Sunlight crept through the window of Bea's cell. The redhead groans at the disturbance. She wakes up and rubs the remainder of sleep out of her eyes it takes her a moment to come back to reality she's sleeping alone. She's been sleeping alone for the last two months since Allie was released, two long painful months since she had said goodbye to her love, it was hard. It was unbeatable. Her dreams were constantly filled with bright blue eyes and blonde hair. Allie had been released five years into her sentence, it had been a wonderful five years. Bea has returned to some normality well as normal as you could get in prison, now that she had given up the role of top dog. She felt so much lighter, far more less stressed and the tension she constantly felt in her shoulders was no longer existed.

Her focus was Allie. She didn't care about anything else than Allie although the Freak had tried to destroy them once and for all. But they had got through with Bea barely surviving with the skin of her teeth. She still had scars from that awful ordeal, they scattered on her toned abs and try as she might she knew she would never get rid of them permanently. letting Allie go on the day of her release had been the hardest thing Bea ever had to do in her life. Except apart from losing Debbie.

When Allie walked through those gates not looking back they said a very teary goodbye Bea told her that she loved her one last time. She had told Allie under no circumstances to visit her. She wanted Allie to enjoy her freedom from prison gates she didn't want to hold the blonde back from restarting her life. that was two months ago since then Bea had qradully cut contact with most of her now released friends including Franky,

although the tattooed brunette often asked about her through Bridget. But Bridget reassured Bea that she wasn't allowed to discuss her clients so there was nothing she could tell Franky even if Bridget was her girlfriend. Bea felt herself slipping into a depression although truthfully she felt it may have been the case for a while especially when she started self harming, when Allie had left.

She began to feel like she was being sucked into darkness, a black hole pulling her in further and despite her sessions with Bridget. Bea wasn't coping not really, she still had a shiv which she turned on herself, cutting her thighs again so it was easy to hide the cuts, most of the inmates had finally moved on from her lagging and they had let it go and she now lived in her own world. Nobody held it against her anymore, not after she had framed the freak for trying to kill her. Bea's plan had paid off and now The Freak was locked away in the mental institution where she belonged.

After Will had done the morning count Bea returned to her cell, new inmates had arrived to take the vacant cells left by her friends and none of them could really replace her family that she had.

She was tired, finding a reason to get up in the morning seemed to be getting harder and harder each day it just was not the same without Allie and her friends but she knew she had noone to blame but herself for the situation she found herself in. She had made her bed and now she had to lie in it.

She got her sketchbook out and began to draw, it was one of the many little things she enjoyed now that she got any sort of pleasure out of. She was beginning to sketch when her cell door opened and Kaz appeared at her cell door.

"Bea."

"Kaz, what do you want? " Bea asks

You weren't at breakfast you alright? " she asks.

"What do you think? " Bea shots back carrying on with her drawing.

"I know we haven't seen eye to eye in the past but I know you love Allie. We both do and " Kaz begins.

"Just spit it out Kaz." Bea says getting rather inpatient.

Allies worried about you" Kaz finally says

Well she shouldn't be. I'm fine. She should be enjoying her freedom she earned it she shouldn't be worrying about me and if that's all you've come here to tell me then please leave " Bea says.

Kaz senses she wants to be left alone. She wasn't going to interfere but the concern in her last phone call with Allie that the blonde felt when it came to Bea. Allie felt that something bad was going to happen and she couldn't shake the feeling. Kaz had tried to reassure Allie but nothing could convince her that Bea was alright.

Three hours later Bea finds herself in Bridgets office for her weekly session 'how are you Bea how are things? ' Bridget asks. "I'm okay. Things are getting better " Bea lies. You need tell to tell the pyschs something to get them off your back? And as much as Bea liked Bridget and thought she was good for Franky there was some things she would not let Bridget in on.

'Franky asked about you again the other day Bea but she wasn't just asking for herself she was asking for Allie too " Bridget says hoping Bea would talk a little more once Allie was mentioned but it didn't. Bea just groaned. "I cut them both off for a reason so they don't worry about me. " Bea says. "They care about you Bea. Both of them. Franky was hurt when you cut her off from visiting she just wants to know your okay. I am bound by confidentially so I'm not able to tell Franky anything as you very well known but she and Allie have become firm friends. " Bridget fills Bea in on the outside goings on..

The hour session flys by and Bea is escorted back to her cell. She's feeling more and more overwhelmed. She's losing hope, she finds herself slipping further she slouches down to the floor behind her cell door burying her head in her arms and cries. She remembers when Allie found her in this state it was the starting point of their relationship . Everywhere she looked she was reminded of the blonde and she couldn't take it anymore. It was too much.

