Understanding
You loved her right?
Of course!
And, you never forced her into anything she didn't want?
I would never...!
Then what's the big deal?
Just like that he obliterated any doubts I had about loving her. He barely knew me, yet he was so kind. Why...no...how could he not think me vile for loving my own sister as more then a sibling? He didn't even seem unnerved by it, a little shocked yes but that's understandable. He always spoke his mind no matter who was present, perhaps that's why I like him.
Did anyone else know you two were related?
No. We grew up in different children's homes so, no one could have known.
No worries about a town scandal then. Besides, I down for the whole 'Forbidden Love' thing.
He would be. Being a half demon would do that to you I guess. He didn't advertise that fact, but then again, he didn't have to. Being born with red hair and eyes simply because of what you were born as. Branded as cursed because of something you couldn't help or change. My host was a constant walking reminder of how cruel life could be, and of how helpless we were to change it.
Your lucky though, you know that right?
Lucky?
You loved her, and she loved you back.
Yes...I suppose you are right.
It would have hurt a hell of a lot worse if you loved her and she didn't give a shit about you.
Ah, he's chain smoking again. This is how our conversations have been lately. My own emotional turmoil would open old wounds for him. I'm not clear on the details, and honestly I almost don't want to. Its not that I don't care, but I'm almost afraid to know. If for some reason he would wish to tell me, I would listen, but he's really not one to talk about these things.
Was it because of her, that you were torn open out there?
Was it?
Not really. There was just some thing I needed to do.
Well, your still in bad shape so you keep you ass under those covers till you get an ok from the doctor.
Can I ask you a question regarding that?
Shoot.
Why did you save me?
My, I think that's the first time he seemed stunned. He was on the verge of lighting yet another cigarette when I had asked. Now he was comically frozen in that pose. Surprisingly enough, he put the unlit cigarette down and got a most serious look on his face.
Because, you looked like you wanted to die. That's why I saved you.
Before I could ask what he meant, he left the room. He was right though, I did want to die. But what I couldn't get was he reasoning. Was he kidding? No...he seemed far too serous to be joking. Why save what wants to die? What could he have ever been trying to say to me? Before I could think about this more he walked back into the room suddenly.
Forgot my smokes.
Yes the five minutes of fresh air must have been torture. How did you stand it?
Ya know, your lucky your cute and hurt other wise I'd pop you one.
Damn blush reflex. He was such the shameless flirt at times. He new that I blush easy, perhaps that's why he does it? He picked up his forgotten cigarettes a headed toward the door, stopping just before he reached it. He winked and proved how strange he was.
Night sugar, see ya in the morning.
I was tempted to respond, but he left the room again. I sighed a laid back on he bed that I was stealing until further notice according to him. I figured he slept on the couch or else where when he was out all night. I was a little jealous when he would leave, I still am not sure of what though. perhaps I just like the attention, maybe its some thing else. I fear I'm starting to care for him more then I should. Could that be possible? Its just that he's so understanding, is that why? Could I really be in love with him? Am I in love with Sha Gojyo?