Sometimes I wonder why, why couldn't I be one of the popular kids, why couldn't I be one of the extremely pretty girls that always swoon over beck now we're not together. Sometimes I wonder why I could just be like you.
I don't know why I wish I was you, that isn't intended in a bad way your perfect which is actually why I wish I was you, everyone likes you, your so sweet where as I'm mean. Your smile is so beautiful where as I don't smile at all. Your so loving where as I'm cold hearted and mean. We are the complete opposites yet so similar.
We are so similar because we are both misunderstood but in different ways. We both have problems but they are so different. We hang around in different crowds yet we still talk. Your my inspiration to get up so early in the mornings just so I can see you.
But we are so different in the sense that you are popular and I am not. Your beautiful and I'm not. Your so bold where as I hide behind my words. Your figure is so amazing where as I'm fat and ugly. Loads of people find you attractive, nobody thinks that about me. I have feelings for you as more than a friend but you will never feel the same way about me. I can't help you when your confused I should know why your confused but you don't trust me and to be honest I'm scared, I'm scared because I know. I'm always in a bad mood where as your always so nice and kind. Your so confident where as I lie and cry at the slightest problem, I get scared at conflict, I hide behind a facade.
Sometimes I wonder, if you ever see my sad or crying would you come and see what's wrong and tell me its all alright but then I think 'oh wait that's just in my dreams' I dream too much in the real world I get sad when I wake up. I look all the happy, loving couples and I imagine that as us, I look at all the couples who treat each other like they're perfect and I imagine that as me treating you like that because in my dreams I do. I read the stories of the prince and the princess where the prince saves the princess from the evil dragon, and I imagine the prince as me because I would save you in a heartbeat. In a song I heard the verse "no man can walk alone" so I decided that I would walk with you to the ends of the earth if it meant you knew how I feel.
I Jade August West Love you Catrina Louise Valentine I always have from the first moment I met you. And I will until the day I die.
I'm sorry this is so short I'm trying to take a break from Cade but Im trying to find something I know enough abut to write about so I'm taking suggestions don't even know what this is to be honest, I started writing and I couldn't stop. I searched but I didn't think Cat had a middle name so I put one in myself DON'T KILL MEEEEEE! R&R please c: