Body and Mind…but Soul?
This was it. The morning after. What is going to happen? What is she going to say? What am I going to say? I think I am going to wait for her to speak first. Why is it so bright in here? Damn curtains. Why didn't I ever buy curtains?
Is it morning already? Why is it so bright in here? Why am I naked? Oh…right. I think I am going to stay here a few more minutes and pretend to sleep. One of us is bound to screw this up and I don't want it over yet.
I think she is waking up. Do I get up and use the bathroom like I desperately need to or do I wait? I don't want her to wake up alone, but I don't want her to wake up with pee all over the bed.
Hmmm…so much for sleeping in a little longer. He is fidgeting and it is making me seasick. He is acting just like he does when he has to wait for the…
"Go ahead Nick. Don't pee the bed. I will still be here when you get back."
I hope he wants me to be here. This is not going to be an easy conversation. Hopefully we won't screw it up. I am going to cross my fingers and my toes.
Whew…I feel much better now. I am going to peek in my room to see what she is doing. Look at that smile, that…satisfied smile on her face. I put it there. Me. Not too bad.
I haven't felt like this satisfied in some time. Replaying the evening in my mind makes the butterflies in my stomach start again. He is going to be back soon. What are we going to talk about?
Here it goes. I am just going to jump on the bed, cuddle up to her and pretend we already had this conversation. Then maybe we could continue on from last night. She is sitting up and looking at me. Doesn't look like there is any cuddling in the near future. My nerves are getting the best of me. I guess the conversation starts now. Why can't it wait until later?
"Good morning."
"Good morning. My aren't you formal today?"
He looks nervous. This isn't the best time for this.
"Why don't we relax a little bit. We have plenty of time to plan our future."
Oh my God! I was just kidding. He looks like he is going to run screaming from this bed.
What the hell was that? Our future? She knows I am a wreck about things like that. Wait. She knows that. She is joking around. Oh thank God. Okay, okay, calm down. You can do it. I am sure I looked like I was going to bolt out of here. You're doing good. Smile. Just a little smile. Okay, now laugh. Not a big laugh just a chuckle. Nailed it!
"Very funny. Why don't we get something to eat and we can talk in a little bit?"
Smooth Miller. Very smooth.
"Sounds like a plan." Whew.