A/N Okay, so this is my first official fanfic. By that I mean I gave up on the rest BUT I AM FINISHING THIS ONE. I promise. Special thanks to SorrowNoMore for letting me write this "expansion" of the story "Welcome to My Life". I loved it, it's a songfic, so check it out? The first chapter's going to be like an introduction…I basically re-worded what SorrowNoMore said, I kept a few of her pieces, they are in quotes…yeah…I tried not to plagiarize…let's see how it goes…Reviews are appreciated…Anything you want to hate on? Bring it on XD I'm trying to be a better writer. Thanks!

It had been weeks since he was "done" with Drake. He was also the popular kid now. He was the one to get the girls-well he would, if he wasn't dating Mindy. Drake had given up on insulting Mindy. He had given up on a lot of things. Drake's life was falling apart. Numbness was conquering Drake for at least a week. Nobody noticed, nobody seemed to care. Josh was so much happier in life. He was getting along with Helen-he even beat her at tennis. His grades were now higher than Mindy's for once. Drake wouldn't get in the way anymore. It wasn't even possible, all Drake did was listen to depressing music all of the time.

He didn't go on dates anymore. The once flirtatious Drake Parker was now a single, unwanted, depressed human that no longer even cared about his appearance. Long sleeves to cover the cuts he thought would help him cope. He even gave up on combing his hair. Even trying to write more music barely helped him cope with the depression. He felt out of place. Alone. Lost. Everyday he had to fight temptation to leave Belleview. Every time, he just felt like he would just do something stupid. Just like everyone expected him to.

He was smart, if anything, he could graduate in high honors-if he cared. He saw no point in applying himself. When Megan is your sister or Josh is your brother, everyone expects you to be this genius like them. No, Drake suspected everyone just saw him as the drop-out with good music. Any song he'd have written would just seem like another song written by him. Not seeing it for what he was hoping for-an escape.

Day by day, Drake was falling deeper into the black hole of depression. His band was all he felt like he had, but they didn't seem to like him anymore. He would just the members harder so he could prove to himself that he could do better-be good at something.

He just lost hope.

He remembered going through this before. He got over it-eventually. Last time never got as bad as this, though. "Drake was hurt, lost and drowning in a sea of depression. He had been here before, when his Dad had walked out on them. His mom had sent Drake to a shrink, and believed in the end that he had made it home in one piece. She had no idea he was still shipwrecked on an island, and now his supplies were dwindling. Josh had appeared in his life then, like a life boat. Before he got to shore, Josh had given up on Drake, and he had tried to swim after Josh, not wanting to let him go. As a result Drake was wet, cold, and trapped in the dark waters." (SorrowNoMore, I liked the metaphor too much to get rid of :D I'll post a link to the story at the end of the chapter…)

It had started again; Drake was cutting again. Josh's words were the new knife to slice his skin. Last time was so long ago-almost seven years. He promised he wouldn't go back, but old habits are eventually going to come back. So here they were, knocking on the doorsteps of his mind.

His mind was now engraved with hurtful memories off what Josh said to him. He was trying to get help from anyone at this point. He was just too scared to admit it. They would just see him as selfish-desperate for attention. What else was new?

A/N I know it wasn't very different from the original piece, which can be found here: .net/s/7264440/1/Welcome_To_My_Life

A special thanks to SorrowNoMore.

Also, I think I mentioned before that the rest of the story will be actual stories. I hope to post the next chapter soon. I am working on another piece for the Drake and Josh archives, so that will be up soon. It's pretty dark so I might post it under 'M'...Reviews please?