if his nose was stuffy, and he sounded like he had a major cramp.
"I
said," Ben said through the phone, "That Mengsk released me and
I'm coming back to you baby boy! I don't know why… I guess he
gets something out of it, a bribe maybe… I've gotta lotta friends
in dirty business you know!"
"I never would have guessed…"
I mumbled sarcastically. Ben laughed a sharp broken glass laugh and
then said:
"You know, David ol' boy, I think you're my only
friend who aint in dirt business."
"I'm not your
friend."
The phone fell silent. All I could hear over the phone
was Ben's breath. He had become almost dead silent. After a moment
he finally replied.
"Now listen here you little shit head, I'm
not up to dealing with you today." I could almost feel his grin on
the other side of the phone. "But I guess I'm going to have too.
Unless you want to die of course. That's not a threat, only Mengsks
orders. You havta psycho mumbo jumbo me baby! Or you get a few
lashes, and then you get to die! Sound fun?" The grin on the other
side of the phone seemed to rip through the phone line and smack me
in the head. I could sense his loving this. He was having fun.
"You
know," I commented. "I'd rather die then listen to your
bullshit. Its all a bunch of lies. I know it is."
Ben replied
almost instantly and almost cutting me off, and he spoke extremely
fast. "You know nothing of fear. My story is more true then the
fact that you and I exist. YOU know NOTHING of fear."
I was
about to speak, but he cut me off. "You. Know. Nothing. Of.
Fear."
The way he said those five words seemed to jump out at
me. Those five words were like sharp knives gouging my insides. They
seemed to rip me from inside out.
"What do you mean I-"
"YOU
KNOW NOTHING OF FEAR!" Ben shouted at me through the phone, and
then when I tried to retaliate all I heard was a dial tone.
He had
hung up.
Tomorrow, I thought, Ben returns tomorrow.
Of course
although I resented it, I semi-consciously had wanted… no, needed
him to return. The story called for me, it was undeniable. The story
reached out with its frigid hands and grasped me by the shoulders,
seemingly pulling me into the inside.
The story returned
tomorrow.
The amazing Ben. Returned. Tomorrow.
Amazing? Why was
it that I called him amazing? Was I slowly becoming delusional?
Or…?
-Day 8-
My white door seemed to open by itself.
Slowly creaking away at its un-greased hinges. The familiar yet
terrifying face of Ben Broulteski entered the room yet again, and as
usual, the happy in the room sat up from its seat, bowed down to Ben
and left the room, ashamed to have been there.
Ben looked at me
with his blind stare. He was grinning from ear to ear, a shadow
corrupting his face making him seem…
"Good to be back!" Ben
interrupted my thought, "Damn good! You happy there David ol'
boy?"
"No."
Ben looked at me still grinning. "Oh aint
you a little lover boy?"
I sighed deeply. "Please stop calling
me names…"
"Oh okay slick. I'll remember that chief. I'll
never again call you a nickname, ol' boy."
Ben laughed his
broken glass laugh, and continued. "Now, David, where exactly did I
leave off?"
"Er…" I racked my head in thought. It seemed
so long ago. "The infested terran… um… Oh yah, when JJ and Kris
died, by accident not even by the Zerg."
"Oh, yes. Alright
then, you ready to hear the rest of the tale of the amazing Ben?
That's what you call me right?"
I looked open mouthed at Ben.
My eyes seemed to pop out, and I gaped. Had I ever called him that
out loud? No… Lucky guess? Maybe. Maybe not.
"Alright, so,
anyway, here's what happened next. I can't remember if I already
said this but we went back to the 1-mile wide 1-mile long cave.
"So
Anyhoo, We were all completely brain dead. Ray McVries was outta
ideas and everyone else was just an idiot, even me!"
Ben smiled,
and I frowned back to him.
"Oh come on you Brown Frowny! Turn
the frown upside down!"
"No."
"Oh, go give yourself a
blow job… Okay, where was I… Oh right, brain dead. We-"
For
a second I cut him off from my mind. He knew I was frowning. How did
he know I was frowning if he was blind?
"David pay attention and
stop thinking about my blindness!" Ben hollered to me. It took me
three point 1 milliseconds to realize what was wrong with what he
just said.
"Ben you little grass smoking dickwad! What are
you?"
