Lost people

I have no one. Nobody ever understands me. All are just trying to protect me all the time. No one lets me be me. The tears are falling. But I don't want to cry, not now. I want to shout my lungs out. I want respect and have justice. Now I am just standing here, letting the tears fall down to the hard surface. Failing holding back the tears that are heavy as stone I let my hand quickly rush up to my face to whip away the tears. She would probably come down any minute, but I hoped she wouldn't. She had to give me some space damn it.

It's cold, and the ground beneath me is slippery. It wouldn't matter if I would fall. But it would just be hell later when I got back home. My feet were desperately leading me away from the house. That horrible house. I hated it. Everything is gray or black. The sky, the earth, the trees. But I was a human being, of course I saw everything in tones of gray. At least compared to what it had been before. When this was our world. When we could be ourselves, not controlled by someone else. I feel both sad and happy when I think about the times when we were free. When there was color and sound. So many tones. So many colors. I want to smile, but now everything is dead. And I defiantly didn't feel like smiling right now. The world I live in is dead.

The wind is pulling in my hat and jacket, and attempt to hold on to my jacket, trying to keep it away from the wind. But my mittens makes it hard to take a good hold. Wind throws cold air at me. I keep my eyes shut for a while and try to relax, but it's cold. I can hear her voice inside me, mocking me. ''I said it was cold, why won't you listen to me? Come home now!'' I continued staring at the ground. I still don't get it. Why hadn't they put someone like them inside me? Gave me and my life away?

They had kept me alive. My parents, or my new parents. Two completely new souls in my parents' bodies. I could not help but love my parents, they gave me love and strength. But it was not a day that I wanted to get home to my own family. I missed them so. This new life felt so unreal and fake. It felt like iron inside a green, deep forest. It didn't belong there. I wanted my real family back. Especially Matty. Oh Matty. Why?

I have now reached the lake. During the summer it was full of colors, shades of blue and beautiful flowers. All blossoming into new, fascinating wonderful flowers. But it was winter now, and everything had lost its life. I am starting to think if I too had lost my life this winter. The whole area was frozen. It was so quiet.

I wouldn't have done it if I wasn't upset. I'd never gone out on the ice. I would never even think about it, it would just make her so worried and upset. My mom were always so overprotecting. But now I did not care about it. Screw if she would tell me how irresponsible I had been, going out on the ice. Not caring about her judging me anymore, I stepped out on the ice. I did it to prove something. Prove that I could take care of myself. Maybe I wasn't just doing this to prove her wrong… A small voice deep inside me told me I was doing this for myself also. I take a deep breath and exhale. I almost felt free. Encouraged, I started to walk further into the lake.

I don't get far until I see something I did not want to see. A big problem, as in a big blue hole in the ice. What were you supposed to do? Go back. The same way you came. Get the hell away from there. But… why was it there? It's not like a big hole just appears from nowhere. My feet was moving toward the hole, even though my brain is screaming to go the other way. I gasp for air when I notice there is something there. A big figure. I rush towards, desperately trying to help the person. It's a boy. He is older than me and my brain decides I have never met this guy ever before. I quickly fell to my knees, the ice scratching at them. But I ignore it. I tore off my gloves and took hold of him. It was hard trying to pull him up. He was heavy. All the water had got the upper hand and was sinking down his clothes. Eventually I got him up, I sit beside him as he lies on the ice with his head in my lap. His breath is in a weird rhythm, as if he doesn't know how to breathe. Me? I am gasping for air, trying to fill my lungs with as much air as possible.

With shaking hands I pull of my coat and place it over him. A small attempt trying to make his temperature go up. I shiver as I stretch out for my gloves and put them on, shaking, but I have to be strong. I felt amazed. What was he doing here? Why was he all alone? I have to take him home, warm him, give him dry clothes. He could take Mattys...

