Disclaimer: I do not own twilight or new moon but all new characters are mine
Authors note: This story starts at the beginning of new moon. When Edward leaves Bella. Obviously most of it I created though. But now you know where I'm coming from.
Broken promise
Bella POV
Edward has been acting SO weird the past week, like his head is in the clouds, you know? He doesn't talk to me, we haven't kissed, and I'm surprised he still comes to get me every morning for school. Lately I've been hanging out with Jacob a lot because of it. Him and me are really good friends now. I guess you could say he's my new best friend. I had a really bad day at school today and because my Edward is so out of it all the time he didn't even notice. So I went to the phone, dialled Jake's number and waited for him to pick up.
"Hello?"
"Hey Jake its bells" I said in a sad tone.
"Hey, what's the matter? You sound sad" he asked worriedly. Funny how he can't even see me and he know something's wrong, but Edward can be with me all day and not notice a thing.
" Ahh" I sighed. "Nothing to get worried about, just a bad day at school" i said trying to convince him.
"Are you sure?" he asked still worried.
"Ya, I'm sure. Hey you want to hang out tonight?" I asked already knowing the answer.
"Sure is right now ok? Or are you busy" he asked. I loved how he was always there for me.
"Nope, right now is good" I said all of the sudden exited "I'll be there soon"
"Ok, bye bells" he said in a way to happy tone. I had to giggle.
"Haha, bye Jake. See you soon" and with that I hung up the phone.
I got in my amazing old truck and slowly made my way to La Push. I got to Jakes house and went up and knocked on the door. Jake ran past me grabbing my wrist on the way by. He was holding my arm a little to title to be comfortable.
"Jake can ya loosen up your grip a little?" I asked running after him.
"Oh, sorry bells" he said letting his grip on me loosen a bit.
"So, where we going?" I asked in a tired voice. We had been running way to fast for the past five minutes. I was just asking to trip. Then all of the sudden through the trees I could see the ocean.
"Jake what's the hurry?" I asked slowing down to a stop.
"Haha, sorry, I'm just really exited" he said only slightly out of breath.
"About what?" I asked very confused
"You'll see," he said walking again.
We walked along the beach then we came to a waterfall. It wasn't very big but it was big enough to amaze me. It was so beautiful. "Wow" was all I could say.
"Pretty eh?" he asked with an amused tone.
"Mmhm" I said mesmerized by the site.
Just then he moved his hand from my wrist to my hand and pulled me closer to the falls. There was a very narrow path along the side of the cliff, and that's exactly where we were headed. This couldn't end well, knowing me I would end up falling off the edge or something. We walked along the path hand in hand and then when we got to the waterfall Jake pulled us through. There was a small cave behind the waterfall. It was very pretty and had a blanket on the ground in the middle of it. Jake had gone through a lot to set all this up in such short time.
"Oh my gosh, Jake its so pretty" I said while he pulled me to the blanket. All of the sudden I got the felling that he wasn't seeing us as just friends at the moment. Just then he pulled out a textbook and a workbook.
"I need some help with my math" he said shyly. All I could do was laugh.
" You went through all this trouble just for homework? I could have helped you with that at your house." I stated trying to figure out the point of all this.
" I found this place a couple days ago. I want this to be our private place." He said looking at his feet. I was so confused.
"What do you mean?" I asked having no idea what he was talking about.
" I want this to be a place that we can go to when we need to be alone or to talk. You know, just ours" he was still looking at his feet.
"Id like that" I said. He looked up into my eyes and a big smile grew on his face, it went right up to his eyes. He opened his textbook and we went to work.
When we were done we packed up and I went home. I got home an hour before Charlie would be home so I started on dinner. I made the stew and left it on low on the burner so it would be ready for Charlie when he got in. then I wrote him a note that I was going to bed because I had a long day in La Push. I got to my room, only to see Edward lying on my bed with his eyes closed. If vampires could sleep I would have thought he was. I sat beside him on the bed. He looked so troubled I wished I could have helped him somehow. I put my hand in his face and he opened his eyes.
"Hi" was all I could manage to say. This was the first time all week that he was here at night.
"Hi" he said in return. I stayed sitting beside him for a while until he sat up as well.
"Bella can we take a walk?" he asked looking out the window.
"Sure" I said not sure what to expect. He got up and we walked down the stairs. Charlie still wasn't home. We were walking for a long time. We had gone into a forest and were not just getting into a clearing. It was the meadow. It must be something good.
"Bella me and my family are leaving" he said looking at the ground.
"Leaving?" was all I could get out of my mouth. They were all leaving? My best friend, my boyfriend, my family?
"Yes, we are moving and not ever coming back" he said in a sad serious tone. How could he say things like this?
"What about me?" I tried to sound strong but it just came out all squeaky. I couldn't believe what I was hearing.
"You are staying here," he said in a harsh tone. Almost like a command. Wow that hurt. It was like thousands of knives were being stabbed into my heart.
"Why?" I asked. I felt like I was about to fall over. I looked into his eyes. I searched for some emotion and found nothing. Could he really mean all the things he is saying?
"I'm not good enough for you," he said in a stern yet sad tone. Hah! Not good enough for me? I'm the one that was never good enough for him. Ohhh that's it then.
