Turn the Page

Disclaimer: I dont own any of the characters... Eric Kripke does :(

Author's note: Hi. I just wanna say This is indeed one of my first fanfics. So please leave comments and reviews. Enjoy :)

Prolouge

Sam looked at his older brother with pain and regret in his eyes. He couldnt take the pain of the feel of Dean's nose crunch under his fist. He may not have control over his body but he felt, saw, and heard everything. It killed him inside to watch Dean not fight back.

"Sam, it's ok. It's ok. I'm here, I'm here. I'm not gonna leave you. I'm not gonna leave you." He heard Dean say as he was beating him to a pulp. As he went to go punch him again he saw a reflection. And then saw the little green army man he had stuck in the ash tray in the back seat as a child and all his memories flodded in at him. The last memory that he saw before he was able to fight Lucifur off was him and his older brother hugging. That was the day that he knew Dean tried to be the best he can be for him. It killed him to know he will never see him again. Finaly pushing Lucifur out of the way he gasped for air. He looked at Dean, who was sitting there -all bloody from where Lucifur was beating on him-on the floor unable to move and hated himself because even though it wasnt him, it was Lucifur, he still beat Dean up.

"It's ok Dean. It's gonna be ok." Fighting back tears. He tried to reassure himeself and Dean that everything was gonna be ok even though he knew where he was going. "I got him." Opening the Cage he looked at his brother one last time and went to jump. But Michael tried to grab him to stop him so he just took his arm and they both fell.

Chapter 1

Gasping for breath, Dean sprinted up from the nightmare he just had. He had been staying with Lisa since Sam died. Keeping his promise to have his "apple pie life". He had been having nightmares about Sammy and what happened at Stull Cemetary about a year ago.

"Honey what's wrong." Lisa said looking at Dean with that normal look of concern in her eyes that she had plastered on her face lately. "Another nightmare?" Lifting his chin she looked into his hazel green eyes that she loved so much. She wanted to just stay there staring in them but he has been acting weird and pushing her away.

"Yeah, I'm just gonna go take a shower. Clear my mind, and then maybe hit the garage or something." He said shurgging of a dissaponted and concerned Lisa. He has never wanted to hurt her but he couldnt take this apple pie life anymore. He wished with all his heart he had his baby brother back. He needed to be around people who knows his pain. Being with Lisa and Ben was a good idea at first but then he sarted to have the nightmares and Lisa would try to help but she didnt understand. She tried as much as she can to understand and help as much as she can but it would always make things escalate. Grabbing a towel off the chair next to the bed, he heard Lisa start to cry. He wanted to help but he couldnt right now he had to much on his mind. As he went to go back to her to see what was wrong when his phone rang. "Hello? Bobby?" He said answering his phone. When he heard Bobby's voice sent a wave of relief through him. When he heard the tone in Bobby's voice he got worried. "Bobby what's wrong?"

"Something has happened Dean. I cant explain what though. You have to see it to belive it. I know it's alot to ask of you boy but I really need your help and fast." Bobby said with a mixture of fear, saddness, anger, and pain in his voice.

"I'll be right there where are you?" Dean said walking over to the closet grabbing a pair of pants and a his shirts.

"Just meet me at my house."Bobby said in a panicy voice. Dean never heard Bobby like this so he knows it must be something bad. "I'll call you if anything else happens just hurry boy." Bobby said hanging up the phone.

"What's wrong who was that?" Lisa said wiping her eyes and getting up to see where Dean was leaving to.

"It was Bobby. Lisa I have to go ok." He looked at her with sarrow and pain in his eyes. He never liked seeing her upset but he had to help Bobby. He grabbed her and embraced her into a big hug and kissed her on the top of her head. "I'll try and not be gone to long and call you." He said letting go to see the pain in her eyes one last time.

"Ok, Dean if you want to be near the people you love and understand so much than go. I'm not much of a help anymore. Your always upset about something or thinking or have nightmares and it kills me to have to stand here, not being able to help in anyway." She said beginning to cry. She never wanted to see him go. God knows she didnt want to see him go but it was the best for both of them. "Like they say when you love something, let it go." She said walking into the bathroom leaving him standing there knowing that was it for them.

Dean grabbed his coat, keys, and the gun he keeps under the bed and left. Walking to the garage he was thinking about how right Lisa was. He did want to go and be with people he loved and who understood his pain so Bobby was the person to go to. Since Sammy was gone his life had been really hard for the both of them. When he got into the garage he lifted the tarp to unveil his beatuiful '67 four door black Chevy Impala. "God I missed you" He said to no one but his car with a smile on his face. Turning on the ignition Metallica's song "Turn the Page" was on. Putting his baby in gear Dean drove off and didnt even look back.