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Chapter 1

It's going to be just a sweat watching you die
watching you die
watching you die
watching you die
die
die
die
'BANG'

Ziva woke up all sweaty, she looked around but she found was an empty room.
She knew it was right what she did, She saved a good man's life, then why did it feel so wrong?
OK he was her brother bit still he wasn't the man she thought she knew, the little boy she grew up with wasn't the guy she shot, that man was evil and like he said he was a monster.

She got out of bed and walked to the kitchen, took a mug and filled it with water.
she walked back to her room with the mug in her hand. She took a sip before she placed it on her nightstand, and stepped in bed.

She couldn't sleep, every time she closed her eyes she saw herself pulling the trigger and then the heard the sound of the gunfire. She looked at her alarm it said 0230, she turned around and closed her eyes finally she fell a sleep.

"Ziva..? Ziva..!"a little girl said "Ziva where are you?" still no answer
"Ziva it's not funny!" the little girl said ever harder.

Ziva could see her little sister from her spot where she was hiding, and she could hear her calling her name. But why would she answer it? It wouldn't be fun.
"Ziva be nice to you're little sister and go to her" said a voice from behind her. She recognized it and turned around.
"you're back!"Ziva squealed when she jumped in the man's arms. "it's good to see you to Ziva" the man said with a smile on his face.

"Ziva sssht be quite otherwise Tali will find you and you'll be the one who has to find us next." A boy not much older than Ziva said but then he saw who was standing next to Ziva and he jumped in his arms as well. "Ari my boy it's good to see you again" the man said again

"ah! Got you guys!" Tali said "Come here my little girl!" the man said
"Daddy!!" Tali squealed and she jumped into his arms just like Ziva and Ari did.

Eli David smiled when his daughter hugged him tightly. "you're not going away now are you?" Ziva asked her dad. "not that I know of big girl. Now what about we play hide and seek again I'll be the one who has to find you guys!" Eli said "Yeah!" Ari, Ziva and Tali said
"but first lets go and find mommy first okay?" Eli said
"she is inside" Ari said "let's go and surprise her!"Ziva said right after Ari.
'BANG'

Ziva woke up. Again sweaty and in the same room she woke up before that night and the nights before. It was the first time in years she had this dream. Actually the dream had gone away since she shot Ari, and then the moment of her pulling the trigger came to haunt her instead of the moment she lost her mom.

She looked again at her alarm 0350. She decided to get out of bed and go for a run. But before she was out of her bed, She felt a sharp pain and everything went black
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Ziva opened her eyes but quickly closed them again because of the pain she got from the bright light. She tried to remember why she had this sharp pain in her head. But she couldn't. She slowly stood up and sat down on the bed. She grabbed her cell phone from the nightstand and called her speed dial.

"Very special agent Anthony DiNozzo" said the voice on the other side of the phone
"Tony?" was al she could say
"Ziva? Where are you? Why aren't you at you're desk. This is a very bad time to have a hangover."
"need help" was all she could say before everything went black again.
"Ziva? ZIVA? Damn"

Gibbs looked up and so did McGee.
"McGee gear up!" Tony said. McGee looked confused and looked at Gibbs who already grabbed his gear. And hurried into the elevator before it closed.
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Tony kicked in the door of Ziva's apartment after calling and receiving no answerHe run down the hall to were he knew the bedroom was, he figured that she probably will be there.
Gibbs followed and stormed to the bedroom as well.

McGee stood a little uncomfortable in the door way he has been in Ziva's apartment before but this felt different. She knew that he was coming, she probably hide all her weapons and hide everything she didn't want him to find. But now she didn't know he was coming and it just felt wrong.
"McGee are you coming?"Gibbs voice said. And McGee woke up out of his trance, and nodded. He took a deep breath and stepped in. But before he could enter the hallway towards the bedroom he heard a strange noise coming from the kitchen and he pulled out his gun. And walked towards the kitchen. When he came closer he heard gunshots and the breaking of glass, he ran in and just saw someone climbing out of the jumping out of the window and climbing of the emergency stairs.

When Gibbs walked into the kitchen he saw McGee hanging out of the window. He put his hand on McGee's shoulder and told him to wait outside for an ambulance.

McGee didn't move "Ambulance? is she okay?"
"yeah McGee she will be fine is she wakes up now go outside!"
McGee still didn't move "wakes up?"
"yeah McGee wakes up do I stutter or something" and he smacked him at the back of his head
"why did you do that you never slapped me before?" McGee asked confused.
"because Elf-Lord, Ziva is unconscious and you're standing here asking stupid questions while you should be outside waiting for an ambulance!"

With that Gibbs left the kitchen to return to Tony and Ziva

McGee quickly run out of the apartment and went outside.

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