a/n: this does not follow exactly along the lines of the series. i dont own naruto's characters or plots. somethings might be off, i apologize in advanced. please enjoy.
I always thought I liked Sasuke Uchiha; with his slick ebony hair, those dark obsidian eyes, the creamy milky skin, the cold uncaring attitude. He seemed like the perfect man. More like the perfect crush. He had no heart it seemed, and if he did, it would be tainted with the memories of the Uchiha massacre. Therefore, there would be no hope in having him for a loving caring husband, only a depressed lifeless puppet. If I ended up with him by a miraculous sequence of events, boasting of my marriage to an authentic Uchiha would be my sole amenity. What would be the point in that? Sure, I could show up that priggish Ino, but that would only result in cursory satisfaction. It was not worth it. However, if anyone ever asked whom I liked, Sasuke would be my reply. In fact, to ensure no one saw through the lie, I would exaggerate my "love" for him in almost everyway possible. Of course, I loved him, but only as a teammate, a friend. So why then, did I create the lie? I did it to keep them from wondering whom I truly loved.
It started about a few months ago. I was trudging back home after the long day of rigorous "training". The truth is, Kakashi sensei had arrived at our training spot four hours past the designated time. It was to be expected though. It was his lateness, along with the mask, that first called my attention. What was he hiding? What was the cause of his tardiness? He was just so abstruse and mysterious. He captured my imagination. He gained my adoration. It was not unlike a crush on a teacher. His looks also added to the equation; his lean muscular body, his wild bed head (did he use gel or something?), his fashion sense, the way he wore his headband to the side. He was so cool. In addition, I was always attracted to taller men. The mask also intrigued me. What did his face look like and why did he cover it? Based on what I could see, he had very handsome features, so why the mask? Ergo, as you can see, it was a simple innocent crush on my sensei…if it had stopped there.
The weeks went on and day by day, I became even more infatuated with Kakashi sensei, but I shrugged it off. After all, I thought of it as a crush. I began gradually noticing more of the little things. For instance, his eyes, or eye so to speak. No, it wasn't as beautiful as Sasuke's and Naruto's eyes, but there was something about it. I observed how it would normally droop slightly at the outer edge, giving off an uncaring, bored sort of vibe, much like Sasuke's. Au contraire, he would also show signs of caring occasionally. When he smiled, his eye would squint slightly and turn into a rainbow shape. That's how I could tell he was smiling. When he was angry or sad he wore a solemn, grave face. He seemed so very faraway in that state of mind. Nonetheless, I admired him thoroughly. He seemed like the perfect man.
More time passed and my emotions grew; especially when he started teasing me more. I don't understand why, but that made me like him all the better. He was different. I loved when he complimented me on my chakra control, or when he used me as an example for Naruto and Sasuke. I had a feeling he liked me best of all. I hope I was right. I felt my cheeks grow warm in his presence repeatedly and tried not to show it too much. I would have fantasies of us together, where age and ranking did not matter, my dream world. He inspired me and I grew to love his lazy casual attitude. It made me want him more, knowing that he didn't want me. Slowly I began to realize my insignificant crush had evolved to something on a much higher level. In my mind, it seemed so wrong; but in my heart, it felt so right. I couldn't let this get out. It would severely damage my reputation. So I kept it a secret. I played the part of a Sasuke obsessed fan girl, while keeping my love for Kakashi swept under the rug. No one would find out. Consequently, I would have to live a lie.
so what do you think? please review. im still not done with it yet so tell me if i should continue. also could you give it a grade for me? thank you for reading, i look forward to hearing your reply.