Spider Webs
What would cause a person so paranoid to not be prepared for the time when they come? When realities is staring you right in the eye and present life clouds the vision of the future month's away. I ask myself this question every day now! The loss of so many that could have been avoided. So of my own at the hands of the new top of the food chain, some of them at my own hands. All the blame is mine; I caused all those close to me to be lost. No matter what I do from now on or how many I save I wonder if it will ever make up for lack of foresight I showed at the very beginning.
All those years of reading, research and chat on the web. Talking about proper recourse and tactical gear. Safe zones and survival techniques. What did we focus on? That new 42-inch plasma screen in the living room. Which happens to now be mounted a top some damn rotting corpse head nearly 100 miles away. The PS3 the XBOX for my kids useless. Nice leather couch in the living room came in handy the first nights…barricade.
Thoughts got me no where. Two weeks not enough time to devise safety measures when months were provided from the first outbreak. Besides the months the aforementioned years of chatting on the Internet with all the PAW specialists. Some say I've helped build this island into what it is today, that may be true. At what cost, I'll never forgive myself my own transgressions against those I loved the most. The ones now gone, a memory.
I hold on now to the one remaining. Much older, stronger and prepared like he should have been at the beginning.
I've been working though how to tell this story for 2 years. Tears and pain…