"No, you mean I'm not good enough for you." I said in an unwanted shaky tone.
He didn't say anything. He looked all around. My eyes started to burn and my face flushed. How could he be saying all this to m? Right to my face. Telling me that our love was nothing? How could he? I felt water slowly flow down my cheeks. My knees gave out and I fell to the ground. I quickly picked myself up again. I didn't want to look weak at the one time that I needed to show my thoughts and feelings. Edward still didn't look at me. I was getting angry.
"Edward! Look at me!" How could he say all the things had said and now not have anything to say? I said my voice was no longer shaky. It was just as stern as his had been. He looked up into my eyes and I could see my pain reflected in his eyes.
"So all the times you told me you loved me? All the times we kissed? It was nothing?" I said trying to understand what he was saying.
"They did then but not now." He said in a harsh voice. Shit! I felt the knives in my heart twisting and pulling at the flesh, leaving it torn and gone.
"What are you saying?" I still didn't understand what he was telling me. He cant be saying that I think he's saying, can he?
"I don't love you anymore Bella." He said with not a bit of sadness in his voice. Yep he was, in the few words he spoke he ended my life. This time he was looking into my eyes. I searched his eyes to see if any of this was a lie and found nothing.
"So your leaving me? Just like that?" I asked tears streaming down my face. My voice braking into sobs. I couldn't believe this, my angle, my god, doing this to me? Saying these horrible words.
"Yes" he said with no hint of anything other than pure annoyance. And there it was. The one word that ripped out my heart and soul. The one word that would haunt me forever. I chose the worst possible time to blink. In the seconds that it takes to blink he was out of site. I didn't know what to do so I started to run. Rain had started to fall and was already starting to soak me. I ran fast and tripped many times. My face, knees, and hands all meeting the moss-covered ground. The trees and thick bush all around them was all a big blur of green, from running so fast and all the tears in my eyes. I ran for what seemed like forever until I tripped over a root that had grown out of the dirt. My foot got caught between it and the mossy earth. I fell flat on my face. Getting mud and moss all over my chin and on my mouth. I sat up to untangle my foot from the roots, but it was stuck. I tried and tried but it didn't budge. Damn it. Why do these things happen only to me? Does someone out there hate me or something? Then I stood up and slid my foot out. It had taken me what seemed like an hour to figure out something that should have taken me five maybe ten minutes. Standing there I heard Edwards voice replaying the conversation we had just had. How could he do that to me? Just leave me out here. He knows me better than to leave me out in the middle of a forest. And how could he take the one place that seemed magical and turn it into the personal hell it was? I would never be able to go to the meadow ever again. I couldn't hear him. Not now. Not ever. I hade to find a way to drown out the sound of his voice. Then I started to run again. Running faster and faster until I could smell salt and seaweed in the air. Then I saw it. Over the treetops was the glistening blue ocean. I ran to the beach as fast as I could. I got there and sat on a rock and began to sob. There were no tears for some odd reason. My breath was coming in short gasps as I hyperventilated. I was shaking so bad I thought I was going to fall right off the rock.
But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back
But it's over (Secondhand Serenade
Wow I never noticed how that song could ever fit my life. Then it came to me. My one place I can always go. To be by myself, when the world is out to get me. The falls. I got up and ran as fast as I could to the cliff. To my surprise I didn't trip once. I got to the falls and jumped through. I lost my footing as I landed and my butt met the hard wet ground. Something hard jabbed into my backside. What in the world did I have in my pocket? Then I remembered the I-pod that Alice had bought me. I would never see her again. She was gone forever. My best friend, gone. My family, gone. My love, gone. I turned it on to drown out my thoughts. My memories. Then the new song that sang of my life came on.
But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back
But it's over
I lose myself in all these fights
I lose my sense of wrong and right
I cry, I cry
It's shaking from the pain that's in my head
I just wanna crawl into my bed
And throw away the life I led
But I won't let it die, but I won't let it die
I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever
I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever
(Its not over- secondhand serenade)
Yep, that that's my life. That's for sure. Wow don't I sound all emo. But why shouldn't I? I mean I got my heart ripped out by the one guy that I could ever love, how could I not be?Then something disrupted my thought. The sound of something outside. Then I saw a blur come in through the curtain of water hiding me from the world. It was Jake.
"Oh Bella, I'm so glad I found you" he said out of breath. He sounded so worried.
"How did you know I wasn't at home?" I asked confused. For all he knew I was at home in bed or eating dinner, or maybe just talking to Charlie. Oh my gosh! Charlie!
" Bella, everyone knows your not at home," I must have looked confused because he clarified for me.
"Charlie has the whole town and all of La Push out looking for you." Wow that was a shocker. It really was. I hadn't known I was gone for so long.
"How did you know where to find me?" I asked knowing that he wouldn't have a real answer for me.
"I didn't,"-knew it-" but I remembered our conversation about why I had brought you here. And figured that if something bothered you enough to run away than you would go to the one place that was just yours. That no one else knew about." Other than him. He was absolutely right. That is exactly the reason I came here. Then all of the sudden a strange felling came over me. I reached out to Jacob and he took my hand. I pulled him down to me. And then I did the unthinkable. I kissed Jacob Black. I had kissed someone for the first time in my life that wasn't you know who (Edward).