Stupid
I have to lift myself up.
I've got to get out of this slow, stupid funk.
I can't keep going on this way.
When did I let you draw me astray?
I never wanted it to be like this.
Only sweet, simple love that could never exist.
I tried to get up,
I tried to leave,
but with one slow, stupid kiss
you stopped my retreat,
you pulled me in deeper.
Why would I let you become my stupid heart's keeper?
But who could refuse?
Who was I to resist?
With your cute, copied charm
you knew just what to say.
I can't believe I let you draw me astray.
I'm mad at myself, and I'm mad at you,
but you'll never know it,
you just pick and you choose.
You take my broken spirit, you leave my docile rage.
I hate you and your love and this stupid makeshift cage.
I wish you'd just go,
but you just go on and stay.
I'm going to leave you.
I'm going today.
As I go through the kitchen,
you look up with your slow, knowing smile.
I see you and your sweet piercing eyes and your stupid, all-knowing, loving disguise,
and I know that I'll leave you.
I'm not going to stay.
I swear that I'm going.
I'm going someday.
Stagnant