My first wizards. Please cope with me.
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"It's a sickness." His best friend rumored. "It's disgusting. And I can't believe it."
One good
thing about Max was that he wasn't a procrastonator. He got right to
it.
Even if he could never do it right. But at least you knew you
tried.
While everyone was off doing their own thing, he would
secretly practice magic on regular basis.
And sprurisingly, he
would be improving one day, but the next. He'd fail.
He seemed
constantly distracted. But by what?
What could little Maxy, be
thinking.
"Max! We need you out here to help hand out
orders!" Theresa shouted from the kitchen. Both hands full, she
stumbled to the outside handing out her share of orders.
Max
rushed out of the lair. Hiding his wand deep within his pockets.
Quickly, he picked up the last order, and prepared himself for
the customer. He could see him. Sitting alone at the table. He looked
about..fifteen or so?
"Russo sub?" Max asked. Not
noticing the older boy look up at him. His lips were pirched, and his
hands were curling.
"Yes thank you." He said nervously.
Now, he didn't know Max personally. But he'd see him occasionally at
school. Likewise with him. He only knew one thing about him.
Max
tried not to make eye contact. And placed the sub in front of him. He
couldn't struggle anymore than he is now. He knew what he was
feeling. He just didn't want to admit it.
He felt a yank on his
arm as he began to walk. "Max, wait."
He slowly turned.
The feeling was of excitement, nerves, and disgust. "Yeah?"
He asked all innocently.
The older boy leaned forward toward
Max's ear. "If your not busy later..You wanna hang out?"
Max could feel his heart doing back flips. He didn't think it
would happen, but it did. He was asked out by another boy!
Squirrely, he looked around. Hopeing Theresa wasn't around.
"Y-Yeah, sure. We can hang out..Or something." Max
stammered. And could feel him losing his grip onto the tray. The
older boy winked. And through in his name. He was Caleb.
"Caleb..A
date, with Caleb." He though.
-x-
Max was clueless
when it came to dating. But at least he knew what to expect when it
came to boys. Though he was still a stranger, he wouldn't know what
he'd be into.
He didn't know what to expect. He needed advice.
But who was he to tell? Justin? He'd have to tell Justin that he
has an attraction to a male. That he was gay.
Oh, how he hated
that word.
He tip toed upstairs to Justins door. Hoping Alex
wouldn't hear him. That way, she couldn't spy on him and Justins
conversation. That would be just tragic. She's hear it all, and tell
mom. Then mom'll tell dad. Then dad will get in an uproar about it.
Adding a 'where did I go wrong?' line.
The door opened fully. He
felt small. And his confidence shrunk back to size.
"Max?
What's up buddy?" He greeted. Approaching his little brother
with his awkward smile.
He looked into Justin's pearly, light
blue eyes. This was it, he was going to confide. He had to. He can't
keep it in forever.
Justin let him in, and Max sat on his bed.
"Justin." He took in a deep sigh. "I have to tell
you something. But you have to promise me not to freak out."
Justin smirked. "Max, everything you do makes me freak out."
Max lowered his shoulders, he knew this was going to be harder
than he thought. Would Justin take him seriously? Would he think this
is a phase? This is surely real to Max. And if Justin didn't believe
him, who else would he turn to?
"I've got a date tonight."
He began. "Bu-"
"A date?" Justin exclaimed.
Slightly jumping in his seat. "That's great! With who, what's
her name?"
There could be a girl named Caleb. Max thought.
...Would he believe that?
"Heh-Her-..'er." He lost his
ability to speak. He was stuck. Dumbfounded. He didn't know what to
say next. He told himself he'd have to think up something, quick! He
began to feel faintish.
But shook it off. It's not or never he
thought.
"Justin." He started again. He could feel the
tears form in his eyes. "I'm gay."
There was that awkward silent he was dreading. He knew it was
going to be like this. Justin wouldn't praise him for this. It's what
he has to say next, that matters on their brotherly relationship.
"Your, Gay." Justin repeated. Which made Max feel
worse. Hearing his brother call him that. And what's worse knowing
that it's true.
Justin didn't know how to react. He didn't know
if he should mention telling mom about it. Or feel honored to be the
first person he told. He didn't know what to do.
But, wipe a tear
that was on his brothers cheek. Max looked up at him ashamed. His
face was all red from embarassment. And his hands were shaking. Which
caused him to lose his balance a little bit.
A soft smile spread
across Justin's face. Which confused Max.
"Y-Your not mad?
Or upset? Or-"
"It's okay Max." He whispered. "I
mean, sure I didn't suspect anything. I had no idea."
