DISCLAIMERS: Don't own them, won't make money
out of this, don't sue.
USUAL AUTHOR NOTES: When I read it
I realized it's more of the same... I just love writing more of the
same about these two... sorry :sigh:
Also remember that English is
not my natural language so, please, be nice with my awful grammar
(constructive criticism on the subject is GREATLY appreciated and
should be submitted to my e-mail, thanks
)
Loving Light
The real problem was that agony was just part of it. There
were times when he thought it would finally overwhelm him and he'd
just give up, that his heart would finally break so he wouldn't have
to feel this way anymore. Then she came shining by, all pink and
sweet, and beautiful. He had to admit it, his heart could never break
because of her, despite the agony; she was what kept his heart
beating.
She had managed to get through adolescence staying true
to her inner self, happy and still innocent in a way, even as life
has touched her, and made her grow up. She had kept the inner light
in her, and her eyes kept smiling every time her lips did so, and
she'd kept running to him every time she saw him. She was still her
Stephanie, now a lovely young woman, but still herself. And so, he
had inevitably fallen in love with her.
"Sportacus!"
There
she was again, running towards him, bathed in the morning sun like an
angel, making his heart ache and his lips smile and his body want to
swirl and jump.
"Hi Stephanie," he greeted, and then proceeded
to somersault his way to her side.
"Hi," she greeted back, and
hugged him as she used to do now. Her hair was waist long now and its
ends slightly tingled his arm as he held her just a little longer
than he should, breathed a little deeper than he should, closed his
eyes... Mint. She smelled like mint, the apple shampoo of her
childhood days long since gone and replaced. Anyone who only saw her
would think that she smelled of strawberries, but he knew better, and
that made him strangely proud.
Embarrassed by his thoughts he let
her go suddenly, and intently looked at his feet, missing her hurtful
expression.
"Doing your morning exercises?"
"Yup, running
a bit," she answered. "Do you want to join me?" it wasn't a
question. She took his hand in hers, dragging him along. It was as if
she knew he could never deny her anything.
"I assume you had a
proper breakfast," he said, already jogging along.
"Sportacus..."
Stephanie slightly rolled her eyes at him, "I'm not a little girl
anymore..."
His perfect smile flickered a little before he could
respond, forcing his usual charm out.
"I know... but you still
need energy, and only eating properly could give you that, you-" he
began saying, but suddenly Stephanie stopped in front of him and put
her hand over his mouth to make him quiet.
His heart began beating
so fast he had to stop talking; he could only look at her wonderfully
bright eyes, now at his same level, and listen to her voice saying,
"I ate properly, okay? Sports candy, cereals and milk."
"Very
good" he managed to say, moving his lips under her fingers.
"I
learned from the best," she winked at him before resuming her
jogging. "Let's go."
'I really have to do something about
this…' he thought before joining her.
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It wasn't like him to be up this late in the night, but he just
couldn't sleep. He had tried every trick he knew: lying very still
and counting sheep, drinking warm milk… nothing seemed to work, he
eventually ended up remembering the feeling of Stephanie's hand on
his mouth, the urge to kiss her so powerful it astonished him.
He
wasn't supposed to feel this way, Stephanie was his friend and he
was her slightly above average hero, it just wasn't right. And
there was the age thing.
'I can't stay here,' he thought,
trying hard to convince himself. 'The kids are all grown up now,
they hardly need me anymore… I need to leave Lazy Town before… I
need to leave'
His decision taken, he was finally able to sleep.
His dreams filled with mint scented angels made of light.
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"Leaving?" Stephanie's eyes were filled with
disbelief.
"Yes." Sportacus said, trying to avoid her stare
and finding himself once again unable to do so.
He had talked to
Mayor Meanswell early in the morning. The Mayor had tried to persuade
him but in the end understood his reasons and bid him good bye and
good luck while Ms. Busybody soundly wept by his side. He had smiled
at her and offered her a handkerchief before leaving the office.
