Hello all, so the fluff bunnies have stepped out for a bit, n I thought I might as well add to the tension of tonight :) Enjoy!

P.S. plz Rnr! It makes my essay writing a little more bearable…

"If only I had just told her… I wouldn't be in this stupid fucking position…" I said to myself. Calleigh had gotten mad at me for not telling her about the whole "help Sharova" thing. I mean, after all he was my biological father and he helped me out when I was about to be deported.

I turned on the radio, hoping to find something to distract me…

I Think of You by Gregory Charles

Month of May yet the sky is gray it's just another day
Since you're gone away
And I think of you

It's all I ever think about…

All the rain would wash out the pain
And I thought in vain that joy would remain
When I think of you

No joy remained… well that's not true, I just couldn't remember the joyful parts...

Ohh...
Time goes by and I never forget
And I think of you
Friends would say I may always regret
When I think of you

I'm sure friends would say that… if they knew. They all knew I loved you more than life it's self, so why couldn't you see that my choice was for us… our future… for you….

Latter-day seems to fade away I see some children play
And I start to pray
Not to think of you

I thought we had a chance – still do. But do you? I thought sooner or later it'd be our kids running down the street, us in tow… Did you see that?

And now the rain plays a sad refrain on the windowpane
As I try in vain
Not to think of you

You love the rainstorms… always have, always will… All they are for me is a reminder of how I could have been the one sitting with you out on the porch while the rain poured down, snuggling with you beneath the blanket we had brought outside to keep us warm…

Ohh...
Time goes by and I never forget
And I think of you
Friends would say I may always regret
When I think of you

Now, I can't even share stolen kisses with you throughout the day, I can only imagine them…

A lovers walking hand in hand
Running as fast as they can
Remind me of you

The evening I had taken you to the beach, and we had run through the sand. I had picked you up and spun you around… it's only a faint memory now…

Those who believe that hearts can mend
And are together till the end
Remind me of you

I still pray that we can heal and mend, but really it's up to you…

Latter days now has gone away when it finds its way
Till the break of day
As I think of you

The feeling of waking up to an empty bed, you side cold and still made up…

Still the rain seems to cry in pain with that same refrain
As I try again
Not to think of you

If only you could see how much you mean to me. How everything I did was for you and our future…

Ohh...
Time goes by and I never forget (Never forget)
And I think of you
Friends would say (Would say) I may always regret (Never regret)
When I think of you (x2)

There's no denial, the tension between us, but even they don't know why…

A lovers walking hand in hand
Running as fast as they can
Remind me of you

I saw a couple walking down the street and almost burst into tears… why couldn't I just tell you, maybe then that would've been us…

Of those who truly can content
That their lover is their friend
Remind me of you

We were originally friends, I even shattered that….

I turned the radio off, not being able to stand the constant reminder. I snatched my jacket off the hook and ran out the door, knowing that if I didn't go after what I wanted and fought for it, you would slip through my fingers again.

So I lied… the fluff bunnies decided to make an appearance at the end… oh well…
PLZ RnR!!!!!!

Nabz