My thoughts were interrupted when he suddenly jumps as if he just got electrocuted and gasps for air. His eyes open, wide in shock. I pulled away from him in a quick movement. He seemed dangerous in a odd way. His ice-blue eyes looked up at me, studying me. I froze. He was human. There was no silver taking over his eyes. No scar by his neck. It was just him, a human. He didn't seem as relieved as I were. He stood up immediately, while his face was twisted in pain. I held out my hands to help him. But he was not looking at me. He started running.

''Wait, hold up! Please don't go, I am human,'' I shout out to him and take out after him. He did not turn around, but just kept on running. He ran in an arc, almost back towards the big hole.
''Look at me! Look into my eyes. I am just like you. Please don't go. I haven't met anyone like…'' Suddenly I am stung by something freezing cold, taking a hold around my body, pulling me down. Water was everywhere. I scream in shock. It's brutal. My body can't handle it. My life is over.

They had found me. After three years running, they had finally found me. Why had I been so stupid to steal bread from that parasite in the house by the woods? I should have guessed that they would report it to one of their seekers. Those seekers, I friggin hated them. I was in pain, but I continued running. The girl had almost catched up with me. But I was fast. I mean, of course I was. Three years on the run? You will need cardio and a hell lot of strength. But then I heard a scream. Do not turn around, do not turn around I said to myself. But I did it of course, because I am a jackass moron.

I couldn't see her anywhere. She had disappeared, down in the lake. Because of my god damn hole. Down in the crack of my mistake. Even though she was one of them, and that the rest of them would probably come at any time, I was with her in a second. She had saved me, I owed her this, and I hated being in debt to people. In one move I pulled her up, but she wasn't moving. Just shaking violently, thinking she was still in the water. Her eyes disappeared behind her eyelids. It was too cold for her. I thought about me. What about me? I was freezing too, but my survival instincts kept me going. She on the other hand, seemed to have given up.

I felt pain in every single nerve in my body. But I got the power to carry her up and take small steady steps towards land. On land, there was a small shed. I tried to get there, but my body couldn't take it. I looked down at the girl in my arms. Our eyes met. Her eyes were chocolate brown, melting my blue icy eyes. My throat felt sore and it was like a huge stone blocked me to say anything. Those brown warm eyes had no silver in them. It was just pure chocolate, flowing. Her eyes were beautiful.
''But you… You're.'' I didn't make it to say anything more. Everything went black and I felt my body hit against the cold ground.

''No!'' Her scream was horrible. I wanted to see her. She was human, just like me. But my eyes betrayed me. I couldn't find the strength to open them. I felt two hands take a steady grip on me, helping me up. My whole body was weak. My legs couldn't even stand, the was no balance. I started to fall again, but felt someone hold on to me, not letting me fall. Please, let me see her. Just one more time. The shaking took over my body and I couldn't concentrate. My clothes had almost turned into ice. Hers would probably soon be ice too. The wind didn't yell in my ears anymore, and I heard a loud bang behind me. I felt myself lying down on something soft, but a bit thorny. Where the hay? Most likely.

I couldn't feel her, but I knew she was close. I was shaking even more violently now. If I was going to die now, I just had to see her first. I forced up my eyelids. A girl, maybe three years younger than me were hanging over me. Finding her brown eyes, I felt myself feel calmer. No silver. My breathing is steadier now. Her blond wavy hair were surrounding us, making a wall around us. She looked desperate and miserable. Why? What makes you sad? I wanted to ask her. Her whole face was covered in freckles, which made her look even more beautiful. Her bangs fitted her heart formed face perfectly. She was adorable. But what mattered most to me was that she was a human being, and she was alive. Here with me.

''You will be o-okay,'' she gives out in a raspy whisper. I began to wonder how she had managed to stay so well. I wonder how she's been handling this last three years. Maybe she had someone with her? I had not been this close to someone in 3 years. She leaned back. Her eyes became crystal clear, she was about to cry. She smile, but inside, she is freaking out. I want calm her, but she has start shaking too now.
''I-I'll go get h-help.'' I grab her arm, hard.
''No. Stop, I won't make it.'' She sight and leans forward, our noses nearly touches.
''Stay with me.'' I nod, not finding words. Maybe it's because my whole body is protesting against the cold.

