Alright since I have to start another story I decided to start with one I have been writing, Hearts A Mess. The plot is Nina and Fabian broke up after or really at gradutaion and it is three years later and she is still emotional about it and a little depressed. She is still in England and has stayed in contact with Amber, Mara, Jerome, Patrica, Eddie, and Alfie. She went to America to check on her gran, who is doing well and just flew back so this is at the airport! Hope you Enjoy! Ohhh almost forgot: I want to thank MiaAndOak for one being so nice and giving me advide on how to cope with losing my story and for also being a great person. Lov Ya gal! Ok ok, enough of me lets get to Hearts A Mess!

I think everyone`s heart is a mess. You can`t possible live your whole life according with your feelings... Many things can go wrong. Even if you don`t admit it, your heart`s a mess. Our heart.

Chapter 1: Coming Back

Nina

June 3rd, 2012 7:05 a.m.

Wow. Who knew being on a plane sixteen hours can make you more depressed about how good but terrible your life is. Hey, at least on the bright side my Gran is healthy and I have my 6 great and best mates with me here in Liverpool, Britain. I dragged my luggage with me out of the plane and prepared for Amber to come by in my Volvo S60 waiting for me. I, waiting by the automatic doors outside, felt the breezy wind making my wavy light brown hair tousle around my shoulders when I hear scuffling feet behind me. "Okay Nina maybe it is in your head and you have offically gone bonkers." I thought to myself, hoping that one day I won't need medication. But, once again I hear that weird scuffling noise and finally to see my entire group of friends behind me, grinning from ear to ear and yelling, 'SURPRISE!' so loud it made people turn around and give them weird looks. It took me a while but when it finally registers, I squealed, which is very unusual for me, and ran to my friends or most likely best friends, and gave them a group hug. "Oh. My. Gosh! What are you guys doing here? Weren't you supposed to meet me at my flat and then yell surprise so you wouldn't have strangers looking at you guys like weird gooses?" I said, smiling at Alfie, Amber, Eddie, Jerome, Mara, and Patricia. "We couldn't wait to see you!" Jerome and Eddie said simultaneously. They looked at each-other and then grinned knowingly. All I know it I felt my feet leave the cold, marble airport floor and being spun around, laughing hysterically. Once they each had their turns, the girls came up themselves and hugged me almost to the point where I couldn't breathe. Then here comes Alfie giving me an alien shirt that said 'Nina is and ALFIETASTIC ALIEN!' with my head on an alien and Alfie in the background giving me a thumbs up. I hugged him and took a breather. I looked at each one of my friends, knowing that they were truly here for me and apparently missed me. Even the boys missed me and they were open about it. That was when I started getting teary-eyed. "Guys you really didn't have to do this! I was only gone for three weeks and I used Skype with you guys like every day!" "Nins, you know we would miss you anyways. Especially me Nina I mean, you should know this by now. I have been your BBFF since the Anubis days." Amber said matter-of-factly flipping her long, golden blonde hair over her shoulder. I just smiled and hugged my friends once again.

June 3rd, 2012 10:30 p.m.

"Whoosh" I said, walking into my 3 bedroom house of flat, landing on my ever so old but comfy couch that was once my mother's. So after the airport scene we went to a cafe, British of the Keyes (A/N that is not a real cafe in Britain as far as I know he-he), and talked and ate and talked. The guys are like my brothers that I never had before. That is why the girls didn't get mad when they picked me up and said they missed me because they know that they will always be brothers to me no matter what. The girls and I are really the close ones and we talked to each-other about everything and when I say everything, I mean everything. I was happy until my thoughts trickled down to the one and only man who broke me and made my heart a mess. I swear I haven't been this depressed since my parent's death and I am still depressed about that! He broke up with me at graduation to go off with Joy the moment it was over. They didn't stay for the party. I didn't even know that they left until my friends who are with me today broke it down to me and sat there with my while my Osirian called Fabian and used every single swear word I know exist on them and while the others patted and soothed me while I cried and cried, letting everything out until I finally went to sleep. I prayed to God to let me forget him but I couldn't. I don't think I ever will. I felt my eyes sting and felt traitor tear roll down my rosy hue cheeks onto my olive-tan skinned neck, making a puddle on my couch. I sighed and got up to get my suitcase and go down the hallway to my room where I cry almost every night. I changed into my pj's and tugged at my tank to make it straight. I know, getting all preppy going to sleep! To maybe stop my tears I gripped my iPod Touch, the new one and played Hearts A Mess by Gotye

Pick apart

The pieces of your heart

And let me peer inside

Let me in

Where only your thoughts have been

Let me occupy your mind

As you do mine...

Your heart's a mess

You won't admit to it

It makes no sense

But I'm desperate to connect

And you, you can't live like this

You have lost

Too much love

To fear, doubt and distrust

(It's not enough)

You just threw away the key

To your heart

You don't get burned

('Cause nothing gets through)

It makes it easier

(Easier on you)

But that much more difficult for me

To make you see...

Love ain't fair

So there you are

My love

Your heart's a mess

You won't admit to it

It makes no sense

But I'm desperate to connect

And you, you can't live like this

Your heart's a mess

You won't admit to it

It makes no sense

But I'm desperate to connect

And you, you can't live like this

Love ain't safe

You won't get hurt if you stay chaste

So you can wait

But I don't wanna waste my love

That was when I went to sleep crying my eyes out while singing along to the lyrics which I can relate to so much it's not even funny. Oh and if haven't guessed that man I still don't understand to this day is Rutter. Yep. Fabian Rutter. He made my heart a mess. Terrible isn't it?

Wow. I am sorry if you get confused or something because this came out the tippity-top my head. I hope you guys like this because I was so frigging eager to put something up for you guys. Sorry but Please R and R ! Love ya and see ya till next time on Hearts A Mess! TTYL!

~AdrianKay~

Life is a journey not a mission