"Now that's not very nice to call me! I-"
"WHAT
ARE YOU?"
"You really wanna know?" Ben smiled. A smile so
horribly deep it scoured into my flesh with its coldness. "If you
really want to know, you better start listening."
"I'll
listen when you start telling."
"Well aren't you getting
fussy?"
"Ben, go eat my load. What are you?"
"You're
changing David. Ever since your break down, your changing."
"BEN
TELL ME!"
"Assertiveness, I like that in a man!" Ben laughed
so coldly this time, I felt like I was going to vomit. Something had
changed. I wasn't me. I was… Ben?
"Now David ol' boy, you
are not becoming me. Hahaha, You only WISH that!" Ben was laughing
uncontrollably now. Every time he spoke his laughter interrupted his
words. "You-hahaha-are so pathetic! David you need to-hahaha-start
paying more attention. Haven't you realized what I am yet? Don't
you know? Who can read your mind? Huh?"
A ghost. I didn't say
it but I didn't have to."Guess again buck-o!"
The second
answer I had was too horrible to imagine. Plus, it wasn't possible.
He wouldn't be here right now.
"Hahaha, your right, it isn't
possible, I can't be an infested terran. I'm not Zerg either you
know. And no, I'm not Protoss that's just silly."
"What
are you?"
"LISTEN TO ME! You will know! Just listen you little
shitter! L-I-S-S-E-N!"
"Its l-i-s-t-e-n, there's a silent
T…"
"Correct my spelling all you want you shithead, but you
have to listen to me, if you want to know anything!"
"Well
apparently we've spent too much time talking about this because
we're out of time!"
Ben looked up to the clock, then to
me.
"Ha," Ben sneered. "What did I tell you? You can't
stop my mind baby! I've still got five minutes!"
I looked
toward the clock. No, he was wrong. It was exactly 1:30. so he wasn't
always right…
"I AM always right stupid!" Ben laughed, "The
blackout you had the other day, you never fixed your clock dumb ass.
It's five minutes fast."
I sighed. Five more minutes.
"Yeah!
You bet there's five! Now you best start paying attention
dipshit!"
Ben cleared his throat and began.
"We were all
stuck in that 1-mile long 1-mile wide room. Nothing to do but sleep
and talk. Ray McVries the most sane of us, was slowly becoming the
least sane. He was talking to himself, like one of them freaky deaky
people in movies or in old peoples homes. He kept talking to this
imaginary guy named Phillip K. Cornette. I specifically remember that
name because he kept yelling at him all night, never shutting up.
He'd be yelling, 'PHILLIP K. CORNETTE GET OUT OF MY FUCKING FACE!
PHILLIP K. CORNETTE DON'T YOU GET ANY CLOSER! PHILLLLLLL!
PHILLLIIIPP! KAYYYYY!COOOOOORRRRNETTTTTEE!!!!' The faggot wouldn't
shut up. You know what I did one night when he was being quiet and
everyone was asleep?"
I didn't want to know… But I did. The
story called to me.
"I killed him. I killed my best goddamn
friend! MY BEST GODDAMN friend David! BEST! Can you believe that? I
took out my knife and spilled his blood all over the place. I placed
the knife in some other guys hands, and smothered blood on his hands.
I set him up, David. I set him up.
"We killed him for murder the
next day. I got away with murder. Just like I did when I killed your
guards. I got away with MURDER." Ben was almost laughing again.
"Murder baby! You can't even imagine the adrenaline. It was
almost like a 'hi'. You ever did any drugs?"
The question
was personal, but I couldn't keep anything from him if I
tried.
"Yes," I said, sighing. "I snorted cocaine when I was
14, until I was 16. I quit and never got it again. I discovered what
I wanted to be and here I am today. It was the addiction that got me,
not the 'hi'. I usually just got paranoid…"
"Heyy it was
just a question," Ben commented, "I didn't ask for your life
story.
"So two people were dead because of me. Eight men left,
and it was soon to be four. Because about two days later a pack of
seven Zerglings and one Hydralisk decided to pay us a visit. The
elimination of the Zerglings was easy enough. Our Gauss rifles sent
them to hell in a minute. (It took'em about a minute and a half to
get to us!)
