Once we were one,
Not just one age but one whole person.
Before you lost your love,
And I lost myself,
We were invincible,
Dividing the world between us.
You had the sun, the stars, the trees and the oceans,
And all I was left were the flowers.
They say the bond of twins is unbroken,
But we learned differently.
For a long time I believed we could never be okay,
That we could never be one again.
It felt like a wave,
Crashing down towards me.
Without warning,
Without mercy.
After she died,
We distanced even further,
The grief of our mother's death too heavy a burden.
Her watch ticked by,
The only thing she left,
When the car sailed off the cliff.
It ticked on,
Hour by hour,
Until a year had gone by,
Not a word had been spoken between us.
For salt in the wound
I stole your dreams.
The acceptance form came,
And I went to the school instead.
I was jealous of your sketches and paintings,
Your talent and skill.
I threw away your samples,
And only mailed mine.
When I found myself once more,
I tried to help you,
But you pushed me away.
I saved you from Devil's Drop too many times,
You should have saved yourself,
But you just gave up.
So I decided to find your lost love,
Like you had tried to do for years.
Seeing you together made me happy,
You gave me hope that what I had was real.
Dad's confusion became clear,
That it was Noah and Brian, not Noah and Heather.
We used to be NoahandJude,
A breath of a word,
Just a natural expression.
What I wanted you to know,
Was that whoever we once were,
That one complete person,
Lives on.
Even when we move on and into our lives,
I will always love you,
My twin brother, my friend, my hero.