I'm back, a lot sooner than expected. I've been trying to work on other things, but it appears I cliffhangered myself. Misu and Shingyouji would not let me work on my book without resolving their story first. So here's the first part of my new story.
This is a continuation of the my other story Trust Me. Things that happen in this story assume you've read it, just like it's assumed you've watched the movies.
Disclaimer: I don't own most of the characters in this story. Kago Haruka is mine, even though I don't really want to claim him and kind of hate him.
This story will contain Male on Male relationship with adult content later. It's assumed you wouldn't be here if you didn't already know that.
Shingyouji stood bare chested before the bathroom mirror. The necklace and ring hanging from his neck. His fingers wrapped around the ring and held it tightly. Misu's last gift to him before leaving for college. And while Shingyouji was now alone he held a piece of his Arata-san close to his heart everyday. The thought both saddened him and made him smile.
He slipped his school dress shirt on and carefully did each button, tucking his shirt into his pants. He wrapped the tie around his neck and twisted it into place. He left the bathroom and pulled his jacket out of his closet, quickly throwing it on. He smoothed the fabric down with his hands. He picked his school bag up off his bed and swung it over his shoulder. Lastly he slipped on his shoes. He stood before the bedroom door, physically ready, but not mentally ready for the first day of the last year of school.
He opened the door and stepped into the hallway. It was filled with the chaos of the first years and the calm of the third years, with the second years somewhere in between. With a group of third years Shingyouji headed for his first class. At lunch time he sat with his classmates trying not to think about everyone that he was missing. After lunch he headed back to class, his eyes glancing down the hallway to the executive room. A slight blush appeared as he thought of the last time he was in that room. He shook the memory away and hurried to class. At the end of the day he headed back to the dorm alone. With no Misu to visit he had a lot more alone time on his hands.
After an hour of studying Shingyouji closed his books and stretched. Time for dinner. He exited his room and found the hallway empty. He made his way quietly to the cafeteria and ate by himself. For the moment he was enjoying the peace. As he finished his meal he set his tray on the counter.
"Shingyouji?"
Shingyouji stopped. His heart skipped a beat.
"Mitsu?"
A cold chill ran through Shingyouji. He turned slowly.
"Kago-kun?"
"Mitsu? You call me Haruka. You know that."
"Kago-kun, what are you doing here?" Shingyouji stared at the young boy standing before him, wearing a Shidou uniform.
"This is a surprise, for you. I just started." Kago took a step closer to Shingyouji who took an involuntary step backwards right into the counter.
"You're a student here?" Shingyouji stared at the uniform, but he didn't want to believe it.
"Well you left so quickly, and I haven't seen you since you said goodbye. When your father told me you were going to school here I knew I had to come here to. I saw you when I came to take the tests, but I wanted it to be a surprise. You were with a bunch of other people then. Are they not here?"
Shingyouji slid sideways on the counter adding more distance between him and Kago.
"They graduated last year."
"Oh, then does that mean all your friends are gone? Ah well, I am here, so that's all you need."
Kago took another step closer. A large crowd of third years entered the cafeteria. Kago glanced away. Shingyouji took that opportunity to escape.
"I have to go Kago-kun, see you later." The crowd of third years parted for Shingyouji as he rushed through them. He heard Kago call out after him but he ignored it and kept moving. In the hallways he was careful not to run as to not catch any trouble on the first day, though he moved as quickly as possible back to his room. He slipped in and closed the door behind him. He slid down to the floor, his arms wrapped around his knees, his head leaning into his arms. He wouldn't cry, couldn't cry. He'd shed enough tears over Kago Haruka, but how was he going to survive going to school with him, alone.
The first week was a game of cat and mouse. Shingyouji did everything he could to avoid Kago. And those times he couldn't avoid him he tried to find other people to be around. Each time Kago would come uncomfortably close and Shingyouji would side step away.
