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An Angel Fallen
By Slumber

I loved too early
I loved too much
I gave my heart
For a moment's touch.

I crossed the road
Far too soon
The others lived with the sun
And I, a step ahead with the moon.

I knew my heart
At a tender age
And life, it flew past
Page after frantic page.

And as one shall love
One shall be broken
An exception I was not
An angel fallen.

Alas, had I been older
And if only I had been wise
But nay, I was young, naive
Could not see through clouded eyes.

And I, who once had loved
Whose emotions took control
Fell into the pit, could not get out
Life had finally taken its toll.

Love is a peril
A danger to unfold
Be wary, they say, and take caution
Yet to a child this remained untold.

And now, see what happens
When one is broken at once
In too deep, my heart now devoid
Of what could have been a thousand happy suns.

For I have been an ignorant child
And stepped into something I did not understand
My love was pure, this world was not
And I did not know how to pretend.

Now, I see, the wound was deep
And yes, I see that it has healed
But now my heart, why is it scarred
Forever to be sealed.

Because once again I had no clue
I did not know what to do
My heart, it bled; the pain won't stop
I was alone, my eyes won't dry; I was in woe.

And then somehow it seemed
My sense, my mind, my rationale, they came to life
They worked quite fast, the pain left at last
And away they took my strife.

While it was healing I did not know
That the pain would be gone for good
My body and I, we became immune
My heart, dead and cold and crude.

That was before, when I was young
And I had been badly bruised
I'm older now, I'm smarter now
Or so I may have mused.

I watch myself, I have grown strong
A smile forever on my face
For I have learned the lesson a day early
So I have quickened my own pace.

A warm smile, sincere and true
That is as far as appearances go
The walls have been built, they have become tough
And no one else but I, and only I, know...

That behind these walls of happy smiles
Are empty voids of nothingness
That while they believe I am sincere
I feign only fake happiness.

This smile, this cheer, this perk
Are nothing more than veils
And they conceal, behind these walls
A face, blank, cold, and pale.

Yes, I loved too early
It truly was too much
I had no idea how much it hurt
How costly was a simple touch.

And I was young and I was dumb
How to face the pain I did not know
Something took over and I let it be
And soon the memories I let go.

I know now how the cycle goes
Everything starting anew like the rising sun
And I am prepared to live and smile and pretend to love
For now, a heart, I have none.

::blink:: Deux, where did this come from?

Deux: No great importance. I just felt like it.

Eheh... maybe you can help me with my other, *planned* fics now?

Deux: Sorry, gotta run, Noir needs me. ::flits off::

Damn muses. Ah well, C&C, people? This one is... I dunno, on Duo, me thinks. Or on anyone else who's like that. The love I'm referring to is Sr Helen and Fr Maxwell and Solo... you know, how Duo lost them so early and he was so vulnerable and he had loved them too much and at a very young age he learned the hard lessons of loving and his subconscious had built walls and masks and all...

Duo: ::blinks:: Oi, am I really like that?

Duh, Duo, who else would it be? You're sooo misunderstood... :: glomps Duo:: Everyone thinks you're just smiles and jokes and whatnots but you're not. You go far deeper than that.

Duo: Eep! Whatever you say.

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