We're sat in my house after we found out what my dad was really like. You're saying everything they're supposed to, like they do in movies, but right now you couldn't be annoying me more.

I'm in a rubbish mood from finding out my dad killed himself, not died from a heart attack. Usually Gerry cheers me up, he's the man I love and is so sweet, he never fails to put me first. Never before has he seen me like this though; I'm a mess. He's tried the whole distraction thing, he's tried the sweet comforting thing and now he's trying the talking things out thing.

"Come on Sandra, talk to me." He's trying to make me speak as I've been silently crying since we came in. "He loved you more than anything, if I could change things I would. I'd do anything to make you happy, to see your gorgeous smile."

"Yeah but that just it, you can't change a thing." I say before I run upstairs and lock myself in the bathroom and I find myself breaking down even further.

"Sandra? Come out baby."

"I need quiet to think."

"Well come out and I'll hold you whole you think. I need to stay with you, I want to help."

"Yeah but nothing you can do or say can change what's happened or make me forget."

"I don't want you to forget, I don't want to change what's happened, what I want it to take your mind off it. Come out honey." How could I not when he talks to me like that and so now I'm I'm his arms, sitting on the landing floor, sobbing into his chest. I can feel him gently striking my head and kissing it every so often. "Come on baby, lets get you to bed."

"Can't we stay here?" I've stopped crying and I'm still a mess but right now I'm comfy here in his arms. I've lifted my head off his chest and I've reached up to kiss his lips and with one kiss he can make all the bad feelings go away and that's what I need just now, not for him to sweet talk but it wouldn't change a thing.

"I love you Sandra, whatever is thrown our way we'll fight it together. You'll never be alone and I'll do everything in my power to make sure you never cry another tear."

"I love you too Gerry, just never leave me."

"I wouldn't dream of it."