Kago Haruka was from his home town, and at one time had been a childhood friend, his best friend. Though Kago was younger he and Shingyouji found they shared a lot of the same interests. As they grew older Kago's friendship changed. He would put his arm around Shingyouji's shoulder when they watched tv. Walking back from school he would grab Shingyouji's hand and hold it too tight. He would kick Shingyouji when he did something Kago didn't like. And each time Shingyouji cried out it was always in childhood good fun. Then the lying started.
It started with small silly things, like who took the balls out at lunch and left them outside. But then the lies turned bigger, getting Shingyouji into trouble that Kago always started. When Shingyouji finally realized what was happening and had enough, he tried to distance himself, but Kago wouldn't let him at first. Kago threatened that he would tell everyone stories about their alone time together and what Shingyouji had done to him. And being the younger and innocent looking, everyone always believed Kago. But that changed when Kago heard the news about Shingyouji's parents getting a divorce. Shingyouji never knew exactly why that stopped Kago, but as soon as the news was out the threats stopped. Kago went back to being his old self. No lying, no touching. Shingyouji was grateful, but he knew he could never trust Kago again. When he got into Shidou he left Kago behind, hoping that would forever be the end dealing with Kago's manipulations.
And now Kago was here, at Shidou, and Shingyouji was alone. Kago had followed him and was back to his tricks. He had not yet started lying, but Shingyouji was afraid it was a matter of time. Instead it was the touching. Grabbing his hand in the hallway, taking his arm during lunch, always standing too close. His classmates were giving him looks, whispering as he walked by. Every once in awhile he could hear the word Misu come from their lips. Each time it stung.
The necklace weighed heavily on his neck, but currently it offered his only support. Hidden from everyone's view he could feel the weight of the ring as it pressed against his chest. During that week he spoke to Misu once on the phone, but could not find the strength to talk about Kago. All he wanted to do was listen to Misu talk. To listen to his calm voice and find the support from there.
"Mitsu."
"Kago-kun."
"Mitsu, I wish you would call me Haruka again. Aren't we friends?" Kago grabbed Shingyouji's hand. Shingyouji tried to pull away, but Kago tightened his hold squeezing harder than he should. "Mitsu, please call me Haruka."
"Haruka."
Kago loosened his grip but not his hand. "Thank you Mitsu. So who is this Misu-san everyone keeps whispering about?"
Shingyouji froze. "What do you mean?"
"I keep hearing his name getting whispered nearly every time I get near you. Who was he?"
Shingyouji had to stop his hand from reaching for his necklace as he lied. "Nobody. I mean he was a student here, the student council president, but that's it. I don't know why you keep hearing his name."
"If you say so." Kago smiled. "See you later, Mitsu." Kago released Shingyouji's hand and went running off down the hallway.
Another few weeks and more of same. A daily game of hide and seek. Shingyouji took his meals at odd hours, returned to his room at different times and tried to walk with groups of people wherever he went. Some days he was successful at never seeing Kago at all, others he couldn't shake him.
After a month and a half at school Kago caught him alone.
"Mistu?
"Haruka?"
"You were dating Misu-san."
"I...Haruka that's personal."
"But we're friends. You can tell me everything. You were, weren't you?"
Shingyouji realized the lying would no longer work. He looked Kago straight in the eye. "Yes I am."
"Am?" Kago took a few steps back away from Shingyouji. "You are still seeing him?"
"Yes." Shingyouji raised his hand and put in on his chest, feeling the ring there, gathering strength from it. "I belong to him. I love him."
"I see." Kago took another step backwards. "I have to go."
Kago turned and walked away quickly, not looking back once. Shingyouji watched as he walked away. He held his hand against his chest a little longer, trying to find hope in Kago's reaction.
Over the next few weeks Shingyouji saw very little of Kago. He was keeping his distance and Shingyouji was truly hopeful that it was over with Kago's obsession. He returned to a normal routine. Eating dinner at a normal time with his classmates, no longer hiding in his room, walking the hallways without scanning each corner.
On one pleasant Sunday afternoon off, the announcement came over that he had a phone call.
"Shingyouji."
"Arata-san."
"You sound...happy."
"I am."
"Have you been studying well?"