Max
lowered his head a little bit. He was so good at hiding it, he
realized. This could come off as a bigger shock to mom and dad. I
mean, if they ever found out.
"But, if this is who you are.
Then I accept it."
Max let out a sigh of relief. Knowing his
brother will back him up. And believe him. And knowing that he sdtill
loves him. Makes him less of a freak. He looks up to Justin. If he
turned away from him, he'd be lost.
"So?"
"So
what?" Max answred.
"Who's the boy?"
The
confidence he once had, lost again. Now he'd have to tell him which
guy. Not only is he a little older. But would Justin approve of him?
"Well..He asked me today, during work. His name is Caleb."
He replied hesitantly.
Justin pat his brothers shoulder. "Well,
good for you Max. But what are you going to tell mom and dad when
your out tonight?"
"I'm going to be telling mom I'll be
staying at Jasons." Jason, was Max's best friend. Who hasn't
even told him his orientation.
Justin have a short nod. He was
happy for Max. And confused at the same time. He couldn't help but
think over and over why he didn't tell him sooner. The outcome would
have been the same.
Maybe it was too hard for him? He could
imagine.
"Well then. You better get ready for tonight. I'll
make sure I see you off before you go."
He got up and opened
the door for his brother. But Max didn't budge.
"Actually..I
was wondering, if you could help me with something." He was
completely stiff. He couldn't believe what he was going to ask. It
was unexpected, and downright awkward.
Justin made his way back
to the bed. He sat across Max. He had his attention.
"I-I
was wondering if you could tell me how to.." Max trailed off for
a moment. "Kiss, correctly?"
Justin remained completely
stiff. He wasn't sure if he could take in all these surprises in one
day.
"Max, I can't exactly tell you how to kiss right. It
would take a lot of description." He said.
Max felt a little
more confident continuing on. "Oh I know. I know...But, maybe.
There's an easier way..?"
Justin thought nothing of it for a
moment. Until he gave it a little more thought. His face jolted back
up at Max's. You could see the blush across his face. And across his
younger brothers. He couldn't believe what Max was considering. Him.
Kissing his older brother? Recidulous!
"Max, I uhm." He
trailed. "I don't-I don't think this is such a good idea."
"Well yeah I guess.." Max sighed rejectively. "But
I just wanted a little help..I've never kissed a girl before. Or,
anyone for that matter."
Everyone wants their first kiss to
be the best kiss ever. Although, his kiss with Jason wouldn't
technically be his first. But who's to say we don't want to get it
over with.
"Alright." Justin admitted in defeat. "Just
one, quick, QUICK one."
Max quickly nodded. It would be good
practice, he thought. For the real thing. He'd know what to do.
Justin slowly leaned downward toward his brothers face. But
stopped for the moment. Which kind of left Max slightly annoyed.
"Are you sure..?" Justin whispered. Max nodded, again.
He felt the need then. The hungry need to kiss his brother, as the
excitement was building.
Max felt his brothers lips on top of
his. It was bliss. Pure bliss. His lips were so warm and soft. It was
unbelieveable! The act was so new to Max. He didn't know weither to
just sit there and take it. Or try to press forward. He listened to
instinct. And pressed back against Justin. This act caused him to
feel hot. And slightly faint.
Justin's hand traveled to Max's
face. Stroking it ever so gently. Causing Max to shiver. And almost
breaking lip contact with Justin.
Justin pulled away. Immediately
realizing what he has done. He called in quits. But acting as if he
was proud. He saw Max's face. The poor thing looked terrified. This
was all new to him. He felt somewhat guilty.
He looks so cute. He
couldn't help but think.
"How'd I do?" He asked
unsurely. Biting his lower lip, he began playing with his fingers
nervously.
Justin smiled. "You did just fine. I think your
ready for tonight." Just got up. And dizzily walked up to the
door, and showed his brother out. He had to prepare himself for
tonight. The shame and anger was all gone. Now, he was just excited.
Knowing thats Justin was okay made him feel confident enough that he
could do it.
Justin informed he'd be downstairs when he was ready
to leave. And shut the door behind him. He looked up hazily at the
roof. Shaking his head slowly. Trying to get the image out of his
mind. But it was there. And it was going to stay there.
Max was
in his room then, going through his clothes. The thought couldn't
leave as well. Just the thought of him. Kissing his brother. The last
person he'd ever want to kiss. He had to be his first.
He thought
about Caleb. And how the kiss was going to be between then.
But
the kiss wouldn't compare, to the first one.
Fin.