"It was the Hydralisk who fucked us over. One
Hydralisk killed four men. Believe it? It was a bit more complicated
then that.
"You see what happened was when the Hydralisk got
close enough, we had just finished off the last Zergling. It didn't
have a single gun shot wound yet. We all began pumping lead into it.
It fired off two spikes, one heading toward some man named Fred, the
other toward some guy named Shay. Fred was struck in the chest, and
Shay got a full blast of spikes into his face. His nose exploded
sending blood all over us, and it ripped through the back of his
skull, almost decapitating him. His teeth were lain on the ground
near my feet, and his entire body was limp on the ground. Fred,
screaming in utter pain, was then struck again by a Hydralisk spike.
It went speeding straight into his gut, ripping him open. His
intestines fell out and he was bleeding like a mofo. He looked down
at his gory insides smoldering on the floor, and began screaming
bloody murder. As this happened another spike got loaded into a
fellow marine of mine. His name was Gerald Speckins. The spike got
pumped into his right leg. He screamed and fell, pulling the trigger
the whole time. The bullets went flying all over the place, and one
hit this guys chin. I believe his name was Marcus. His chin just
seemed to go flying off into the distance and he was left with no
lower jaw. He had quickly pulled out a pistol and loaded a pack of
lead into his brain. His brain squirted out all over Gerald and he
screamed even more.
"I finally got some sense into me and I
cocked my Gauss rifle. I took aim at the Hydralisk's head and sent
28 lead slugs straight into it's face. It's head rippled like a
small explosion and erupted in gore. The body fell limp and it's
acid blood began melting the rock beneath it. I looked over to the
screaming Marcus, and the bedazzled Fred.
"The other three men
who were not hurt, Kyle, Devin, And Shawn I believe were their names,
were all dumbfounded at the scene in front of us. One Hydralisk had
just caused mass chaos. I raised my Gauss rifle at Fred's head and
pulled the trigger. No one accused me of murder this time. It was
common decency. He had no chance, and he was in immense pain. Another
shot was heard behind me and I looked over. Marcus had shot himself
as well. He knew he had no chance and was going to bleed to death. We
were all reasonable honorable men, and knew when it was our
time.
"Just like I know I'm 1 minute late to leave."
I
spun my head out of the trance from within his story and looked at
the clock. It read 1:36. Five minutes fast. He was 1 minute late to
leave.
"I'll keep it on tomorrow David. I promise. No more
games, just story."
"Deal."
-Day 9-
I woke up
from my slumber in the middle of the night. The darkness swarmed
around me unmercifully, spinning, spinning… I had a nightmare. At
least, I think I did. I wasn't sure, it was blurry. I believe what
I saw was Ben and I… I was in his story, taking the place of Fred,
the man with his intestines falling out.
Was it really a dream, or
was it something else?
I had felt the pain, or at least I think I
did. It was so painful and so agonizing that I couldn't breath. I
was screaming to much, and all the air was going outward in a spiral.
I saw Ben raise his gun to me, and fire. I saw the bullet strike my
forehead, and then I woke up.
Was there some sort of message in
this dream?
Most likely.
Yawning, I sat up from my soft patient
couch. I grabbed some FaBreeze from one of my shelves and sprayed the
couch with it a few times. I yawned again, then stretched, and went
towards my desk, deep in thought.
What did Ben mean, no games? Was
he playing games with me… or my head?
Did he give me that dream
on purpose?
Ben popped his head in my room around 1:00,
grinning as always, that evil grin.
"Hello Ben." I said,
taking a gulp from my coffee. Ben looked at my drink
uncomfortably.
"Don't I get a drink?" He asked, looking
gloomily.
"No."
"Well why not, you meany bo beany!" Ben
laughed. Why did he keep using baby talk…?
"I said no
Ben."
"Fine, be that way! No games today remember? Yes, you do
remember, I can sense it. Anyhoo, lets get on shall we-"
"I
have a question first Ben."
"What?"
I paused momentarily.
This question had been sulking at the back of my mind for the last
three days. "Ben, if you are this… this… what ever you are, why
is it, that on dat 1 and 3 you had those breakdowns?"
Ben smiled
to me and looked casual. "It was all act. You see I had to gain
your trust first David. And to do so, I had to be the crazy scared
guy. It worked did it not? Day 2 was my favorite. Reading your mind
when you thought I was friendly was soooo funny!"
It was all an
act.
"Yep, all an act!" Ben laughed again, his sharp broken
glass laugh. "So, do you want me to continue or not, David ol'
boy?"
"Continue, as always."
"Yah," Ben said, his
smile slowly going down. "You've always loved my tale. The
amazing tale of the amazing Ben! Bet that sounds like a fable, eh?"
I
nodded.
"Okay then, I left off when the Hydralisk attacked us,
and the guy suicided… Okay. So the four of us, I believe I said
that there names were Kyle, Devin, and Shawn, were just completely
flabbergasted. Wouldn't you be? We had just lost four men to one
single Hydralisk. That was a fuck-up we couldn't ever allow
again!
"We weren't quite sure how it had happened. I guess
when the guys got hit, the ones shooting stopped to see what all the
screaming was about. I did. I fucked up. Of course now, I'm almost
happy I did, because if I didn't… well a few things wouldn't
have happened that did."
Once again, the story went on, and
continued. The amazing tale, of the amazing Ben. The story that
pulled me onward like a roller coaster and then fell way down, but
would rise almost immediately and take me by surprise. That's what
this story was… a roller coaster.
"Anyway we stayed there for…
Jesus, one week, two? We eventually ran out of water and that guy
Shawn went for some water. He came back the next day, with blood all
down his back, and he was limping. His battle armor was almost gone.
We asked what happened and the guy responded '2 Zerglings caught be
off guard from behind. One hit my leg, I pumped some lead into its
head, the other got my back. I whirled around in a semi circle and it
went flying off me into one of them s
harp rocks. It got stuck and was screaming the whole
time I was on my way back. I wouldn't be surprised of its still
screamin'!' But, he was alive. We didn't lose another man until
another week went by.
"It was Devin. He shot himself. In the
middle of a conversation on how tog et out, he just plucked out his
pistol and let a load into his skull. The poor bastard gave up, and
lemme tell you Dave, I was close to givin' too, after that
performance.
"But I didn't. I juss kept on goin down the road
to hell, as they say. I tell ya, it WAS a road to hell. The entire
time I kept feeling like the Devil was gonna hop on up and take a
bite off my dick. Ah, maybe that wasn't the best way to put it… I
dunno, mah words are gettin all crazy lately."Anyhoo, the three of
us, Kyle, Shawn and I, were getting crazy. Just like old Ray McVries.
Kyle was talking to himself an awful lot and Shawn was just getting
all nasty and pussy from his wound, and his mental and physical
capacities were low. And me, I think I was the most sane. In fact,
now that I think of it, I was running off adrenaline. I was like an
adrenaline druggy. I think it was the only thing keeping me
sane!"
"You're sane?" I asked, sarcastically. Ben looked
at me with such force I looked away.
"You best shut up boy."
Ben said, staring coldly at me. I've always wondered how he can
manage that cold look of pure hatred. I couldn't do it if I tried.
"Now, shall I continue?"
"Yes."
"Alright. Now this is
when things start getting… well… I don't know exactly how to
put it. But the story changes now. A lot.
"You see, the next
time a pack of Zerglings came we just sat there. The little shitters
screamed their shitty little heads off, but we just sat there. There
was about 12 or so of them, and I just wasn't up for it. 'Take me
now and get it the fuck over with!' I had said to them, as they
neared me. Didn't do no good. They didn't kill any of us. They
stopped right in front of us. They like just halted and stared
confused at us. I think it was that they did not sense fear and they
were wondering how… no, why… we weren't afraid. That's when
something horrible happened. That's when the story gets…
graphic.
"You see out from one of the holes came one of them air
Zerg lady things… Um, I believe we call'em Queens. Just floating
above us. this thing looked like someone had just taken one giant
shit and thrown it into the air, I tell you what. It had these little
arm things over its mouth, like that brain bug in that movie… um…
Star Ship Troopers, you know that classic?"
"Yah."
"Well
that's what it looked like. Sept it was flying. The first thing
this flying piece of shit did was spit something at Kyle. It looked
like a flying cow patty I tell you what. It went soaring over our
heads straight at Kyle. Kyle didn't even notice it until it hit
him. This little black thing hit his stomach with such force, he
nearly ripped in half.