"I have. Though it's hard without you. I don't know how you studied with all the other things you did. I just have classes and Kendo."
"It wasn't easy for me Shingyouji. I worked hard. As I know you are."
"I am trying. I feel like I am doing well in class, and I have more time to study this year."
"Shingyouji?"
"Yes Arata-san."
"Summer vacation is coming up in a month, and my mother has insisted that I invite you for a visit."
"Your mother? I would like to see her again, but.."
"And she would to see you again too, and she is insisting that it is time you meet my father."
"Your father?" Shingyouji's voice dropped low.
"Shingyouji, I need to see you again, soon."
"Do you think it will be alright? My visiting?"
"Shingyouji if my mother says so, it will be. She will make the arrangements for you. She is best at making travel plans. But don't tell my father that."
"I wouldn't say anything to your father."
"You might have to talk to my mother to make complete plans. Are you comfortable with that?"
"Yes Arata-san, I am."
"She will want you to stay with us at the house. Which means a lot of close contact with them."
"As long as you are there it will be alright."
"Yes Shingyouji, as I am staying there as well, you will be with me. My mother will set you up in the guest room."
"I understand Arata-san."
"I'm sorry Shingyouji, but I can not talk long today. I have a study group that is meeting soon. But I wanted to make sure I gave you my mother's invitation, and...to talk to you."
"I understand Arata-san."
"Good-bye Shingyouji. I will call again in a few days."
"Good-bye Arata-san."
Shingyouji hung up the phone and turned around. Kago stood a few feet away, watching him.
"Was that Misu-san?"
Shingyouji sighed.
"Yes Haruka." Shingyouji turned to walk away.
"You will be seeing him over the summer break?"
"Yes I am." Shingyouji took another step away.
"And you will be staying with his family?"
"Yes I am Haruka." Another step.
"Do they know about you two?"
Shingyouji stopped. A question he had not asked himself, didn't want to ask. And the one person he never wanted asking was the one to say it outloud.
"Good-bye Haruka." Shingyouji disappeared quickly around the hallway corner. His good mood evaporating with every step he took.
"See you soon Mitsu."
Two days later Kago cornered him inside the library. Shingyouji had been looking for a book and was caught alone and unaware.
"Mitsu, I am worried about you."
"Why are you worried about me Haruka?"
"I am worried about you and Misu-san."
"Please don't be." Shingyouji searched for a way to escape, but was blocked in by the wall of books and Kago.
"And what might happen to you two if his family found out about you."
Shingyouji meet Kago's eyes. The boy smiled wide, his teeth showing.
"Hakura, why…"
"He's staying with them right now, while he goes to college isn't he?"
"How do you know that?" Shingyouji stepped forward, his hands clenching into fists.
"One of my chores is to clean the Student Affairs Office. I was able to look at his records when I was alone." Kago dropped his smile and lowered his eyes in an effort to look innocent.
"You're not suppose to touch those."
"I know, but I did it for you. I just wanted to see who this Misu-san is. You're my friend after all and this is such a big secret for him to ask you to keep. But now I share the secret with Mitsu. I can help keep the secret from Misu Natsu and Misu Ryou."
Shingyouji felt the world slide out from beneath him. He backed into the bookshelf for support. Shingyouji's head ached, his heart pounded hard in his chest, his fingers stung from clenching them too tight. Kago reached out and wrapped his hand around one of Shingyouji's clenched fists. Shingyouji recoiled backwards, away from his touch.
"Don't be upset Mitsu, I know it hurts to keep such a big secret. But I am here to help. Let me help you."
Kago touched Shingyouji again, firmly pulling on his clenched fingers. Shingyouji slowly opened his hands. Kago wrapped his fingers between Shingyouji's and squeezed hard once and then relaxed.
"I will keep your secret Mitsu. Don't be afraid." Kago leaned in and kissed Shingyouji on the cheek. "Now smile as your friend is offering you support, and you should be happy."
Shingyouji smiled as small tears formed in his eyes. His head still hurt, his heart still pounded in his chest, and his fingers stung even more, but he smiled.