Hide Yourself Away

A/N: I DO NOT OWN THE CHARACTERS OF HARRY POTTER.

Chapter One: Secrets Unraveled

We spend our whole lives trying to stop death…Eating, loving, inventing, praying, fighting, …killing. But what do we really know about death? Just that nobody comes back. There comes a time, a moment, when your mind outlives its desires, its obsessions, when your habits survive your dreams, and when your losses…maybe death is a gift, you wonder.

Harry, who was writing in his journal, put in some very memorable quotes he had heard from movies, books, plays, etc. The most recent one he had was from the movie called "The Life of David Gale" and he loved that quote.

As Ron came in, he saw Harry writing.

"Are you STILL writing in that journal?" Ron asked him feeling a bit annoyed.

"Yes…Is this a problem?"

"No, it's just that you do it all the time. It feels like you never tell me how you feel or what goes on inside your head anymore, Harry."

"Why do you insist on me explaining to you of my every emotion and feeling that I get? Why is it such a problem that maybe I like to have my own privacy? Has that ever crossed your mind before?" Harry was now getting impatient with Ron's stubborn ignorance.

"Whatever, mate. Do what you want, I don't care. Hermione was worried about you and asked if I could come and talk to you so I did. If you want to have secrets from your best friends, then I guess we weren't best friends to begin with."

Ron walked away leaving Harry to feel guilty about hiding his true feelings. Harry felt lonely, like he had nobody to talk to. Ron was confused as to what Harry wanted to do with his life. What would happen after Hogwarts? They would be on their own, living on their own in the real world. I guess that's never a thought that had crossed either of their minds.

An hour later, Hermione was in the library talking with Ginny, hoping she could talk to Harry ever since they became good friends.

"I'll try to, but if he didn't say anything to Ron, then what makes you think he'll tell me what he feels?" Ginny asked Hermione.

"I don't know, just try. He wont even consider talking to me even though he trusts me more than he trusts Ron."

"If he tells me anything, you'll be the first one to know, I promise." Ginny walked away and headed for Harry's dorm room. When she knocked, she didn't get an answer. The door was open a tiny bit and she decided to open it. She walked in and to her own surprise, she found Harry making out with the ONE person she never would have guessed…Draco Malfoy.

"Harry?" Ginny asked, sounding confused.

"GINNY! What are you doing in here?"

Harry stumbled to find his tie and glasses as he pushed Draco away. Draco, who had just turned around acting as if he was highly embarrassed and not noticing the two arguing.

"I came up to see if you were alright but now I can see that you most definitely are doing more better than I had assumed…Sorry if I interrupted anything…"

"Ginny, wait!" Harry yelled.

"Yes?"

"You can't just walk right in here and witness something that you don't fully understand. You could have knocked at least!"

"A knock would have been nice." Draco mumbled under his breath.

"I did knock! Nobody answered!"

"You should have knocked louder." Draco mumbled again.

"Oh shut up! I just want to know how long this has been going on for…That's ALL I want to know." Ginny was shocked, scared, hurt, and she felt lied to.

"It happened in my second year…We have to keep this between us. Please, Ginny, I'll do anything you want me to do." Harry begged but Ginny felt so betrayed that he didn't say anything that she just gave Harry a cold hard stare and walked out.

"Little bitch will go tell everyone! And I bet you that Ron will be the FIRST to know!" Draco screamed at his true love.

"I'm sorry Draco…" Harry said under his breath.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

"You know what it means. We can't keep doing this." Harry wasn't even looking at Draco anymore.

"I'm sorry, Draco. I really am sorry."

"It's Malfoy to you Potter."

And with that, Draco stormed out of his room not giving Harry a second glance. He felt tears welling up in his eyes but he fought them off.

"I never meant for it to be like this…" Harry wrote in his journal, "I never knew it would be this painful, nor have I ever experienced anything like it. The pain is terrible but at the same time, it's so amazing at how strong it can be. It's amazing but terrible. It's exquisite. I've never felt anything like it. I regret pushing him away and now he'll never forgive me. These few months are the last we have in Hogwarts and I really don't want to spend them arguing with my friends and my lover…Ex lover now actually."

Harry went downstairs and was nervous that he might see Hermione and Ron and he wasn't sure if Ginny had told them or not. He assumed that Ginny didn't keep her promise and as soon as he ran into the two of his friends, he said, "So I assume you already know?" Ron gave him a confused look but Hermione looked guilty as charged.

"Know what?" Ron asked.

"Don't act like you don't know! I'm sure you sister told you already, am I right?"

"Told me what?" Ron was incredibly confused, "What's Harry talking about?"

"Harry…it's alright. I understand how you feel. I feel the same way."

Now, Harry was the one confused.

"Wait…What? What do you mean?"

"Harry," Hermione started… "Ginny told me everything…I love you too"

"WHAT!" Both Ron and Harry shouted at the same time.

END OF CHAPTER ONE

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