Chapter 1

Kaoru's POV

It started when Hikaru begun to like a commoner, and proved his openness in boy to boy love. I made up my mind that my brother was really weak that he even gave in to someone like a guy named, damn, Tamaki. Pft, of course it wasn't okay for me to let him just wake up every morning having those eye bags due to texting all night.

And one more thing, I didn't like the idea that they usually talk on the phone like a couple having a night out in a motel. Okay, I'm not really over reacting, am I? But I'm just concerned to my brother's health. Not that I should be more aware that they are actually in relationship. Yeah, I don't care! I'm not jealous at all, and I don't know why.

I opened the book I just borrowed from Renge. These past few days, I concentrated much in reading as my past time. It's really unusual for my type to read this kinda book but, I'm just so bored. Since Hikaru had to go out on a date with Tono after classes.

I kept myself silent until my phone vibrated between my thighs that made me jump off the bed. Hikaru sent me a message. "Bro, I'll be coming home late tonight. Take care," he said. I sighed.

"Always," I said turning the pages of the book.

Then my phone vibrated in my fist. I almost dropped it. Haruhi was calling.

"Hello?" I answered.

"Hey Kaoru, can you get out of your room and open your damn gate? Coz I've been here for more than half an hour," she said angrily.

"Aren't there any security guards or maids?" I asked questionably.

"Ah, if there was, then I'd already be inside," she answered sarcastically.

"Okay, I'll be there in a minute," I said gentlemanly.

I ended the call and went down to look for maids and at the same time open the gate for Haruhi. Still, I wondered why there wasn't any single guard or maid inside. Maybe they were just busy.

I went outside but there was already a guard opening the gate. Ah! My effort. And then she rushed to me, carrying those heavy books. Ah, like why she is here with those block-like books?

"What?" I asked.

"Is that the nicest thing to say to greet a girl, carrying these thick books?" she said again sarcastically.

"Ah, sorry. Let me help you little missy," I said nicely.

I carried out the heavy books- oh wait, the heaviest books on earth till we reach my room- well my room with my brother. I dropped it on the study table. I offered Haruhi a seat.

"Why are you here with these kinds of alien things?" I asked.

She rolled her eyes. "We have to study, right?" she answered.

My eyes grew big as I heard her answer. Like what exactly were we supposed to do? Study? She must be kidding. "HUH?" I said confusingly. A big question mark was painted on my face.

"Your brother called up. He said you needed someone to teach you math. So I volunteered myself to help you. Besides, you wouldn't mind if I were your tutor, right?" she said.

And my confusion faded. But I didn't tell Hikaru I needed a private tutor? Ah, there's something fishy about this. "He called up to tell you I need someone to help me in math," I repeated.

She nodded. "Yeah."

I sighed, and leaned on the wall. "Tch, I didn't tell him anything about needing someone as tutor. And I didn't need a tutor. Maybe he just said that to cover up."

"Cover up what?" she asked confusingly.

I looked at her earnestly. "You see, I know you are aware that he is committed to Tamaki. And since then he had no time for me anymore. Maybe he finds time, but still it isn't enough. He covers up his lost time for me by making up some things like this. Like this, exactly. Telling you I needed a tutor but actually he wants to say I need someone to talk to. And I hate it when he does that. Like I can't go on my own," I said emotionally.

Haruhi was quite shocked to what I said. She remained silent for a while. She looked at me with the same expression I have. "Do you think he forgets you?" she asked. I looked away. Of course I think about it all the time. Though I know he doesn't forget me exactly. But the more that I think about him not forgetting me; the more that it appears in my mind that he already forgot me.

I shook my head. I lied.

"Then why do you hate it when he sends someone for you to talk to?" she asked. That was it.

"Coz if he really cares, he should be the one to be doing this with me," I said, still not looking.

Haruhi turned my body so that I'd face her. But I looked below. "What?" I asked.

"You know what, you've changed. You're not the usual Kaoru who agrees in every decision Hikaru makes. You're actually asking for reasons now. Congratulations," she said smilingly.

I smiled a bit, showing gratitude. Yeah, I'm actually asking for reasons now! Reasons why he has to give me someone else to converse if he can do it himself! "Yeah, I noticed," I agreed.

"Well, so you still want me to be your tutor?" she asked with a smile.

I looked at her and I felt smiling back. "Do you want to be?" I asked.

She nodded in excitement. She really wants to help. And that's so thoughtful. We talked a lot about other things beside the issue about me changing or the one with Hikaru. I enjoyed her company. I didn't need anyone that time but, she was already there with me. And I'm pretty much sure I wouldn't be this happy if it wasn't because of her.

Late 9 o'clock PM, she decided to go home. I told the driver to take her to her address safely.

"Kaoru, remember I'll always be here for you," she bid good bye.

I smiled and waved my hand. So there is still someone out there making me feel great. And that is so making me feel relaxed. I went back to my room when I heard a car hornying outside the gate.

Hikaru is home.