JPOV (Jay)
I wonder if she ever thinks of me anymore. That's right, Emma Nelson. I gave her a social disease, but I didn't mean to, well it's hard to explain. She was in pain and I was her bad influence. I shouldn't have used her but how could I say no? She and her innocence drove me insane with infatuation. I could have dumped Alex and she and I could be together, right now. I could have kept her away from Peter but here I am watching as her and poin dexter step out of his daddy's tricked out boy toy car. She's even more glorious then I remember, she filled out into a woman. Her legs are tanned and long, it could drive any man insane, her dress is short but not to revealing it gives away just enough to say she isn't easy, her blonde hair glows more as she walks daintily through the ray of sun. Good god I missed out on possibly the best girl that ever came to me, she came to me! I didn't come to her and she wanted me. Maybe it was just a fling, maybe I meant nothing but a stupid green bracelet or maybe she feels the same way about me as I do right now. Every time I see her I feel like a softy, she has that effect on me. I wonder what she thinks about me, am I scum to her? A bottom feeder? Or am I the one who helped her in a weird twisted way? The one that made her realize she's making a mistake? I was lost in thought until she came up to us. My she's pretty. Kay snap out of it.
"Sean…Jay" Her eye's stung into mine, like she knew what I was thinking. Sean walked away to that boyfriend of hers, to help with his car. Emma leaned against my orange civic and glanced over to me with her big brown eyes that could melt anyone, and I glanced at her.
"So…" I began "You and poin dexter huh?" I smirked and sighed quietly. I don't know why but it's hard to even think like a jerk when I'm around her.
"It's Peter, Jay" She smiled lightly and looked to where Peter was standing with Sean. Was she looking at Sean, Peter or the ground? She shook her head at whatever she was thinking. I bit my lower lip slightly and looked at her.
"Is this really the place to knit?" I ask her, she knits like an old lady. Ah there's the jerk like comments.
"Keeps my mind busy, so I don't think about stress…" Her voice lingered.
"What kind of stress have you, Miss green peace been under?" I leaned against the car's hood and looked up at her as she looked down at me and turned her body towards me and shifted some of her weight onto the hood of the car and part of the windshield.
"Ah body issues" Body issues?! Hello she's like, the best looking girl here, what kind of body issues could she have?
"You mean uh…" I hinted to her, I hope she gets it or else this could be really awkward.
"You can say it Jay, anorexia" She shot back and chuckled.
"Wait did I cause that? You know with the whole gonorrhea hook up thing we had? Like were you mad or something---"I said frazzled.
"No Jay, it was just a few months ago and that was…like last year" She chuckled and shook her head.
"Oh…Am I off the hook for that?" I said looking down.
"As long as you haven't told anyone about it, then yes, you are" She looked down and I could feel her eyes on me.
"I promise I haven't" I held out my pinky and she giggled and we pinky promised on that. I could feel the electricity go through my finger tips and to my veins, forcing me to smile.
"You know you've always had the best smile" She glanced away for a second then went back to looking down at me.
"Why, is that a compliment Emma?" I exhaled a small laugh.
"Why, yes it is Jay"
"Then, thank you" Our glance was held for a long time, and our faces inched closer to each other. She closed her eyes lightly and then, the poin dexter ruined everything.
"Emma!" He hollered. "Come here Sean wants to show you and Jay something!" Peter ran off and Emma and I were left just staring at each other, not knowing what to do.
"Uh…So let's go see what Sean has to show us" I adjusted my hat and waited for her to get the cue to get up and follow. We walked joined at the hip. I so badly wanted to tell her how I feel, and how much I needed her back. I just don't understand how I was such an ass back then.
"Hey Emma!" Sean said all cheekily. Great now he's trying to steal the girl I'm trying to steal away from dang poin dexter!
"Sean" She said meekly. She doesn't seem that interested, which is good meaning I get a head start on Emma. Ok, I'm not trying to get into her pants, well yeah that would be nice and all but I have to remember, positive friendly guy who has learned from his mistakes.
"I hear Ellie's back in town Sean…I'm sure she'd love to see you" She said lowly.
"Yeah, I'm sure she would, but you and I should catch up, you know?" He asked.
"Are you asking my girlfriend on a date Sean?" Peter asked as he swung an arm around Emma's shoulders. She moved stiffly closer to him and her eyes went from mine to Sean's to mine again and looked up at Peter.
"Aw Peter, don't worry these two have nothing on you" She smiled up at him, it was sarcastic the way she said it, and I smirked then scoffed and gave one of those 'she doesn't mean it' looks to myself.
