My name used to be Tris Prior.

I finish my day at work and feel nice and broken. The war ended about three years ago and Tori killed Jeanie before I had time to explain myself or comprehend. They didn't kill me, but they killed the others. Tobias dumped me saying that he didn't know if he could trust me when he very well knew he could.

He started going out with a half-broken Christina instead of a broken Tris. My brother is dead, my mum is dead, my dad is dead and my heart is dead. I keep to myself and no matter how many times Uriah has asked me out not one of those times have I ever said yes. I'm having trouble coping and I understand why now.

Tobias never cared for me, he never actually liked me, no one does. I work at the tattoo parlour everyday and in my spare time I use my permanent marker to fill my skin the way it should be. With the words of things that I am, the mean words that people have called me. All true, all real, all permanent. I've managed to fill me legs and these days I walk around in long flowing black skirts to hide my legs.

'Stiff, Weak, Selfish, Annoying, Not Pretty, Ugly, Awkward, Child-like Body, Stupid, Adrenaline Junkie, Uninteresting, Creepy, Alien, Anorexic, imperfect, unoriginal..'

Words like that cover my body and I am starting to feel that they are becoming truer and truer each and every day. I wear long-sleeved turtleneck shirts these days because I need to cover the worst word that covers my chest. It starts next to my birds and this one is a temporary tattoo. 'Broken" in fancy and curly writing covers my chest and almost reaches my neck.

I don't do much these days because I need to cover the worst word that covers my chest. It starts next to my birds and this one is a temporary tattoo. 'Broken" in fancy and curly writing covers my chest and almost reaches my neck.

I don't do much these days; I don't talk to many people. I have become very pale and very skinny (even skinnier than before). I generally don't eat anything maybe a piece of bread every few days. I always wear hoodies because I dyed my hair a plastic black but kept the fringe blonde. I have long hair again but I keep it up in a ponytail. I one of my old friends saw me now they would not recognise me.

I pack up my station and as I leave Bruce (the new manager of the tattoo parlour) yells out to me. "Brit? Can you come in early tomorrow?" I nod and walk back to my apartment. My name is now Brittany Addario; this is because I decided that I wanted to start life all over again. About three months after the war ended I walked out of the compound and went to Amity and got most of my hair dyed black. I was lucky enough to on the train ride back be involved in an explosion. I jumped off the train to get to the compound and as I jumped the train behind me exploded. People came running out of the compound and people were screaming and crying for the people that were lost.

I was grateful and decided to restart my life, I got a new name, a new apartment and I changed my look. It was only Tori that knew what I had done to myself. She didn't understand it but I did. Tobias never goes out in public anymore but I do know that he is a leader now and is single once again. Uriah and Christina are married and have a little newborn baby. I don't know what they called it though because I'd prefer not to get caught up in their lives.

I get home, Take my skirt off, and have a shower and crawl into bed and sleep peacefully. Puberty finally kicked in after I changed my life. I got curves and got taller, not much taller but enough to not look the same. I changed my hair and added a 4mm chin on my left ear. No one but Tori knew who I was.

I wake early the next morning and go to breakfast. I bump into somebody that I used to know, in another life on my way there. It's Uriah, and he has some interesting things to say. "If I didn't know any better, you aren't abnegation and never have been. There have only ever been two Abnegation transfers. Four and," He bit his lip as if he was holding back tears. "Anyway, sorry to bother you. What's your name by the way?" I tell him my name is Brittany and he bids me farewell.

I know that he doesn't recognise me and I pray that he never will, I could see the pain it took for him to even think of the old me. I got to breakfast and sat down on my own once again. My story was that I was an Amity transfer because that was where I was when the train wen ka-boom. As I'm sitting down I notice 3 maybe even 4 sets of eyes burning holes in my choice of clothes. They all come from the same table, the same one as Uriah. I pick up the rest of my breakfast and leave the cafeteria and reach my destination, the tattoo parlour. I do my shift for the day and at my lunch break, I decide to get a whole bunch of new clothes. I get only long jeans and normal cut neck ¾ t-shirts, both tight fitting. I then go to the hair salon and get them to re-dye my hair black.

I change my clothes and leave all the rest of the clothes in my dress in my apartment and walk back to the tattoo parlour. I get a visit from a regular, who notices my change in clothes and attempts to hit on me. I finish my shift, go home and fall asleep.

Tobias' POV

Ever since Tris' death, I've always wondered why she left me in this world all alone. I probably didn't help though, I bounced straight back from dumping her and tried my luck with Christina. It didn't last long because we realised that we had different reasons. I just wanted to get Tris off my mind but Chris wanted to settle down and start a family, something that she did with Uriah.

About two years ago she had a beautiful baby girl that she and Uriah named Tris in memory of their best friend, my one true love. Like Uriah, I have started to notice a single dauntless girl that always wears long baggy clothes and covers all her skin and leaves only her face and blonde fringe out. I've never seen her in any other clothes and in actual fact I don't actually know what she looks like.

