Whoo! This one's for Olette, because she's just adorable. Oh, and… Well, yeah. Just, yeah…

Disclaimer: I own nothing.

Warnings: AU. Curse-words. OOCness and a few certain someones being a bitch.

Summary: xxxYou're losing everything, but to be honest, you never really had it to begin with. "Because it isn't always easy to be sunshine."xxx

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Going, Going… Gone.

Once upon a time, there was a day that I thought I had everything. A perfect boyfriend, a perfect best friend, a perfect town, a perfect school, a perfect life. Everything was going so-so well. It was my first year of high school and I thought I had it figured out. Then I met her.

Kairi. She turned my life upside down. Soon, Hayner, Naminé and even Pence were hanging around her instead of me. My best friends ditched me… She already had Riku and Sora, so why the hell would she need my friends!? I mean, I used to think she was my friend, too, but I guess that was a lie like all the rest of it.

Soon it got to the point where only Roxas and Demyx were hanging out with me. Eventually, though, that stopped too. It was almost like I had stopped moving. Like I was waiting for something, and everyone just kept on ahead. I kept trying to talk to them but they would just ignore me. So now she had not only stolen my best friends, but my boyfriend too. Then I had made the mistake of telling myself that life couldn't get any worse.

It did. Demyx finally told me once, after days of meaningless chatter, something I never thought he'd say.

"You're losing everything, Olette. Absolutely everything but yourself. It's just that, it seems that as of late you've finally started breaking…"

It isn't always easy to be sunshine, Demyx.

"But I guess, if we're both honest with each other, you never really had it all to begin with, did you?"

Now Demyx is starting to leave, too! I'm losing everything I never had and I'm not talking about my mind. Because I think I might've had that all along and I was just ignoring it. I'm fighting to get it all "back," but the world is so opinionated and full of labels and social classes, that everyone further up the ladder laughs at you and rubs salt in your wounds. And they don't stop until they've decided that you're bleeding to death, whether they can see it or not. So it's all just useless fighting, trying to get back things that were never actually mine in the first place.

It was all in my head, so now I'll just try to blend in with the crowd. I'll try to fade away. And when I finally do, and they finally notice and "care," it'll be too late. I'll just be too far away.

Stupid fucking cunt. I hope she's happy.

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Once again, I don't hate Kairi. It's just that, y'know, it seems like she could be somewhat of a bitch. So I totally made her out to be one. And there you have it.

Oh, and it was just changes in spelling, to have you know.

Review. Give me constructive criticism. Give me something. Okay?

-Miss ''Rissa.