He
had found Stephanie sitting under a tree, absentmindedly biting an
apple while reading a book. She was wearing a long pink skirt and a matching
sleeveless top that highlighted nicely her delicate features. He'd
sighed, desperately fighting the knot in the pit of his stomach, and slowly approached her.
And
now that she looked at him, he found himself lacking the strength to
go away. The deep sadness of her eyes cutting his soul in two.
"Why
are you leaving?" her voice sounded as broken as her eyes.
"This
town is fine now, you are all grown up good, even Ziggy learned to
control his anxiety for candies. You don't need me anymore, maybe
somewhere else they do," he tried to smile and sound calm but
managed to do neither.
Stephanie was silent for a while, staring
past him at a point far away on the horizon. Then she slowly,
deliberately, looked at him in the eyes, cold blue against the warmth
of soft chocolate brown ones.
"Is it because of me?" she asked
then.
"What?" a surprised Sportacus asked, dumbfounded by the
strength of her voice.
"It is a simple question, Sportacus. Are
you leaving because of me?"
A hero always tells the truth and
Sportacus was, after all, a hero.
"Yes," he answered, but
couldn't keep looking at her in the eye.
"You… am I that
repulsive to you?"
"Stephanie… you don't understand…"
"I
know I used to be a burden to you sometimes, but I thought… I
thought…" her soul was leaking through her eyes, one drop at a
time, her cheeks burning red with shame and frustration "I worked
so hard to be always what you wanted me to be, I worked so hard to
keep smiling and trying… because I thought one day, when I grew up
enough, you'd…"
He couldn't take it any longer. His arms
flew around her and he pulled her in, holding her tight against him
while she cried.
"Stephanie… I don't… you just don't
know it, do you?" he stepped back a little, enough to look at her.
She avoided his eyes at first, but he put a finger under her chin and
softly lifted up her face. "You were never a burden to me, you have
never been a burden to anyone around here. You are such a beautiful
person, you brought nothing but happiness to this town and everyone
on it. You woke up everyone, not only their bodies, you touched they
soul, made them alive. You touched my heart, made me alive. You
couldn't be repulsive, not even if you wanted to. Not for me, not
for anyone."
"Then stay."
"I… can't," his
reassuring smile faded away.
"Then I really don't get it. You
don't despise me, you say that I'm important to you… why do you
want to go away?"
"Because I…" he wished he could look
away, escape the charm of her eyes, lie to her, run away. He could do
nothing. Stephanie slowly took his hand, understanding slowly
lighting up her face.
"Sportacus…" she said softly "Please
stay with me."
"Steph… I'm not supposed to..."
"You're
not supposed to what?"
It wasn't only his commitment to truth
that made him speak then but also that his being couldn't keep
hiding it.
"Heroes shouldn't have hearts to love… I
shouldn't love you like this, you are my friend, my partner… and
you deserve so much more, Stephanie… so much more."
"More
than you?!" something close to exasperation dyed her voice but her
eyes sparkled with love and happiness "More than a man who loves
me, would never lie to me and is willing to leave to protect me even
though he wants to stay with me? How could anybody, anywhere, anytime
be more than you?" Her whole body was quivering, but she didn't care.
"Sportacus, I love you, I… love you!" she shook his hand to
emphasize her words, and then began to laugh as she threw her arms
around him. "I love you…"
"I can't…" he said, but
began to softly caress her hair nevertheless.
"Do you love me?"
she parted a little, looking at him in the eyes.
"Yes,
Stephanie, I love you" he nodded cutely, unable not to smile 'love
you too much, too much…'
"Then there's a way. We can
be together. You can stay here, stay with me," she laced her
fingers into his. "And you can love me as I love you."
He
stared for some seconds at their entwined hands, how could be wrong
something that felt this good?
"It's not going to be easy,
Steph… there'll be many people that will never accept... us."
"I
know. I'm willing to face them all, to face it all as long as you
are with me, as long as I have you. Do I have you?"
The strength
of her words made his heart skip a beat and he brought her close to
kiss her forehead.
"You have me Stephanie."
There's always a way.
