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p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;""You're all I want and I want you so much that it hurts. But I s'pose that'll make it all the better when we run at each other in the airport in three weeks' time. It'll definitely be something great."/p
p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;"Ray ended the recording and rested his head in his hands for a few moments before moving the mouse and hovering over the 'delete' button. It all sounded stupid. He hated it. He just wanted to go to Gavin and say it but he wanted to say it span style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-weight: inherit; font-style: oblique; font-family: inherit; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;"right/span instead of like this./p
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p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;""I know it's really stupid but I really do miss you. I love you." The corner of Ray's lip quirked upwards in a smile but the sadness in his eyes still shone through his expression./p
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p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;""I want you here with me because we're better off together and we both know it." Ray found himself smiling as the words finally started to come more naturally. But it was true. They both were fully aware that they functioned far better together than apart. Ray knew by the way that Gavin had savoured their goodbye kiss and the way he clenched his jaw to prevent himself from crying as he walked into the departures zone that Gavin was feeling the exact same./p
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