Letter To Me 1/1
By tsukinofaerii
Beta: lyakahime
Rating: SNAP
Generic/Horror
Warnings: Male/Male, disturbing
Spoilers: For Kingdom Hearts II
Series: Kingdom Hearts
Pairings: Roxas/Axel, Sora/Riku(Sora)
Summary: After returning home, everything seems outwardly perfect. But inside Sora there's at least one person who's not pleased with the outcome of the adventure, and he has the means to make certain Sora knows it. (complete ficlet)
This story is a work of transformative fiction, such being defined as a work which incorporates characters and situations which have been created by other authors/artists. No infringement of copyright is intended and no profit is being made from the creation or dissemination of this work. Kingdom Hearts was created and is owned by Tetsuya Nomura. It is used with respect and admiration for the work.
Hello, Myself. Or maybe you prefer Sora?
Have you ever looked in the mirror and seen the part of you that you hate? The part who hates Riku for every time he beat you and then gloated? And hates him even more now that he won't fight you at all? Or who knows Kairi will cry when you tell her you're gay, and is looking forward to it just so she'll stop bugging you? Who enjoyed killing the Organization? Who admits that it was murder, no matter what noble cause it was for?
That's me. Actually, I'm yours. Or maybe you're the part of me whos ashamed of all that. Kind of depends on where you're standing.
I bet you never thought you'd hear from me again. Hell, I didn't think I'd get a chance like this. You don't exactly fall asleep at the keyboard much, do you? I may be a just a shadow, but I can still type for you. I can even flip a coin or snap my - your - fingers. Isn't that fascinating?
Just don't fall asleep too close to a knife. Or anythinganyoneyou care too much about. I don't really have much to live for anymore, do I?
Do you think Riku can sleep at night, knowing what he did? How he trapped and tricked me into giving up my existence by disguising it as some kind of noble cause? Was it worth it? What if I had known what would happen? What it would take from me? That Axel would die, that I would die, that we'd lose every chance we almost had? Riku could have taken his fucking universe, his personal little horror story and shoved it.
But I didn't even know who Axel was, so maybe it wouldn't have made much difference. No, I know it wouldn't have. I would have been glad to see him die. He was one of them, and I was enough of you to want them all dead. But I remember now. DiZ's brainwashing couldn't last long after we'd merged. If you really try hard, you can remember him too. Every sweatdrop, every scream and moan and how hot he was inside, like a blast furnace. My dick had blisters after our first time. You don't have the scars where he melted fingerprints on my back every time he came, but you know how much I loved every time we almost fucked each other to death.
I hate you for taking that away, even more than you hate me for all those little shames I represent. I didn't even know I loved him until it was too late. Now you're using all that love on him, and it's supposed to be mine. For Axel. Like Riku deserves that sort of emotion. Like you have any right to it. But you're giving it to that bastard who defeated me and then locked me in this cage of flesh called you.
As soon as you get the guts to tell him, that is. Will you? Ever?
Coward.
Here's another reason not to tell him. He loves you back. Even I can tell that, and I know you, like you're afraid to know yourself. You'd be screwing like jackrabbits inside a week. Eventually you'd fall asleep next to him. And hed be mine. Maybe you'll like waking up next to his strangled corpse. It's the least I can do for my Other. And then maybe you'll kill yourself and save me the trouble.
I'd say I'll be seeing you, but I have a feeling you're not going to look yourself in the eye for a long time.
Sleep well, Sora.