"Around near his belly button, his
stomach ripped open and his insides could be seen from where I was
standing. I almost threw up. The little black thing ripped in half as
well, into these two little bugs. They were tiny. They started eating
Kyle's insides and this time I did vomit. By the time I put my head
back up, Kyle was almost gone and the little things were almost as
big as a Zergling. I think they're called Broodlings.
"Anyhoo,
those Broodlings went over to Shawn and instead of eating him like I
thought they would, the grabbed him by the legs and dragged him off.
One Broodling let go and ran over to me. He grabbed my left leg and
pulled me along too. I started to struggle and a Zergling ran over to
me. He stuck his goddamn purple scythe right into my damn stomach and
I blacked out."
When Ben said that he lifted up his shirt a bit
to show the scar. There was more than one scar. There were about
three.
"I woke up about an hour later, for all I know it was 3
years later though, but I think it was an hour, and I was laying on
something gross and purple. It felt like slime. There were all these
little black stripes along the purple, and it seemed to be alive. The
ground was alive. It was like a bunch of suction cups pulling me
down. I was stuck."
I stared at Ben wide-eyed. Was this story
about to go where I thought it was?
"Oh it is…" Ben smiled.
"and next to me lay Shawn. They were doing him first."
I
nearly fell over in my seat. My mind almost exploded with thoughts of
what happened next. Was Ben a Zerg? Ben Zergling Broulteski? Was-
"No
silly, I told you I'm not a Zerg! And I'm not infested. But
however I can tell you that time is up. See you tomorrow."
Day
ten later…
-Day 10-
-The Climax-
"Nice to see
you again." Ben said, entering through my door. I looked at him,
with bloodshot eyes. I hadn't gotten any sleep that night, all
night the image of Ben was a reckon to deal with. All night, I had
seen his face, staring so coldly at me, I felt like it was winter and
I was rolling in the snow, naked.
"I wish I could say the same…"
I mumbled. Ben looked at me and sneered.
"So, I see I kept
myself into your thoughts."
"Shut up. I'm sick of you
reading my mind. Stop it."
"I'm not reading your mind…
That, like I said, will come into the story later. For now you must
listen."
"I'm sick of listening Ben."
"Well maybe you
should listen harder. Shouldn't it be clear to you? Think of the
way you've acted, the way you've responded. Ponder about the
other nine days we've seen one another. Try and think, David.
Think. It should be clearing your thoughts now. The idea of truth. Do
you know the truth?"
I knew no truth.
"Oh, well you should.
And soon enough, you will. Now, you just have to listen."
I
looked into Ben's cold eyes. The eyes of something evil.
"I'm
not as evil as I may seem. I'm trying to help you. All you need to
do is understand. You need to know."
"Tell me and I will
know!" I shouted. "I'm sick of these mind games! I'm FUCKING
sick of it Ben! Tell me now, explain what happened!"
"Shut up!
SHUT UP! Let me finish my story… the story that seemingly calls to
you. Haven't you ever wondered why? Why it calls to you? Shouldn't
it be clear to you by now? I surely thought it would."
"Just
finish the story…" I said, ending the mind games. "Please, just
finish the story."
"Fine," Ben sneered. "Be that way.
You'll know soon enough."
There was a moment of pause before
Ben picked up his story where he had left off.
"Now," He
began, "we - as in Shawn and I - were both laid down on the Zerg
floor, preferably a sunken colony. There were little things jotting
from the purple slime that were being used almost like rope, to rap
around our ankles, wrists, and neck. I could turn my head around
enough to see Shawn, and the gore that followed was so disturbingly
gory, that I almost looked away. There were two Zerglings and a
Queen, that was now laying on the ground. The Zerglings were tearing
him up, his stomach unbuckled like a belt.
"His stomach skin lay
off too the side, and he was so scared that his nerves must have not
been responding right because he wasn't screaming at all-"
My
thoughts interrupted him. It seemed like I already knew what was
going to happen next, word by word.
"Then," I said
interrupting him. A new thought appearing in my mind. A new
beginning. Something wasn't right. "The queen opened its mouth
and let out this greenish goo. The goo eased in through his stomach,
and was soon rummaging inside of him, disintegrating his insides.
Soon enough he looked just like the Infested Terran I had seen."
I?
