This is a songfic for the song self conclusion by the spill canvas.
Disclaimer: I do not own The spill canavs, or any of the twilight characters.
Fade in, start the scene
Enter beautiful girl
But things are not what they seem
As we stand at the edge of the world
"Excuse me, sir,
But I have plans to die tonight
Oh, and you are directly in my way
And I bet you're gonna say it's not right"
My reply:
"Excuse me, miss
But do you have the slightest clue
Of exactly what you just said to me
And exactly who you're talking to?"
She said, "I don't care, you don't even know me"
I said, "I know but I'd like to change that soon, hopefully"
Yeah, we all flirt with the tiniest notion
Of self conclusion in one simplified motion
You see the trick is that you're never supposed to act on it
No matter how unbearable this misery gets
"You make it sound so easy to be alive
But tell me, how am I supposed to seize this day
When everything inside me has died?"
My reply:
"Trust me, girl
I know your legs are pleading to leap
But I offer you this easy choice-
Instead of dying, living with me"
She said, "Are you crazy? You don't even know me."
I said, "I know, but I'd like to change that soon hopefully"
Yeah, we all flirt with the tiniest notion
Of self conclusion in one simplified motion
You see the trick is that you're never supposed to act on it
No matter how unbearable this misery gets
I would be lying if I said that things would never get rough
And all this cliche motivation, it could never be enough
I could stand here all night trying to convince you
But what good would that do?
My offer stands, and you must choose
"All right, you win, but I only give you one night
To prove yourself to be better than my attempt at flight
I swear to god if you hurt me I will leap
I will toss myself from these very cliffs
And you'll never see it coming"
"Settle, precious, I know what you're going through
Just ten minutes before you got here I was gonna jump too"
Yeah we all flirt with the tiniest notion
Of self conclusion in one simplified motion
You see the trick is that you're never supposed act on it
No matter how unbearable this misery gets
Im standing on the edge and looking at the rocks below. I take one last drink of the booze that I'm holding, and let the bottle crash under me. I was going to jump. Take my life and end this terrible nightmare.
I stepped closer to the edge, so that my toes were dangling over. As I looked down something was pulsing through my veins. It felt like fear, regret but at the same time, it felt like there was hope. Then it hit me fast and hard. I fell back against the hard ground. I opened my eyes… Still lying flat on the top of the cliff. There was someone lying next to me, so that's what hit me so hard.
"What the hell!" I screamed and pushed the idiot off of me.
"I'm sorry miss, it just looked like you were going to jump and by the smell of your breath, you've been drinking." he said and sat up, scooting us back further away from the edge.
"That was my plan! Until you got in my way! I just want to die... Please." I begged. I just wanted to die, just to escape this ongoing nightmare.
"Well, just talk to me for a minute. I won't watch you do this!" the man said with a very sincere look in his eyes.
"Fine" I said as I sat against one of the rocks and began to tell him about what was going on. How my cousin had recently been killed. My daddy was lying in a hospital bed fighting for his life. How my mom loves the pet more than she loves me. How my big brother turned to smoking and how my step- mom was losing a battle against MS. How my baby sister barely even talks to me anymore. When I was finished he said he understands, and that this isn't the way. Then something hit me, "Why are you here?" I asked staring into his blank eyes.
"Well I came up here to kill myself, to plunge right off this cliff. But your kind words and stories made me second guess."
"So you mean to tell me, that you really do understand, that I'm actually not alone? If so please take my hand." I held out my hand and much to my surprise he took it and clasped it tight.
"Won't you spend the night with me? I promise to protect you. Nothing will hurt you just please believe me" he looked serious
"Okay. I'll spend the night with you, but if you hurt me, I swear to god, I'll be back here and ill throw myself over the edge." I swore.
"Alright it's a deal." he said and led me down the mountain. "I'm never going to hurt you, I don't want to, nor do I plan on, cause I know where you've been to, just don't hurt me either"