Chapter 1
Lucas voiceover:
Do you sometimes find yourself thinking.
Thinking about hope and despair, happiness and sadness, love and hate, life and death. They are exact opposites. It seems paradox to put them so close together
But then one day the seemingly impossible happens. Hope turns into despair,happiness into sadness, love into hate and life into death. One moment, one event and your world turns upside down. Then you wonder how things so distinctly different can be so close to one another.
You finally realise how fragile the things that you hold dear in your life really are.
And in this moment you can either fight or fall into the Darkness.
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There he sat leaning against the wall. All alone by himself. Tears were running down his cheeks. He had been sitting and crying for a long time now. He didn't know how long he had already been there. He didn't care either. It didn't matter to him. Right now nothing really mattered. All that did matter right now was his pain. His pain and his anger.
„How could you do this to me? How could you just leave me?" He screamed.
He heard a voice in his mind answering. „Yea how could she leave you. Oh wait. Yes, it was your fault. She is gone because of you."
„But but I didn't mean for this to happen." He stammered as guilt added to his grief.
The mean voice answered again „Of course you didn't mean for it to happen. You never mean to put the people around you into these situations that you cause."
He heard the voice laughing and mocking him.
„You know for someone who believes that he is bright you are really stupid. You always put the people you love into these situations. Situations in which they have no choice but to leave or hate you. In every single of these situations you had so many options. You could have prevented the hurt you invoked on these people that you love.
Until now you were lucky. You said sorry and asked for forgiveness and eventually they forgave you. Never did you push any of them so far that they didn't come back around.
Until now. Bravo man. Finally you have pushed someone so far that she will never come back." The voice said and laughed at him mockingly.
„Oh yea, I know that you are still in denial. You still pray that she will come back. But you know she won't. She is gone. She is gone for good." The voice spoke in an amused tone.
„She won't return because she is dead. You killed her." The voice said in a cold tone this time. The last words echoed in his mind.
He knew the voice was right. He knew he had caused the people he loved so much pain. He never seemed able to live up to his own expectations. Leave alone the expectations of the people around him. He always tried hard but it never seemed to be enough. He could never be that man that he really wanted to be.
He loathed the person he was. He always wanted to be this guy that his mother saw in him. But he could never be that guy. Especially now after the killed one oft he women that he loved.
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Lucas voiceover:
And in this moment you can either fight or fall into the darkness.
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Before he had always turned and fought. But he was out of power to fight anymore.
Lucas let himself fall into the darkness.
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Lucas voiceover:
When all hope fails and despair is all that is left.
When you stand in the Darkness and you think that it will never end.
When you forget about the light and think that it will never return.
When you have no power left to fight.
Then you can only hope that you have people that love you and who will fight the Darkness that consumes you.