"Jay" Emma mumbled low enough and I quickly composed myself into an orderly stance, like a soldier. Emma chuckled lowly making Peter and Sean look at her like she was on crack. She flashed her eyes up.
"What?" She asked seriously.
"Uh…You were laughing" Peter said slowly.
"Nothing just a thought Peter" She said softly and turned her back to find Manny, in which Peter followed like a whipped man.
"Jay I have to get her back from that nark" Sean said.
"What if she doesn't want you man? She seems happy and she just went through hell" I spoke defensively. I can't let her slip through my fingers once again.
"Pfft I'm her first love and how would you know anything about her Jay? Last time I checked you and her have nothing" Sean took a protective stance as he ran his mouth at me.
"Your right, we do have nothing" I smirked and walked off to find Emma and tell Peter that Sean needs his help, which he doesn't but it's just to lure him away from Emma.
"Hey Peter, Sean needs some help he wants to show you something" I shouted a few feet away from Emma and him, they were leaning on Alex's car with Manny and Alex sitting on the roof. I took Peter's place and Emma put her weight on me. If I didn't know better, I say her and I are off to a good start.
"Trying to lure Peter away Jay?" She grinned.
"Yes because I want you all to myself" I grabbed her into a hug and lifted her over my shoulder. Something I used to do when I was in high school, when I was with Alex. She squealed like a school girl but I let her down fast before everyone saw her behind. Her phone went off loudly and she jumped but stumbled a little into my direction and I steadied her.
"Another boyfriend?" I asked as I looked over her shoulder to see who it was. It was her mom saying she needs to get home. Damn it, I should try to get her number.
"Nope it's just mom" She said all casual.
"Ah mommy dearest" She chuckled under her breath at my comment.
"So I guess this is bye Jay" She breathed lightly and pulled me into one of those odd walking backwards hugs, it was a very long hug to and it could have been longer until lover boy and poin dexter interrupted.
"Ahem" Peter announced looking more than irritated.
"I'm not done" I spoke to him in the same tone and squeezed Emma once more before letting her go back into the arms of sir dork a lot.
Emma, Peter and Manny all climbed into the rag top. Emma glanced back and waved to Sean and me, or at least what I hope was just me. I didn't even get her number.
"Listen Jay, don't lay your moves on Emma, you aren't her type got it?" Sean threatened as he poked a finger at me.
"And you are lover boy? Please you left her on her own after the shooting, she was messed up after that, don't say I didn't notice" I argued to him.
"You're a criminal so what makes you think you're her type?"
"Am not, you're a cry baby living on my couch, and if you want to stay, shut your mouth"
"Well fine I'll crash somewhere else" He huffed out of the parking lot in an angry matter. I shrugged my shoulders; no one else would take him.
EPOV (Emma)
Today was different; I didn't expect to have these feelings for Jay. Okay he gave me a social disease but it's in the past. He did seem…caring today in a weird twisted Jay way. I couldn't understand it but there's sparks. Or maybe I'm just trying to screw my life up again, go down the path with Jay, get a social disease, or whatever else maybe I'll get pregnant this time even! Whoop-ee. It's just so confusing, when I'm around him, I can't help it but to be happy and willing and cheerful, but when I'm alone and thinking to myself I think the worst of him, and it's just frustrating. We pulled up to the front of my house and Peter kissed me gently, Manny made a gagging sound and that was my cue to get out.
"Bye Peter, see you later" I walked straight out and headed towards the door. Manny immediately dragged me downstairs.
"You and Jay? Em are you serious?"
"No, not me and Jay, ugh it's just that I'm…attracted to him, its…weird" I confessed as we talked in the darkness.
"He's bad news Emma, and you're just going to go down another bad road, that I can't let you go down" Manny explained "Besides if you want a bad boy…Sean has been so good to you"
"Manny! He left me alone and broken, it's his fault I fell into Jay's arms! I'm not going to go back to him I could care less about stupid Sean Cameron!" I exaggerated. I flipped the light on and to see the horrified expression of Sean Cameron. I felt hurt and anger. Hurt because I just told Manny I hated his guts right in front of him. Anger because he had no right to be here!
"So that's how you feel Em…You let me down" He growled sadly.
"Sean please! I'm so sorry" I grabbed him by the shoulders
AN://So this story will only be 5 chapters…So review subscribe ectt! I'll be writing more Jemma stories as I have a few in mind…And I'll be trying super duper hard to finish all of them!