Disclaimer: I don't own any Glee characters or the song "Wherever You Are"
Nine year old Kurt sat outside, thinking about his mother. He had just been beat up at school and called gay. He couldn't tell his dad. He could've told his mom. His mom wasn't there.
His father had already gone to bed. It was past midnight after all. But Kurt couldn't sleep. He was sitting on slightly wet grass in silk pajamas that were getting dirty and wet from the humidity. His arms were wrapped around his legs which were pulled up to his chest.
"Mom," He said aloud, looking up toward the sky as if she would suddenly appear there, "I'm gay, have you heard? I can't tell dad though. I'm afraid he'll hate me. But you wouldn't, would you? I don't know if you're up there, and I don't even know if you can hear me, or if you care. But if you do, you should know that I feel so alone right now. And I really need you."
The small boy dropped his head down and felt a tear stream down his cheek. "Why did you leave me Mom? Didn't you know that I would need you? How could you leave me?" The flow of tears was given over to sobs.
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In his room, Burt was awoken by a sound outside, one that he was sadly familiar with. He opened his window to listen to the tiny boy sitting outside.
"Elizabeth, if only you could come back for us." He whispered. He never disturbed his son. This was the boy's time with his mother and it was something he could never bring himself to interrupt him.
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"Mom, they beat me up today. There were five of them. They called me a homo and gay and another word that I haven't heard before. It started with an "f" and it hurt more than any of their punches." Kurt lifted up his shirt, revealing a series of bruises. "It really hurt, Mom, see?"
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Burt clenched his hands into fists at the sight of his son's wounds. He had claimed that they were from falling down the stairs.
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In his state of hopelessness, Kurt did the only thing that he knew to do. The one thing that would help the pain that tore at his chest. "I have a song for you, Mom, will you listen?"
"Come out moon
Come out wishing star
Come out
Come out
Wherever you are
I'm out here in the dark
All alone and wide awake
Come and find me
I'm empty and I'm cold
And my heart's about to break
Come and find me
I need you to come here and find me
Cause without you I'm totally lost
I've hung a wish on every star
It hasn't done much good so far
I can only dream of you
Wherever you are
I'll hear you laugh
I'll see you smile
I'll be with you just for a while
But when the morning comes
And the sun begins to rise
I will lose you
Because it's just a dream
When I open up my eyes
I will lose you
I use to believe in forever
But forever is too good to be true
I've hung a wish on every star
It hasn't done much good so far
I don't know what else to do
Except to try to dream of you
And wonder if you are dreaming too
Wherever you are
Wherever you are"
"I miss you, Mom, I really do."
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In his room, Burt joined in his son's tears. It seemed that their dreams were all the two of them had anymore.
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Kurt went back to bed and so did his father. They fell asleep at the same time and both dreamed of the woman they had lost.
AN: So, what do you think? Please review. This is something that was buzzing around in my head a long time before I actually wrote it.