She sat up, shivered, and looked around, studying her surroundings. I didn't have the strength to sit up. All I saw were her and the ceiling above us. Standing up, she pulls down a big sailing from the wall. She lays it besides me and helps me up and starts to pull off my jacket. I see what she is doing and take off my shirt and my pants. She placed a cold hand on my neck. I shudder a little by her touch, but then relax. She is checking my pulse. Yup, still alive. She smiled at me. Then she lays the big old fabric over me and goes back to the wall. I heard a metallic sound and she comes to me again with a pot, which she fills with hay and places it beside me.

I was impressed by her job. She was shaking, but she manages to keep going. She walked up to the table in the room and rooted around, after a while I heard a sound of fire. The whole room lighted up. When the hay caught fire, she quickly took some newspaper placed it on the fire. Taking wood splinters from the old chair that stood in front of the table, she made the fire keep going. She was shaking terribly by now.

Moving quickly, as if knowing her body would soon give up, she pulled down another sail from the wall, placing it on me. Quickly she removed all her clothes but her underwear. I feel dizzy. She was looking around, trying to do more. But she couldn't, she was shaking too much. She was turning blue. I reached out my hand. She looks at me with a concerned face.

''N-No, its okey,'' I get out. She studies me, clearly uncomfortable and unsure what to do. Finally, she crawls under the big cloth. At first, it's a huge space between the two of us. I don't blame her, but her small whimpering… I seeked for her hand and grabbed it, squeezing it tight before pulling her towards me. When she laid beside me, it felt like I was laying beside a ice floe. I had gain some warmth, so I laid a arm around her. She jerk away, not looking at me. She gets hit by the cold air and quickly returns into my hold. I was laying there, trying to give her as much warmth as possible. But she just couldn't stop shaking. I pulled her so that she laying in top of me. She looked frightened and hesitated. I shake my head and place my arms around her and turns so I am above her. Her shaking hands are on my chest in seconds, making space between us.

''It's okay,'' I assured her. She takes a deep breath and look into my eyes. She stopped quivering after a while. My muscles would hold me up anymore, and my face lands beside her neck. She mumbles something, but I can't hear. I lean back and look into her eyes. Her hair fell all around her. It looked like she was flying and was floating in water. She tried to smile, but it was just a faint smile.
''You're the first human I have met in three years,'' she whispers. Her eyes fills with sorrow. We both feel like we don't need as much physical contact anymore, so we separate, but I find her hand again.

Her brown eyes had lost its warmth and she is now in tears, struggling with words.
''They… They took my families bodies. T-they kept my as h-human,'' her voice died out. I just stare at her face, shocked by what she has just told me.
''They what? But why? That is the most cruel…'' She shakes her head in despair and the tears continues to fall.
''I never had the courage to ask them. I have lived with them for three years now but I…'' I feel my body stiffened.
''You live with them!'' I snap, cutting her off. That is sick and seriously mental. Those parasites. I hated them. What the hell was their problem? Wanting to live in peace in my world, taking over others lifes. Bullshit. If they were going to take our world, why make us suffer and sit make us sit by and watch?

''That is barbaric. How could you even take it?'' I spit out, still pissed. I look down at her and meet her sad and frightened eyes. I close my eyes and take a deep breath, trying to steady myself.
''But they are my parents,'' she says in a small voice, afraid of me. I don't want her to be afraid of me, but my mind is overflowing right now. I can't take this. They have brainwashed this girl.
''They WERE your parents! Your real parents are not here anymore, don't you see? They are gone, just like everybody else.'' Her whole body moves away from me, terrified. Terrified for me or the truth? She avoids my eyes and she looks down at her hands, pulling away from mine.
''Who did they take from you?'' she whispers in a steady voice. She sounds so far away, yet, she is still so close.
''Everybody.''

Yes, I know its a massive pile of just words, but I felt like I could divide the text into two. I am to much of a amateur for that. I would not have turn out pretty.
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