She's very pretty and Uriah spotted her out to Chris, Zeke and I in the Cafeteria the other day. She seemed to know when we were staring at her; she picked her food up and left. I've seen her before too. She works at the tattoo parlour. She is modest and an all around beautiful girl. She transferred from Amity, as I have been told. She looks about 20 years old. Oh and also Zeke and Shauna got married a couple of months ago; we all have bets on how long it will take before Shauna is in the family way. My bet is that she already is.

Anyway, my life is not very much without Tris and generally I don't go out into the social aspect of Dauntless, unless Chris and Uriah force me to. After the war ended, people were able to choose which faction they wanted to be in. Dauntless didn't loose anyone but some people from other factions rechose and we gained quite a few people. None of them had to go through initiation but they could if they wanted to. Also the faction less got to choose where they wanted to be. This happened about three months after the war ended.

At first when Tris had died I thought that she might have run off and joined the faction less but then I realised my mother would have told mew if that was the case. My mother never really liked Tris and Tris never liked or trusted my mother.

I think of all of this as I drift asleep. My final thought is another tattoo to remember who she was and what she meant to me.

Brittany/Tris POV

My day starts off normal with my new clothes on and I head over to the tattoo parlour to start work. The first client is one of the new initiates getting the ever original Dauntless symbol on their arm.

My next client is somewhat more interesting, 'Tobias' my mind whispers his name as he walks in and looks at me. He asks for a tattoo and I call out for Bruce because generally that's whom Tobias gets to do his tattoos. Bruce does his tattoo and before long Tobias is leaving and that's when I notice the tattoo that he got on his wrist, a Ferris wheel. I stop my jaw from dropping as Tobias pays and nods good-bye as he walks out the door.

Maybe the Ferris wheel symbolises Christina or his mother. It might not necessarily mean me. I roll my jeans up a bit and using my permanent marker re-write some of the fading words while also adding a strong one, 'Coward'. On my way home from my shift I get some necessary items; lipstick, eye liner and mascara.

I decide to eat my dinner with the rest of the world and arrive at the cafeteria before anyone else does. I find a table and fill my plate with a hamburger, some fries and a salad. I also grab some water and a slice of cake. Before long the cafeteria is booming and all the new initiates take up a couple of tables. I just sit alone when a voice clouds my thoughts. "Can we sit with you miss?" says an adorable little two year old. I look up to the mum to see Christina. I swallow my pride and say "Sure you can sweetie." She smiles at me and looks at her mum who gestures for her to sit down.

"Is it alright if Daddy, Uncle Four, Uncle Peter, Uncle Zeke and Aunty Shauna sit here too, miss?" The little girl asks as she waves over the other adults in her life. Uncle Peter? I hope that doesn't mean who I think it is. Never mind, it is. "Trissy, are you sure its alright with this lady that we can sit here."

"Trissy?" I say and get looked at by all of the adults. "Yes," Christina says ", that's the middle name of my daughter, I named her after my late best friend. Her name is Marlene Tris Startion" I nod and move over so that others can sit down. Uriah, Chris and Tris take the conversation over and I just eat my food in silence answering questions when asked.

"How rude of me, I'm sorry. My name is Brittany. I transferred from Amity after the war. If you even think of saying an Amity joke, I've already heard it." I say to them. They introduce themselves but I do not need introductions. They ask me if I wanted to sit with them normally and I said that I would love tp. Chris stares at me and says, "You actually have a few similarities to my late friend apart from the earing, hair, boobs and height." Others chuckle but Tobias looks furious.

I blush and Chris then says "Sorry, she was very beautiful but she couldn't see it herself. Unlike this one over here." She jerked her thumb towards Tobias. "He fell head over heels for her and still is in some ways. So tell me about yourself."

I thought I would start to give them some clues because now I thought about it, I did miss them and I wanted to be friends with them again. "Well, I was an initiate three year ago and I started my life in Abnegation and then chose Amity. Then the war happened and after the war I realised that I should have Dauntless the first time." Tobias looked at me nervously, probably because he knew that I could bring up his childhood. Zeke asked if I knew Tris and I said, "Of course I did, she wasn't a pretty girl but yeah I did know her."

Tobias stoop up came around the other side of the other side of the table and grabbed me by the neck in a chock hold and said "Take that back, she was beautiful." Obviously he was not over the grief. I saw the Ferris wheel on his wrist and that gave me strength. I was about to tell him who I actually was and ruin every single part of his life but it was just something I had to do. "I was never pretty." As the final words come out of my mouth Tobias' jaw drops and so do all my former-friends. Only Marlene doesn't know what's happening. As Tobias' grip on my neck falters I run out of the cafeteria and go to my special spot.

I reach the bottom of the pit and sit there for what feels like hours until I have the strength to get up and head back to my apartment to get to sleep. I can't even imagine what all my old friends are thinking at this moment. I just know that I've ruined all of their lives.