Bones: Sweet Light (missed the moment)
by: jewel of athos
Title: Sweet Light, "The Chapin Sisters"
Author's Note: Well, here we are again. As per usual, I was deeply effected by the end of the latest Bones episode - the whole thing really - and as a result, i write awful fic for you, haha. really, though; what she was going through struck a chord in me, and this is what escaped from my crazy brain as soon as the episode was finished.
This is also my 100th fic to be posted here, and that was one of my goals of this year, to hit 100. I have big writing goals that way. I don't know how clear this actually turned out, but it felt right to mark the occasion.
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In life, we don't always know when we're coming up on a moment. Sometimes, the sights are so faint, that you miss them completely; and you miss your chance. Or sometimes they're there, but you ignore them anyways. You get so caught up in your own arrogance, in denial of what you're feeling, that something that could have been so beautiful passes us right by. Sometimes we watch it as it passes by.
I don't want to be like that. I don't want to live with regrets; I don't want to come to the end of my life and have nothing to show for it but work records and a lonely heart. I don't want to be lonely anymore. If there is love in my life, then I don't want to deny it. If there is anything good to be felt and experienced in this world, I want to feel it. I'm tired of being numb.
I missed my chance. After all of this time, all the opportunities and offers that I turned away without second thought, I'm not going to get another chance. It's almost funny - I spend so much time not even realizing what I want, and now that I know, it's impossible. And I feel pain instead of joy. This is not what I wanted.
...but I don't want to miss any more chances. If something else comes along - if by some miracle of something, I get another shot at this, I'm going to take it. And at the end of the day, it doesn't matter whether it's going to be right or not; because it isn't the end that's going to matter. It's the journey that I'm ready for. and if it ends for good, then so be it; but if it ends with love, then I don't want to miss it for the world.
I hope you understand, because i don't know if I'll ever be able to think this clearly again.
-Temperance Brennan
fin.
A/N: ...I don't know who this was supposed to be directed at; not sure if it's actually Booth she's telling these things, or if it's just a journal. But it had to be written. Reading back over it again, it's something that I connect very deeply with.
Cheers!