Rebuilding Blair Waldorf

by fandomsxandxstuff

Set post 1x13 (after the thin line between chuck and nate). This is not a time for despair in Blair Waldorf's life. It's time to rebuild herself. It's time for someone else's social destruction. This is the story of how Blair ends up with who she wants to be with and shapes herself again after the nate and chuck fiasco. Sort of related to The Blair Bitch Project too (1x14).

PROLOUGE

Nate Archibald: There's no "us", Blair.

Blair Waldorf: Yes there is. We finally really have a chance to start over.

Nate Archibald: You know all this time I felt so bad for everything I've done. And when you said you wanted to leave the past in the past I didn't know we were talking about YOUR past.

Blair Waldorf: You had just broken my heart. I made a decision I was in no condition to make.

Nate Archibald: But your clear-headed now right?

Blair Waldorf: Yes.

Nate Archibald: You understand perfectly when I say I want nothing else to do with you Blair. You and Chuck deserve each other.

Chuck Bass: Let me be more succinct. You held a certain fascination... when you were beautiful, delicate, and untouched. Now... now you're like the Arabian my father used to own. Rode hard and put away wet. I don't want you anymore, and I can't see why anyone else would.

Serena van der Woodsen: Blair...

Blair Waldorf: What? You want a lift to JFK?

Serena van der Woodsen: Your mom said you were going to France tonight.

Blair Waldorf: Well, she has a big mouth.

Serena van der Woodsen: B, I'm your best friend. She was shocked I didn't know.

Blair Waldorf: Well now you do.

Serena van der Woodsen: What I know is how you felt when I left without telling you.

Blair Waldorf: Is there a reason your here?

Serena van der Woodsen: Stay. Don't let some stupid scandal make you run away like it did me. Like it does everyone in our world.

Blair Waldorf: Everything's horrible. My whole life's falling apart.

The only thing that had completely ruined Blair Waldorf was sleeping with Chuck Bass. If that mistake had never happened, the current, depressed Blair Waldorf would not exist and her old self would still be on top.

She laid down on her tile floor. She was sick with herself. Her bulimia was back again. The only thing she could think of was all of her life in front of, lying in ruins. Chuck was her one biggest mistake. She wanted to feel bad or guilty about what she had done, but in reality, she didn't. She was happy when she was with him, and Nate had hurt her over and over and over. But, look where being happy had gotten her. God, it was all over, she was over. And she had no one to blame but herself. Sure, it was Nate's fault for abandoning her, Chuck's fault for sending in the blast and for crushing every part of her with what he said, but she deserved it, didn't she? Everything that had happened, only had happened because she screwed up. She was the slut, the whore and she had only gotten what was coming for her.

It was all so screwed up, and she knew it. Nate and her weren't even together when it happened. Nate had cheated on her before, and somehow, he had gotten away with a free pass. And Chuck, Chuck was the biggest slut of them all, but his life wasn't ruined. It all just wasn't fair. Rage boiled within her. It wasn't fair. She stuck her finger down her throat and let the hot tears run down her face all over again. One mistake, it was all over.

She was only like this when she was by herself. She did her very best to keep up her usual demeanor of snark and superiority when others were around. Everyone but Serena still laughed and made sure they knew their opinion on her, but no one, excluding Serena, knew exactly broken up she was.