BETRAYAL
small thing I came up with
Ita-chan's POV
I wonder if I meant nothing to you. Did you not want me? Maybe you threw me aside because I was dangerous, I was a hazard to your very existence. And as painful as that existence is, you still want it right? But you wanted me, because you couldn't have me. It was the danger that drew you in, excited you.
You left me for sasuke. He's pitiful. And in the back of your mind, you still dream of how I had touched you, how passionate we were. And yet you left me for him. Who was the one who first uttered the words of 'I love you'? Not me. It was you. And you had no idea how happy I was.
And I thought you loved me. I really thought you did. But it seems to me that I can't hold anything dear. I can't get close to anything. It only runs away. you betrayed me, in the worst way. You lied. And maybe, just maybe, if you hadn't said those words, I wouldn't want to kill you so much. Maybe if you hadn't lied, I'd have let you go freely.
What did you see in me, during our time together, that you got so afraid of? I don't hurt what I own. I control what I own, but I don't hurt it. And you were mine. Even with this demon in my heart I wouldn't have hurt you. So why did you leave? What was so fucking better about sasuke? He doesn't care. He doesn't care for that battered soul in your chest. That battered soul that gets less love than it needs. I was mending it, for you. Cause the look in your eyes, when I saw that broken soul, I was hurt.
What was so fucking better about sasuke?!! are you really that happy? You're not, I know. You're not happy at all. That fake smile is cracking, your losing your mask. It was perfect before wasn't it? It was perfect when you truly had things to smile about. When you were grateful. But you don't want it anymore do you? You don't want him. You still want me. So why did you leave? You wouldn't be afraid to approach in that secret place you know I'm waiting, if you hadn't made me mad. I would still be touching you like I used to.
What about him do you like more? Was it because he gave you that first taste? He gave you love, but, do I not have something more precious? I have your first real kiss, I have your first time, I have your first real love.
Did you doubt what I had felt? Did you think it wasn't true, because I wouldn't say it? Did you think I didn't feel anything? Dear little kitsune, I said nothing because I was afraid. How could I trust you with my real feelings? And apparently I truly couldn't.
There's a hole in my chest now. A hole that is slowly filling with hate for the love we shared, if I can call it that. That brief moment of happiness, aren't I supposed to cherish it? No. Because I should still have it. I hate you for taking it away.
And what's worse is. He doesn't make you happy. You don't love him. You don't care. What made you leave?! I could fix it! I'm always perfect, I could fix one crack! What about this demon made you run away? Maybe it was my acid. Burned and scarred.
I hope he was worth it. Because after this... never again. Never ever again.
Hate is nothing, compared to betrayal.
OWARI!
It's itanaru by the way. And implied sasunaru. Did this in half an hour or so. Hope you likkie! RXR ONEGAI!