Ch1- I waited for you...today
My head fell back against my pillow as I started up at the ceiling with one earbud in my ear as the other hung somewhere near my shoulder. 'have you ever loved somebody so much you'd give an arm for, not the expression, No literally give an arm for' the lyrics poured from my mP3 player and into my head.
yes...I loved somebody so much I'd give an arm for him...more then that actually...I'd give my any and everything for one smile from his perfect pale lips. My eyes never ajusted to the darkness that settled around me...i've never liked the dark...it always scared me. Hikaru used to lay next to me.
My older brother...where are you now? My eye brows furrowed togeather...where is Hikaru now? That was a subject i tried hard to ignore...to avoid...all day long. I closed my eyes and whispered "happy new years"
About two months ago...two months ago...my life...changed
I leaned back against the criss crossed metal face of a fence as the sky darkend in color and rain drops fell to my pale skin. Hikaru was so late. He was usually lazy but he was so late. My golden eyes shifted to the dark sky as heavy rain fell continuously.
A van sped by splashing me as it drove stright into a puddle. Tamaki...Kyouya...even Honey sempai...they all said i had o much faith in the one i loved. Was it wrong to trust the one who said he loved me? Time passed. The sky grew darker...and darker...until it grew lighter and soon the sky was gray and the rain siezed.
Hikaru never showed. Tears rolled down my pale cheeks as i walked home, my clothes soaked with rain water. Mom was on the phone when i walked in. she quickly dropped it and pulled me close. "where's Hikaru" i whispered.
"Upstairs...what's going on dear?" her eyes were filled with worry and sadness. She must have been calling all over the place looking for me. No one knew where i was...or where i would be. Hikaru and I never told anyone about our secret dates. So no one knew.
I gave her a reassuring smile before walking up the stairs, careful not to slip. I pushed our bedroom door open. Hikaru lay asleep in our shared bed. His face was pale and beautiful as his long eyelashes cast shadows over his porcline cheeks. His lips were parted ever so slightly, just enough for each soft breathe he took could make its way silently back out.
He'd forgotten about me.
"Hikaru" I whispered softly. He turned a bit, this was normal in his sleep. Slowly i saunted across the room and lightly touched his shoulder. He didnt even stir...he was normally a heavy sleeper. I always thought this was cute. Only now...i wished he'd wake up. I gripped his shoulder a little tighter and gave him a firm shake. His honey colored orbs opened half way and I gave him a final shake.
His eyes opened the rest of the way and he started up at me. "Kaoru" he whispered.
"You ass" I whispered through tears and clenched teeth. He propped himself up on his elbows and stared at me "your soaked" he whispered. "Yeah" i raised my voice without wanting to.
"Kaoru" my twin said calmly. "You forgot about me" i said softly..."Kaoru...I didnt"
"Then you let me stand in the rain over night on purpose huh?" the tears had stained my cheeks by now and the rain hadnt washed them away. "You waited there over night" his eyes grew wide "Kaoru mom looked everywhere she was so scared"
"What about you my so called lover" i yelled this time "where were you?"
"W-with haruhi...it was storming and s-she was scared"
i had no more to say to him so i turned around and left. I walked right out the door.