Ritsuka allowed Soubi to hold him, even in his injured state. He felt so confused when they were together, especially when Soubi uttered those three deadly words, I love you. He felt butterflies in his stomach and pain in his heart. The word love had never been so confusing until he met Soubi.
It had never been painful to listen as the people around him said I love you or I like you…until he met Soubi. He had changed everything in his life the day they had met. He really was a spell.
I love you no longer held the same meaning.
He turned towards the older man and watched as his long hair began to cover his face. The band-aid on his cheek was slightly stained red and Ritsuka reached out to touch him.
Pain.
That was one thing they both had in common. His bandaged hands and Soubi's body all knew the meaning of pain inflicted by someone they loved. He looked away as he felt himself become comfortable in the embrace.
"I love you."
Soubi always made him feel warmth when embraced but at the same time freezing winds chilled his heart as he remembered those three words were nothing more than lies. Soubi only loved him because Seimei had ordered him to love him.
It wasn't real love.
He was just following orders.
Soubi kissed his cheek and began to slowly lower him onto the small bed in the room. This had been the first time he had entered Soubi's house and it somehow fit. Soubi was such an enigma that he hadn't really expected anything in his sleeping quarters. He took in a deep breath and couldn't help but take in the smell that surrounded the room.
Soubi's smell.
"Ritsuka," he heard the Sentouki's voice above him. It somehow sounded like a plea, rather than just his name.
Soubi caressed his face and planted small kisses everywhere his hand touched. It was like a flame was burning him but he couldn't help but mewl at the scorching touch. Nobody had ever made him feel this way.
His tail began to make ripples on the thin sheets.
There were times when he felt that Soubi really did care about him...like at that very moment. He felt his ears flatten against his head and his body began to heat up. Was he going to loose his ears then and there? He had never really thought of how he would become an adult but as Soubi hovered above him he didn't mind loosing everything to him.
In fact...there was too much separating them. Lies, secrets, names, clothes. Soubi kissed him gently on the lips and grabbed his hand, "Ritsuka."
He felt some excitement as Soubi pressed up against him. A warm hardness rubbed against his small body and he couldn't help but let out a moan. Too much separating them. He felt a hand reach out to him and it began to pull and tug at his clothing.
"Ritsuka."
He looked up and felt tears prickle at his eyes. All of these emotions and sensations were too much, "Soubi."
His now tightened pants were unbuttoned and his problem was being taken care of. Large smooth hands stroked and parted. He could feel the slickness on his body and blushed when he saw Soubi lowering himself towards him. He felt his abdomen tighten painfully and he gasped at the foreign activities being done to his virgin body.
He closed his eyes.
Times like these, where Soubi only wanted him, made him feel loved and he wondered, was this the type of love he wanted?
"I love you," he heard Soubi whisper.
His breath hitched and the tightening in his abdomen finally let loose.
Yes.