"How is Smith doing? " Vera asks Bridget. Bridget had been filling Vera in, not too much information but she had alerted Vera to Bea 's present depression and that she had prescribed anti depressant medication. "Vera she's not in a good place if I answer truthfully." Bridget says speaking of her sessions with the redhead. "Do you think she'll benefit from a stay on the psych ward?" Vera asks. "I really couldn't say but I've seen many patients with depression and worked with many and it's a horrible disease to contend with. It's having an affect on her. I can say that for sure and her losing Allie hasn't helped matters. " Bridget says.

She felt Franky had a right to be concerned about Bea. It was clear by the dark circles under Bea's eyes that everything was having a strain on her. But Vera felt out of her depth to do something about it.

Meanwhile on the outside Allie was around Frankys place "Has Bridget said anything about Bea and how she's doing? " Allie asks the brunette

"Gidge can't talk about her bullshit about confidentiality or something I'm sorry Allie I've really tried she won't bulge. " Franky replies she was just as worried about Red like the blonde was.

"I'm worried about her Franky. Her mental state wasn't great before we got together and I just I just want to know she's alright" Allie sighs. It was a really long two months since she had been released and had found a friend in Franky. The brunette helping Allie get a roof over her head.

There was a turn in the lock of the front door and Bridget walked in placing her bag down on the couch. She walked into the kitchen. 'Allie. " Bridget says. "Bridget. " Allie replies. "Before you both ask you both I can't discuss clients or our I have met with Bea today. " Bridget says before turning her attention to Allie. "I'm sorry Allie. I've been told by Bea that she doesn't want you to ask about her anymore she wants you to focus on your release and building a life on the outside and as an answer to your question she told me to tell you that it's a shame that you love her " Bridget finishes.

"That's fucking bullshit she said that at the start of our relationship she's lying I know she loves me too. " Allie says. She remembers the first time Bea uttered those words how cold they were when she had declared them in the showers. She knew Bea. She knew Bea was lying so she would forget her. But she couldn't. She wouldn't forget Bea Smith because she was the love of Allie's life.

It had been many hours later and Allie was about to head home before she broke her curfew saying goodbye and goodnight to Franky and Bridget she left. Closing the door behind her Franky turned to Bridget "you know she's not doing great ether being apart from Red it's killing her surely there's something we can do. Surely there's a way to get Reds sentence reconsidered. " Franky sighs

"Franky whether you like it or not Bea did kill two people in cold blood " Bridget says. "Yeah but Red had lost her daughter. Jacs planned the whole thing. Noone really knows what went on between Red and Jacs in that cell for all we know Jacs could have stabbed herself and Red took the blame " Franky says. She's thought about it many times Bea would never talk about exactly what had happened between her and Jacs. And well Braydon had it coming when he took Red's daughter from her. If Franky was honest with herself she would have done the exact same if someone had killed her child. She would have wanted to avenge their death.

"It's getting late we can talk about this tomorrow " Bridget says. Franky nods and their about to go to bed when Bridgets phone rings. Seeing the caller ID flash up on screen "why's vinger tits calling you so late? " Franky says passing rhe phone to Bridget. "Franky what I told you about calling Vera that? " Bridget says rolling her eyes before answering the call

"Vera what can I do for you at this hour? " Bridget asks. /p

"Is Franky with you? What about Allie? " Vera asks/p

"Franky is yes. But Allie no has something happened to Bea? " Bridget asks. /p

"I'm at the hospital with Smith. " Vera says/p

"Is she okay? " Bridget asks/p

"We think Smith tried to take her own life. Will found her hanging in her cell it looks like she had been there a while. She's unconscious at the moment we don't know if she's going to regain consciousness. " Vera informs Bridget. /p

"Christ. Do you want me to the hospital to you?" Bridget asks. /p

"If you are sure. " Vera asks. "And Bridget you're not to tell Novak. " Vera adds, she knows Franky is friends with Allie. 'Right okay will do. I'll be there as soon as possible. " Bridget says and ends the call. Franky immediately suspects something is up because the colour has drained from Bridget 's face./p

"Gidge what is it? " Franky asks "is it something to do with Red?" Franky asks. Bridget doesn't answer. /p

"Gidge talk to me. You're worrying me what's happened?" Franky asks/p

You better sit down Franky " Bridget says. Franky sits down. /p

"Vera called Will found Bea hanging in her cell their not sure how long she was there but she's unconscious and at the hospital. " Bridget says./p

"Fuck. Allie was right. " Franky says. /p

"You're not to tell Allie. Vera has made that clear. I'm telling you because I have permission too but you are not to tell Allie OK. Their at the hospital I told her I'll be straight over. " Bridget says. "I'm coming with you no buts. " Franky says. She needs to see her friend. Bridget nods and they get dressed quietly and leave for the hospital in silence..