What made me say I?
"Now you're getting it!" Ben laughed
heartily. "It's all coming back to you now huh?"Oh my God. Was
I there? Am I Ben… or… what was going on?
"Ahk," Ben
sighed. "I guess you're not getting it. Still not pumping
anything in the ol' noggin huh?"
I continued what I had been
saying. "Only Jacob's eyes were still Terran…" Jacob? Why did
I say Jacob?
"Good! Good! It IS coming back!" Ben laughed. It
was raining outside, I could see the lightning. The rain pounded on
the roof, suddenly audible. It sounded like a drum beat. 'Thump
bump bump bump, thump bump bump bump'
"And then Jacob sat up…
he walked toward the exit of the room, as the rope from the creep
colony subsided…" Didn't Ben say it was a Sunken colony? "Jacob
walked off. His eyes pleading his body not to move foreword, yet his
legs bumped the floor with its roughness. He exited from my
view…"
My?
"Then they walked toward me…"
Me?
"I
began screaming… pleading with them to please not…"
I?
"The
Zerglings began to rip my skin off… and then… A light. A bright
light and a heavy explosion."
Oh my God, I thought. What was
going on? Ben was smiling horribly. The lighting flashed again and
the light flickered out as a huge roar of thunder slapped my face.
The shadows around me danced as I continued. More thunder slapped the
air, and more lightning lit the sky. "Fire rapidly began burning my
legs… It stopped and that's when I realized a firebat was
standing above me, and a Medic was too…"
I stopped, pausing
momentarily, as another clap of thunder blistered through the
air.
"That's all. And then I remember this… I remember
everything fading away… Gone. A new life."
Ben laughed again,
and a shadow went over his face.
"So do you understand now,
David?"
"Is my name really David?"
"I'm not sure,
Fred. You tell me."
I looked at him. Those cold eyes… He was
still not telling me something. "What aren't you telling
me?"
"What I am perhaps? I'm not sure."
"You're an
infested Terran! I know you are! That was your story was it
not?"
"No, Fred. It was yours."
"WHAT?" The room
splashed another form of light from the outside, and the room began
spinning.
"Think about it Fred. Your whole life. Do you even
remember anything?" Ben's voice was somewhere, but I couldn't
see him… I couldn't see anything, it was all black. "Think
about it Fred!"
"MY NAME'S DAVID!" I screamed. I was
getting dizzy now, and all I could see was blackness.
"Fred your
crazy. Crazy little Fred. Haha! No Fred, your not David, and I'm
not Ben!"
"Then who are you?"
"No one. I'm not real
Fred. Think about it. When you retained the story you spoke as 'I'
not 'you'."
"So I'm you?"
"What did I just say?
I'm not real. I'm just sort of… an unconscious state of mind.
Something sent out here to make sure you knew. You know. Think about
it Fred. Did you really act like a Psychiatrist. You never really
helped me did you? You just sat there commenting on my story. A story
that pulled you in for reasons you could not comprehend. And now you
know, its your story Fred. Just yours."
"Then WHAT ARE
YOU?"
"NOTHING!"
I heard thunder but saw no lightning as
for some reason I could no longer see."The affects of the Zerglings
ripping you open," Ben began, "Caused nerve damages that affected
your eyes. You're blind Fred. You have to realize who you really
are."
"IM DAVID!"
"Stop it right now Fred!" Ben
screamed. "All that you think you know is not real. I'm not real!
David Frazier does not exist! He's something you're mind decided
to put in."
What was he talking about?
"And now, Fred!"
Ben laughed/screamed. He was about to finish everything. The entire
thing. "Fred, it's time for you to wake up!"
"What?"
"Wake
up Fred! WAKE UP!"
I felt dizzy again, and my eyes burned with
pain, as if they were lit on fire.
"WAKE UP!"
I am
awake!
"WAKE UP!"
What do you mean?
"WAKE THE HELL
UP!"
The medic gently pushed me inside the
room. I didn't know what kind of room… I couldn't see, but I
had to move my head around, I had to know what was going on. I was
just preparing for something to jump me.
I could fell the calmness
of the man. I could sense him sitting on some sort of desk.
"Please,"
He said to me, "Your Fred right? Fred Broulteski?"
I nodded
gently and quickly sat down.
